My never has come
The day I succumb
That thing that I’d never do
Just became a deceitful truth
Here I am talking to my mom
Telling her nothing's really wrong
Just some nights without sleep
The stars have been holding me
A hammock of lights in the night sky
But the atmosphere inside my mind
Makes me unable to meet eyes
You’d see through hazel iris lies
You know how to read me
You'll predict all I’ll do
But because I’ve failed you
I failed me too
But only I can live with it
Keep it down deep
Trying hard to pretend
I won’t fall to my knees
God wasn’t there when it happened
Because it was in my head in my voice
And my own voice scares me more than God
When I make a shameful choice
As much as I want to I don’t let God in
And he shakes his head as I bathe in sin

~kb