Deep down
I want to answer with
“I’m not okay..
This existence is a game
That has yet to go my way.
I can’t seem to get these tears
To just decay  
I want to sleep, but I sit and think and
Then I realize it’s the next day
That one scenario I got on replay
That very day I chose to walk away
And ever since, I’ve been in dismay.”
But I answer with “I’m okay”
My feelings I shall not portray
No, no, not today.

Why live, only to die?

Why love, when alone I'll die?

Why laugh, only to watch others cry?

Why cut, when blood will dry?

I watch with bloodshot eyes,
Under moonlit skies.

I listen with cold ears,
As the end nears.

I feel only pain,
Suffering in vain.

I taste death,
On a winter's breath.

I smell sorrow,
With no hope for tomorrow.

You can break my body,
But never my soul.

I'm done being quiet,
And doing as I am told.

I've fought too hard,
Only to be left in the cold.

You can try to take everything from me,
But my spirit will never be sold.

So go ahead and try,
If you happen to be so bold.

Alone in the rain
I stand again.

Wishing that I
Could see you one more time.

I try to come to you,
But only get pushed away
With so much left to say...