And your
heart seeps out
into the
ground.

only to
be buried
cold by
this moment.

buried by
all of the
fragments of
news and
pieces of
you,

loves won
loves lost.
love never
given,

love never
received.

and in
this tragic
glimpse of
time,

now
you must
face the
honesty
of you.

standing on
a breach
of echos
of times
that you thought
you heard
I love you,

and then
you almost
answered
"I love you
back".

and now
with this
sickness that
questions
and grips
our very
lives,

thank God I
I know that
I am exactly
where I
was meant
to be.

and I love
my wife
like a
dream come
true.

and I hope
it is that
way with
all of
you.

cause one
heart was
never meant
to go
through all
of this

alone.

and everything
in her eyes
and the reflection
in mine,

is the story
of our lives,

and at
night,

the quiet
slumber
is that of
clouds slowly
moving through
the sky
on a rainy
night.

and  in
our sleep
and in
our dreams her
hand always
seeks to
hold mine,

and never
do we
wake.

and in morning
her kiss is
deeper still.

and today
in the moments
we are apart,

are all the
moments in
my life
that I
will only
miss her
more.

and a hundred
times today
I will look
up to the sky

and say,

"she married me
she married me"

and for
that Lord
I will be

forever blessed.

The moment
that I
risked this
runaway
feeling  
in your
eyes,

was the
moment that
I knew
I could
never go
home
again.

flower pulled
from the
darkened
ground,

naked
and afraid
lying across
your
heart.

more question
than destiny,

lover gone
bad.

falling star
burning my
eyes
into white,

and now
you don't
even think of
me anymore.

and I am
so much less
the man
for it.

and my
soul just
at the
thought of
you

bleeds out
all over
again.

to the
still
of this
night.

alone.

In my dream
it was coming
on Christmas,

it was
the birth
of a journey
unlike anything
that I
had ever
been on
before.

and it
was the
first time
for feelings
that I
had never
felt before.

and I knew
it was you
in my heart,

from the
first moment
that I saw
you.

something definite
magically defined
like silver stars
that dance on
the blackest
sky on
a chill
winter's night.

and ask nothing
of the sky
but a view.

a soft and
tender kiss
that can
never be forgotten.

and as
I hold
you now,

I still
witness the
stars dancing
in your
eyes,

in this life
that has become
our grace.

in the
dreams that
I have found
my true love

in the
universe
that I have
found in

you.

in the
silence of
a tender
smile

upon your
face.

tonight.

With our love
what I have
found and what I
have left
behind,

we are
the sum total
of everything
in my
universe.

that night
you walked
away in
shadows
like a stray
alley cat off
to look for
a tasty morsel.

and I was all
for the less
for it,

and you
have wandered
in and
out of
half empty
beds every since,

even back into
mine now
and then.

drunk in
the night
wondering
when anything
good might
come out
of this.

and now
30 years
of our love
has left
you,

and the color
of your
amber eyes
have gone
dark.

but you were
a child once,

and then
you grew
it all away
to runaway
from all
consequences.

and my arms
that just
wanted to
hold you.

and love.

now  time
is not
your friend
anymore

and our love
has left
your bones
cold and
old.

and what
will become
of you..

only God
surely knows.

Through the
marrow of
my bones
I do love
you,

where it
is the purest
white.

in the
heart of
the deepest
black night
do I see
you,

and surrender
to your black
smoked eyes.

and as you
lie open
and waiting.

for the
taste of
us.

I feel it.

and wonderland
is not for
children
anymore..

we have become
the sunrise
and the sunset
in our
lives.

the Romeo
and Juliet
of the dreams
tucked
underneath
our bedroom
pillows.

nothing
reminds me
of my life
before you.

you have
changed all
of that.

we carve
the rivers
edge ,

and forever is
just up ahead
within reach,

of our first kiss

tonight.

And she
said "yes!"

she will
marry me,

and it
entirely changed
the apex of
my life's point
of view.

and now there
were two.

it was like
jumping off
a cliff and
landing on
only a deep
ocean sky.

and love was all
we knew ,

and
my dreams
were all we
lived.

together in
everything that
we did.

and "I love you
became our
point of view.

it was
the perfect timing
of the universe.

when

I asked
her to marry me

and she "said Yes"