Faith, like a kid?
Well I got faith, under my bed
I said, will you be my friend?
And then he nods his head
But was something he misread
And he left something unsaid
Nige is my friend
But what he meant was fiend
And I find that I bend
To the weight of this wind
And I become something within
Something I’ve always been

So much content
Should it all be on it

So I meditate on your temple
Of days back then, way back when
And I seek hope in the simple
I’m using the lead to discover the gold
Prophets of old, inside I hold
My stories of long ago, the beauty in now
As my story unfolds, I’m seeing how

He doesn’t need me, but oh the beauty
That He chooses, us to be tools of
His light, to glorify, and lift Him high
And so I try, to testify the sky
With all my might, but my might will die
And even with all His strength
It still does not quite reach
My capability to make you see
To praise Him in my humanity
But I try to personify, Him and His glory
So one day you can see the full story

NEONISFAKEFIRE.
CAN’TYOUSEE?
NEONISFAKEFIRE.
WELL,ISUPPOSE
YOUHAV­ETOFEEL.

I was about to make a rap about the color orange
But then I remembered, what rhymes with orange?
I mean, what actually rhymes with it?
Sure, orange floors, orange to the core, I scorn the orange
That all works, but I suppose there’s nothing like the color orange
I don’t know, I guess I just like the in-between

Soul murderers, what do you think occurs?
Is it because of your hurts, do you not care what is learned?
I’m trying not to get angry but this topic makes me shaky
For the lives you’ve been taking, the life that’s been shaken
And if she likes this bit, you messed up her head to enjoy that pit
And if it was up to me, I’d use profanity
But as you’ll see, God’s forgiven me
And His grace calls for a different pace
And to deny His face would be to claim another throne

We’ve made *** our throne
The thing we turn to when we feel alone
But loneliness comes from trying to fill that hole
With things we should know don’t made us whole
God is the only one that completes us
It offers us nothing to seek lust
So will we force our chasm for a quick ******?
Will we deny the peace at Jesus’ feet for who we weren’t mad to be?
Or trade in *** with our hand for the God who has a much greater plan?
This obsession isn’t a question, rather it’s a name we excuse to be lame
We’re prostitutes if we constitute to enjoy out of how we ought to
But at least a ***** gets paid to save their poor
We look like God requires of us to give up everything
Take a look at Christ and how much to took to bearing
Your sinful ways are dead and buried
I’d say it’s a pretty good trade
To hand your life over to the God who will have it made
You look to these things to feel worth
But wouldn’t you agree this endless cycle is a curse?
Turn to the only name that follows through
Is our Lord and Savior who makes brand new
And my anger is overtaken because He’s the God of savin’
And He will bring justice, but before then He offers us a way out of corruption
There is a God who can revive souls
When you surrender for Him to mold

They say it’s painless
But it’s not nameless
No, we’re not nameless, no

They ***** with your head and I’m sorry
You don’t deserve this
It wasn’t your fault, if it wasn’t your folly
You should know it

But you must know you have a Father in heaven
Someone who loves you and accepts you in
He won’t abuse your emotions
He feels your pain, and will heal your bruises, He’s rowing
You can show Him all your scars
What you may have done, and what was done to you
And He still welcomes me with open arms
And our Savior will guide you through

It’s okay to admit you’re in the storm
Don’t ignore it like before
It will always linger
But with God, death loses its stinger
That is not the love the Father wants for you
What He wants for you, is pure and true

They say it’s painless
But it’s not nameless
No, we’re not nameless, no

I can tell that you wanna **** me
When I’m thinking it’ll be easy-er
Well, yer gonna need something stronger
Because you got the same ol’ routine
You aint got no new schemes
You’re the one that’s bleeding
‘Cause you know you don’t hold my meaning

Is it that I’m, denying the truth?
Is it that I, have something to prove?
I want to prove that I’m not a loser
But I lose the truth I’m a snoozer
But I lose that fluke when I don’t rebuke
His useful tool and proof-full shoes

Dipping into the ripping is crippling
I lean towards the twisty, it can get me kinda misty
But I simply, need a little twisting
Fitting, for the sipping I want printing
He’s witty, and can be a little slippery

I’ve been listening to music late at night lately
It hasn’t really helped me deal with the coffee
The songs bore, and even the new are dull
To the core, I don’t think I know between lull

App full of sounds I don’t want
Sounds that don’t reflect my cup
I just want my cup to be dumped
See how it goes with the punt

I have the drive of a servant
So I need to strive to learn it
It’s not enough to want it
That doesn’t reach the sum of it

Can the lost ever truly be found?
How long lasts the holy ground?
When does it end and where to begin?
Are we freed indeed, or do we need
To keep ourselves to our deed to leap?
Well how would we, when we all seep?
Is it truly up to us, to keep us from a cusp?
Will we all just rust, if we’re not keeping up?

I just wanna see a day of decay go away
And when I close my eyes I’ll see the prize
Instead of the eyes, I won’t have to try
And another day of grace will come my way

I feel like a disgrace to the human race
But wait, they don’t grace the face me
Don’t play with the taste of me
Stay if you wanna say with me
The things the world won’t dare to speak
Both our demons and our society
The singing they keep off our tongue
The things they don’t want
Because they know if we sung
There would be new under the sun

Verse 1
It takes a lot to not let a thought get rotten
Stepping into the distorting fortress and worship of conforming
It’s hard to not get caught, or get across what I sought
A believer believing the lies of the deceiver
Under siege of the one who heaves
Can you believe that? Can you believe him?
Is it possible to be a man after God’s own heart?
But if you read David’s part, it can still be hard
Doubt leading to seasons of spiritual amnesia
I wish I could shake this state but I’d like to take it
Called to become the Son except I worship the sun
But Jesus is in the boat with you and me
And holds the power to calm the sea
Then why doesn’t He?
Believe me please, it’s for a reason
I hope you’ll see, it’s just a season
If you begin to believe in the God who’s breathing
Listen for the whisper louder than the screams
I know it’s hard that we can’t fully conceive
But faith is in things we can’t see
And if we could see our will wouldn’t be free
Wait to hear how I’ve come to stand
Jesus is here so take His hand

Break
I don’t know why, I ignore what’s high
But He came to die, for the things I cry
Not all will fly but I will try
To point your eyes up toward the sky

So why do I cry when the light’s suppose to take my life?
Then why would I die if it seems so unsatisfying?

Verse 2
I see how seemingly lame it is
But what a radical change there is
For it won’t always be a distant engagement
We can find contentment in His tent
Trails and temptations but not worn and un-torn as the storm rages
This is the hope you’ll find within His pages
So get out of your cage and up from your basement
For the latent call will then be blatant
That His Word says He has overcome this world
Why would I try and it be a lie
If He cried before He even died
Pray where you are, not where you think your should be
He wants you further along where you belong
But He won’t leave, He meets us where we are
Don’t shoulder this alone—take our community
Notice the laments don’t end with despair
He is here but He won’t leave you there
The wrong can seem like it’s winning
So take the hand that we’re lending
This outlet to let it all out
Sing with me if you know what I’m talking about
See that we have peace in the tribulations
For He has taken our death and gifted salvation
He’s not asking for you to come before in perfection
Come here to take off your mask
Come with me and we’ll face this task
Because I can look like I have it all figured out
Running through this race in only one pace
But if you graze what’s behind my face you’ll see all this doubt
Built up inside so let it all out
For God has not forgot about us
It’s here, the land of our possession
So will you take it?—that’s the question

You say You’ve died for my sins
But is it a sin when my thoughts begin
To bend in the wind, and then
I’m feeling all my demons again?
Is it that I’m denying the truth?
Is it my fault that I’m haunted by rues?
I know that You will not lose
Just why does this have to be my cruise?
I worship but still I feel so lonely
Is this something You’re showing me?
When I get close, I’m struck with apathy
Overwhelmed with emotions attacking me

My flight suit, is full-proof
I jump in, no regret when
My armor, is stronger, don’t bother
The Father, is all that, I garner
Only He, can get me, father

Stay close to me, flight suit
I say when I don’t want You
I’ll take a step off, wearing my armor
I keep it tight, bound to the light
As I’m falling, into His calling

So easy to slip off, I tip off
I trip and skip down the lip
And I’m falling to the earth
Oh God, this is gonna hurt
But He still supplies my lift

These are my confessions, find rest in them
Deep thinking, I hope you see, and meeting
The God that gave you your brain
And now things shouldn’t be the same
Now that you know your Creator has made
And your death in debts has been paid
You can speak freely to your Father
And talk to Him about the things that bother
And I’m sure your questions will be answered
When you give your heart over to be prepared

I could post my second-guessing
But I rather share the blessings
And how dumb I was to doubt
As if it was up to me to work it all out

My t’s are uncrossed and my i’s are un-dotted
I lost when I fought it but my God has just started

What will I do with it?
This gift that He’s given, that’s the question
Will He approve of it?
Is this prohibited?
Will I ever stop rappin’ about all of my doubtin’?
Will I ever just step off the ledge to pledge
That I neglect the red and won’t let it fledge
I’ve taken a step but still I fear the fall
It’s hard, isn’t it, to give God your all?
Because I doubt what I saw, this vision I had
Though I felt it as a pawn, I fear that it’s bad
Is it Satan painting this contradicting friction?
Bundling me with fear, keeping me huddled here?
To another neon light—is there fire in my plight?
Honest darkness the world needs to hear?
Hand it over to God and let Him steer?

Aside from all these worries
When I think about my music, I’m excited
When I take a step back
To look at what God can allow it to do
I can’t wait to release it
And allow God to have it affect people
That sounds awesome

I remember the poem I wrote
Where I started talking about being on a stage
And since then
I’ve had a vision
Reading back through my lyrics
I imagined getting to talk to people
Between songs
And talk with them afterwards
And I really look forward to it

Planning strategy, half of me
Follows through with what I want to do
And the other half takes the different path
Hath this way the only cay I have?

I got a buzzcut
It’s not exactly the same rut
It’s not suppressing dark, but
I’m still in the cell
And I think God has me dwell
So I can know everything well
I just thought I’d show
That I know
And I will go

This is your story, do not be ashamed
May this be the telling of your journey
Let your hands open up like gates
And your fingers flow like streams
Your plans, the pallet on which you walk
The ground on which you paint
Brush the canvas your Creator has made
So may forests grow, and mountains be lifted
May oceans part, and waters be stilled
All by the grace and power of God
For He was with us from the clay
And stands by our side until our last day
Because these poems are your story
So do not be ashamed, do not let it cage
Instead, may this be the telling of His glory

I wonder if I can change my addict, if I’m at it
Another character I need to give attention
And I wonder if he’s been the one preventing
He’s been so focused on who I need to please
That I’ve forgotten to plant the seeds
And water my own flowers, through His power
And I’ve allowed myself to be so bothered
That I denied either of us any water
So I just might, make him an addict to light
Addicted to the Bible as the scribe of
God, the message man to the One above
I wonder if I can take joy in the things I deploy
And if it turns this addict into the scribe

Out To Sea - Track 4

((These are songs about growing up))

I cannot see, I cannot breathe
I cannot write, what I can’t perceive
It’s like life is an illusion and we’re all living in it
Just sit down and write and put a pin in it
Maybe it will help the confusion, to put a pen to it
Time is gaining momentum
Each moment that we’re living it
Momentarily living it

Remember the moment
You have a thought inside your head
A thought so clear you can hardly control it
You get up and hold it but write it down instead
But you can hardly find the paper and pen
So the moment you go to use it
Is the moment you lose it
The thought is lost so you try to find it again
Maybe you shoulda held it in your head
And now I’m trying to find it in something I’ve read

This is it, bringing us all to the edge of our seats
It gives the hero and the enemy meaning
Held from a string, I’m singing
The screen warps our thought
Growing and molding in plot
But I’m still not, I’m caught
In-between the conflict and the driving plot
Caught between playing the hero and the enemy
I don’t know which is me, or who I’d rather be
Because what I choose to do is not what I desire to
Caught in the brain game, it’s just a daydream
No one thinks to think about the endgame
Beg the question, who will loose, I know but who will I choose
Do you ever ask these questions? Have you ever been sincere?
Do you ever look into your reflection? Do you know why you’re here?

Out To Sea - Track 3

(((Early age, I barely remember this stage
When I started to face, but I looked away)))

What I’m trying to say is...
I’ve been waiting, for a thought to come to mind
A thought so good, one that I can make a storyline
‘Cause all I can seem to think is, how much I want to write
So I sit, pen in hand
And I write as much as I can
But still by the end of it, I’m lost
I can’t keep up with my thoughts
And I’m awful, ‘cause I had this dream when I was a kid
But these things are disappearing with the older I get
I’ve been sitting as the ink drips and my mind slips—going dull
So perhaps I should just go back to using the pencil
Foraging in the origins, in the roots to see what grew

More things get in the way, day by day
And I just can’t write, and I don’t know why
I don’t have time and when I do I sigh
I present this stuff to God because I cry
And I know He hears, even though I don’t really talk to Him
I just write, and expect Him to take them
But I hold onto these notes and don’t listen
And maybe that’s a problem—better yet, it is
I know it is but I always lose thought
Of the hope I have
And I go back to writing
And it doesn’t make sense
And I start all over again.
So here I am
I’m writing this song
To just explain to you in a way
That I’m crazy

I don’t know what the next songs hold
And I know you probably won’t get them
But it’s the prologue I never told
If you’re here to hear, just keep trying
It’s fine if you don’t understand
It’s not part of the plan
Only few comprehend
Don’t try to keep me congregated
I’ve done that for long enough
And now my thoughts are complicated
I like it this way, it’s for your own good
It comes out the wrong way
So keep back because you really should

Out To Sea - Track 2

I begin to hear screams
Coming from my dreams
They come from underneath
The come from beneath—what?

Worth
A thought worth mentioning
Is a thought worth depicting
But the thoughts I have, make me feel insane
People call me crazy, and I begin to hate my brain
Thoughts
They keep coming
They won’t stop
They take over my body
Until I feel what’s left of me
And what’s left of me I can’t explain
Dreams
They come at certain moments
Momentarily you know it
Make you rethink your life
Want to relive your life, right
Reality
But then it ends
You hit your bed and your morning begins
You hold onto what is left
Barely there, but left on the tip of your breath
You search hard, unable to remember
Unable to decide if it’s reality
Or if you’re just a dreamer

As a kid it was different
They were all happy dreams with happy things
But now it seems the picture’s different than we dreamed
You start to grow up and you start to do things
And your dreams change from happy thoughts
To those who haunt your past
To the things you thought you forgot
And reminds you of the task
It’s not fun anymore, is it?
No, not at all
You just want to fall
Down, down, down
Out of this dream, onto your bed
Up from the floor, before your dreams were dead
Out of this thing
Where nothing seems to seem
Right anymore
Youth out the door

Nothing really stays the same
Between the dreams and the nightmares
You forgot why you came
Unprepared and unaware
But the message I’m portraying
Is not what I’m saying
I forgot why I’m here
Am I even near
To what you want to hear
Oh please, oh dear
It’s not music to please your ear
It’s to show you that we all live in fear
So give me a chance to speak my thoughts
No, don’t keep me in a box
My insight unlocked
But I fear that it’s not...

See, I write these songs
But how am I suppose to record
The beat that’s in my head
Braindead
I rather keep it stored
Take a walk inside my head
Can’t you hear it, can’t you feel it?
I was pronounced braindead
So leave it

((This is my prologue. I hope you enjoyed.))

Out To Sea - Track 1

Verse 1
I was up all night
I can’t explain why
Just sitting here thinking
Gazing at the sky
...But you know that’s a lie
What I’m really trying to say is I was staring at the ceiling
Pondering the word “why”
Am I sitting here or am I just dreaming

I guess I’m just a little stir crazy tonight

Chorus
Why’m I still scared in the morning?
I feel my steps have been stalling
Oh I’m falling, oh I’m falling, down
Why’m I so lost in the evening?
I’m afraid to slow my heart’s beating
Still You’re calling, still you’re calling
Telling me to slow, down
Down, down, down, down

Verse 2
The stars they pass by
In the darkness of the night
I walk outside, down the street, until I stop my feet
With steps piled up, crying, miles behind me
I begin my decent
Down a spiral decline
And find myself somewhere
Where I cannot define

I guess I’m just a little stir crazy tonight!

Chorus
Why’m I still scared in the morning?
I feel my steps have been stalling
Oh I’m falling, oh I’m falling, down
Why’m I so lost in the evening?
I’m afraid to slow my heart’s beating
Still You’re calling, still you’re calling
Telling me to slow, down
Down, down, down, down

Verse 3
Every day I overdo it
Just yesterday I was through it
Focused on the windowsill
My life at ease and chill
But with the thump of roadkill
I look back through the rierview mirror
And see the things I feared

I guess I’m just a little stir crazy tonight!

I’m scared when I finally have to drive
I fear that my mind will take a ride
I can feel that I’ve been too thoughtful
In a way that’s bad an harmful
My parents want me to have a car
But I know my mind will stray too far
It’s just another room for my mind
Trapped in a moving vessel I’ll get lost inside
Claustrophobic yet my mind won’t abide
I’m scared that I’ll lose control
My demons take the wheel and overthrow

These new boxes are stressing me
Maybe I need to unlock my first one first
Then see where God is leading me
So many lines backed up in my mind
Should I cut ties and let them die?
Is it all just in my mind? I hope to not find
Use this dump for the bump, this lump I cup?
Rappin to uncap, tap if you’re at it

Tower of Silence - Track 14

Verse 1
The blind can’t learn to see
By opening their eyes
I can’t abolish the gloom
By putting putting in a disguise
But through faith and obedience
I can find my Lord
I will remain in prayer to Him
And abide in His Word
They live by faith, not by sight
Live in the dark, but step in the light
Guided by our noise, follow the path of His voice
The blind dance in step to what they hear
They walk in the fog, but their path is clear

Chorus
Oh
You save my life and pay my crime
So take my life and use this rhyme
To praise my name and not my line
Father I want it to be You that I praise
And through my craze, they see Your face
Hope they see that though we’re flawed
Still we’re called into Your endless grace
So I hope these words are testimony
To what You save and what You’ve shown me

Verse 2
Gulping down the morphine
Except it didn’t stop the bleeding
My emotions seeping out of me
Left feeling like a zombie—paralyzed
Because rolling down the windows only works for so far
Until I debate rolling out of the car
Found a new drug to help me sanitize
Maybe even help my polarize
Here lately it’s been chlorine
In hopes to keep me clean
But it does well to keep on killing
Now I might just need adderall
That’s why I like darkness and take cold showers
I stand up on high places to give me the power
I’ve had too much coffee, and I think way too deeply
Should have bought decaf, but I did it again
Got it black and cold to reflect my soul within
I want it all but now I’m relapsed
In an effort to take back the reigns
Of the One who overcomes the thoughts and pain
I’m thankful that my God continues to intercede
Because I’d be dead if I chose to proceed
I know it’s a lot of metaphors
But take a look at your source
And I hope it helps direct your course

Chorus
Oh
You save my life and pay my crime
So take my life and use this rhyme
To praise my name and not my line
Father I want it to be You that I praise
And through my craze, they see Your face
Hope they see that though we’re flawed
Still we’re called into Your endless grace
So I hope these words are testimony
To what You save and what You’ve shown me

Break
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh

Verse 3
How many times must I take it into my own hands
To accept the test of seasons of sand
Thinking I can manage it empty handed
Wondering where He is every time I panic
I pry at the terrain, clawing at my brain
To throw my mind inside like Moses decided
But the hole in my soil is far too shallow
I’ve killed a man then denied it
I’m on the run, dying and prying
So when the night comes and the rain falls I’m feeling hallow
Why don’t I turn—I don’t have to run back to
I look down at my palms, what I’ve written in these songs
Thought I was flying straight, until I take a step back to dilate
And I find my ****** bones have resurfaced
And my mind it surges
Do I not see how I walking’s urgent?
Do I not know His love is enduring?
Am I writing what’s pertinent?
Why have I not laid down my shovel and given it over
When Christ has already etched in His tombstone
That His love overflows and my sin is dead
But I like the company of what’s in my head
And I rather my heart be led than His Spirit lead me free
I can’t avoid the night
I can’t outrun the rains
But I can give my sight
To the one who sustains
And send all my thoughts and sin His way

Break
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh

Verse 4
So I hope you can take a rhythm
Use these shadowed songs and listen
Because not everything’s exactly bright
And there’s a blur between what’s wrong a right
Because Satan twists the picture
Using the fine lines of Scripture
Because it’s a fair question—is it enough?
Can we still have these thoughts and claim that we’re in love?
Well, without darkness what else could we write?
There would be no delivery to day from night
So I encourage you to take these raw emotions
And offer it to the God who restores the erosion
Because we have a Father by our side
The All-Knowing who guides the blind
So there are those who choose to see the apocalypse
But if you take His rest you’ll step in the glimpses
I pray you can take my graves
And see the path that I pave
Take this stone He has rolled away for your own
Dig deeper and know He has shone for your soul
Because I serve the God of transformation
And I want that to be your destination
So what do I want written on my grave?
I don’t want the fame, I won’t be a slave, so please don’t praise this stage
No I don’t like my name, I wouldn’t have this face if it wasn’t for His grace
Because God works everything our beautifully
For our good and for His glory
For those who obey lovingly
In His perfect timing, be patient and see
For He is the Lord of Sovereignty
Let that be my eulogy

Bridge
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh

Outro
So I will fall inside
Of You
And fill up all my wounds
In my hands
Revive all the graves
Within my mind
I give You all my plans

Tower of Silence - Track 13

Verse 1
I see the canvas behind your eyes
I see the artist in disguise
I see the portrait painted so no one else will see
I see dimly lit sands and beyond a vast sea
I see your pallet—black and grey
And I see the bright colors you display
I see in your eyes the dripping color
Windows to the soul, I know
I see, you don’t trust a single other
So know, even if our eyes never meet again
This show, I hope you take it on the streets
I see, and realize you are just like me
I see, and I long to remedy

Chorus
The sun seems to fall with such gravity
Falling out of orbit as we lose our sanity
The night brings gloom as the day comes to an end
But you must know the dark is not your only friend
In this moment you must let the world turn
Keep going and shadows burn
We might not all make it but please try
We will win so find hope in what should die

Verse 2
The world gets worse, day by day
It burdens my heart, to see you this way
There’s a place for you in my soul
But that hole in you is filled with decay
You wish to place a bullet in your brain
But you’re afraid, it will just rattle around your head
I want to help you with this stain
But we will never know what’s not said
I know it’s not easy to un-bottle what’s inside
But with me and my music you don’t have to hide
I want to take it as my duty to save you
So I’ll direct you to the One who gives refuge
Do me a favor and gather your shards
Eclipse the moon and we’ll tally the stars
You raise up white flags most of these days
I was born with you so won’t you stay
So you will burn like a countryside star
For our God is not that far
They will not cast you out, they will not take you down
For in Christ, your meaning is found

Chorus
The sun seems to fall with such gravity
Falling out of orbit as we lose our sanity
The night brings gloom as the day comes to an end
But you must know the dark is not your only friend
In this moment you must let the world turn
Keep going and shadows burn
We might not all make it but please try
We will win so find hope in what should die

Verse 3
You have given your sight to the bottom
And fancy the darkness in which you swim
But notice the bliss of your abyss won’t let you in
So friend, please take your hands from over your eyes
This gloom has meaning because you are meant to be free
There’s light out the window that you must see
The night will meet it’s end, and you my friend will stand again
I once was a Heaver, just like you
And I can relate the what you’re going through
Lost in a sea of solemn blue
Slowly I found my way back to shore
But sometimes I fear I’ll end up like before
We grow stronger the more we endure
Building up for when the night brings more
It’s a question I struggle with—what’s it for?
The dark is the conflict, but hope is the driving plot
There’s peace in the storm, of this I’m sure!
So aim at me and take your shot
And I’ll show you all’s not lost
The night will haunt me again with things I’ve overcome
The dark reminds me of what I can still become
So you see, I’ve had wounds where a light is shone
But the might we can overcome when we kneel at His throne
So now I hope to row in a sea that is not my own
I want to know the valleys you are meaning
Because each of us is a human being
And the pain you feel is nothing new
No, I may not have seen your depths
But I have found my breath and now give it to you
A blot of yellow in your solemn blue

Tower of Silence - Track 12

Verse 1
Oh oh, I’m fearful when I play our song alone
Oh oh, I’m careful when we wear our rebel clothes
Oh oh, I’m ready when we sing this on the low
I’m lonely when I forget about our revel, oh oh
I’m zealous when we go marching in our yellow, oh oh!
I’m steady when I’m covered by my fellow rebels

Chorus
If we keep moving, they won’t know
Stay here with me, just keep low
When the silence flows, we will know that
Their religion has no hold, no
(The demons have no govern here)
Their religion has no hold, no
(The demons have no govern here)

Verse 2
There’s something that we need to say
Something before the end of the day
One thing before you go back home
You need to know you are not alone
You need to take it from these lines
There’s an army of us by your side
For you my stomach churns, my lyrics burn
I can’t sleep until it’s heard
So let’s take a walk and join the march
My Kind, my muse, there are many but we are few
Fighting for our minds, my Kind
Aiming for your heart, BANG our hope in view

Chorus
If we keep moving, they won’t know
Stay here with me, just keep low
When the silence flows, we will know that
Their religion has no hold, no
(The demons have no govern here)
Their religion has no hold, no
(The demons have no govern here)

Verse 3
Fall out of formation, rebel recognition, oh oh
They keep us in line
Follow the vibrations, come and find your place in, oh oh
We’ll find our incline
We’re all searching for something new
So I’ll go through with you
My lungs, are tired
But my hope, has not, retired

Bridge
( They won’t know ) (( About our revel ))
( Just keep low ) (( Marching in our yellow ))
( They won’t know ) (( About our revel ))
( Just keep low ) (( Marching in our yellow ))

drums Hey! (x5)

Verse 3
Each of us has our own trench
A black pit we must bare before we can breathe the morning air
Fire proves the proof in bullets
Ideas you should go show prudent
With growing numbers and flying colors my sisters and brothers
Tested and oppressed by the vendetta
Except’a He took the death to get me outa
The government of suffering that hovers
A masked assassin I tend to question
Our trench which is tended by depression
It’s a human condition, along with anxiety and suicide succession
But we must take a stand to enter in, to find our way within the dim
We’ll be up here on the ridge
As you walk across your bridge
We’ll cloak you with hope and encouragement
All of us as we face our tench
Receiving the yellow letters you sent

Chorus
If we keep moving, they won’t know
Stay here with me, just keep low
When the silence flows, we will know that
Their religion has no hold, no
(The demons have no govern here)
Their religion has no hold, no
(The demons have no govern here)

Bridge
Dare to be one of us, hey!
Dare to be one of us, hey!
Dare to be one of us, hey!
Dare to be one of us, hey!
Dare to be one of us, hey!
Dare to be one of us, hey!
Dare to be one of us, hey!

Verse 4
Our minds can be violent
In a world surrounded by sound, we’re worn and beaten down
But when our flow goes quiet
And our brains aren’t occupied, we can find the silence in our mind
But often we make an attempt to hide it
Day-to-day life chips away at our bones, caught up in the touch-and-go
So when our lives go vacant, our thoughts become blatant
We recognize the darkness behind our skull
Applying a little more pressure than usual
But I’ve found there’s another sound, I know of
For when we feel this far from home, reminding us we are not alone
We must not let each other go under
We’ll recover in our cover
Listen to my message, it’s dire
Because many of us are losing our fire
So take your time to cover and let someone know
We must band together to take them whole
Blinker, Sleeper, or Heaver
I promise you, we’ll make it though
I am a Dreamer and so are you

Outro
I am a Dreamer and so are you
I am a Dreamer and so are you!
I am a Dreamer and so are you!!
I am a Dreamer and so are you!!!

I am a Dreamer and so are you

Tower of Silence - Track 11

Hook
I’ll keep on going
If you keep on showing
Yeah I’ll keep it going, for you
If you keep on showing, up to
I can’t see it no, oh oh
But if you deem is so, oh no
I will go, oh oh
I will go, oh no

Verse 1
An ode to the darkness
I owe it to who fought this
To the One who saved me
And no, it wasn’t just a daydream
I prob’ly lost a lot of me
But thanks anyways—you set me free
I won’t consider it a loss—made it out to be the dark that has lost
My mind buckles in shotty, the darkness taking over my body
I’m sorry, but I’m taking back what belongs to me
I’m taking a break from these things where I stored my emotion
It causes too much commotion
I’m putting my mind on cruise control
I’m letting the Lord above take it all
But the truth is, I can’t cut ties with the silence
The dangerous are those who face the violence
It will always be here
My mind will always tied to the side that’s easier
But I’ve found a way to fight it
Take the darkness as a weapon and light it

Chorus
There’s still silence admits the sound
Determined to wear me down
All around, I’m srround–
–ed, and pound–
–ed, into the ground
I’m hounded like those long dead
Found, now I’m grounded
And surrounded
By something far more profound

Verse 2
I started the car, but I never got that far
I stayed until the air drew thin, even then
I waited for my death, stripping myself of breath
But then my Savior opened the garage and saved me from my *******
See how you’re alive—it’s for a reason
Though you may be barely breathing
So it’s time for us to drive out and pet the Lord direct our route
Because we’re all writing suicide notes, just for the fun
But to forget what we wrote, we must first put down the gun
Please hear this—it’s okay to come before in submission
With hesitation and opposition
Chamber loaded while holding the ammunition
Because if you’re like me, your brain is bloated with floating questions
I must warn you of my condition
Could it really be anxiety and depression?
It’s a disorder I have yet to oblige
For now, for you, I’ll call it a thorn in my side
But I promise you everything will be alright
I’ll get through and I’ll be just fine
It’s a blessing I’ve come to realize
So don’t be afraid of what I feel assigned
This thorn in my side may give me some fear
But I’ve come to understand why it is here
This weakness is not something to hide behind
But a way for me to finally find
Those who are going through the same exercise
Learning with these people how to empathize
And teaching me that I must learn to consign
My thoughts and fears to let Him guide
May these sufferings be scars of my loyalty
And strengthen me in God’s sovereignty
I will endure the thoughts I face all day long
Because it is in the Father that I belong
Were it not for Him, I would have given to the grave
But in His power and goodness, I am saved

Chorus
There’s still silence admits the sound
Determined to wear me down
All around, I’m srround–
–ed, and pound–
–ed, into the ground
I’m hounded like those long dead
Found, now I’m grounded
And surrounded
By something far more profound!

Hook
I’ll keep on going
If you keep on showing
Yeah I’ll keep it going, for you
If you keep on showing, up to
I can’t see it no, oh oh
But if you deem is so, oh no
I will go, oh oh
I will go, oh no

Tower of Silence - Track 10

Intro
(( Stay low ))

Pre-Chorus
Stay low, stay low
They say to shut the fire in my bones
I know, I know
If my bones are Yours, the fire, will grow

Chorus
I wasted time, I wasted death
I think I thought myself of breath
I need to stand, I need to fight
I need to move again tonight

Verse 1
No one to confide, hiding behind walls that confine
A system where I’m walled in
A rhythm that keeps me in depression
Oppressed, restrained to digress
No, I don’t desire to—this pattern I craft fire to
A wall in my way that obstructs my view
Contained by the lies that set my life in skew
With the help of my Blood I’ll reach the top
With the sound of our Kind we won’t fear the drop

Pre-Chorus
Stay low, stay low
They say to shut the fire in my bones
I know, I know
If my bones are Yours, the fire, will grow

Chorus
I wasted time, I wasted death
I think I thought myself of breath
I need to stand, I need to fight
I need to move again tonight

Verse 2
Sometimes I’m able to see the other side
Then I’ll look back and find my mind is tied
These lies convince me I can’t get over the wall
They hype up the doubts and make me fear I’ll fall
Could it all just be one of these schemes
To make me believe in such silly things
What I say when I wanna be more
Make a move and make a break for it
Take a spray can and leave your mark man
Stand up and step out into our plan
Opportunity does not make me certain
But what I’m certain in is, we will will
We can leave this society
Join me in the face of anarchy
Help me destroy our old world
Join with me to build a new one
Rise up and fulfill your duty
Join me in Exarcheia

Break
Wake up—Give up
Rise up—GiVE IN
(((Remember, remember)))

Bridge
(( It seems so fun to let the worry inside
I can’t get the darkness out of my life, anyways
So maybe I should give in
Fancy the dark—it’s a habit
So maybe I should do it anyways ))

Verse 3
So let’s take this energy, this emotion this notion this dependency
Use it, to chose it, for others to lose it
stAY LOw, they say to hold our hope at bay
I know, but I don’t know if the spirits should stay
Demons in this room, should they stay or should they go?
Eyes in the dark, are they friend or are they foe?
Man gave names to all the animals, so no wonder we give names to our own
To what’s not in sight of our candles, what is hidden deep in our bones
It was man that labeled all the beasts, we crafted the dark on which we feast
Was it our duty to name our demons, could this have any sort of meaning
We’ve named the monsters under our bed
For some reason, it’s the blood beneath our skin
And we’ve neglected His blood instead
We’re only engraving our own extinction

Hook
( Though I am weak, still I need to stay moving
Still I need to stay moving )

Verse 4
You are tired, you are bruised
Your world is blurred, and so confused
Don’t give in to these neon lamps
Loneliness hyped and darkness vamped
The blackness seems to inspire
With the nihility we don’t desire
They lure you into a heatless light
You my friend must stand and fight
You, my Kind, you know both sides
I know it’s hard, the silence intensified
So raise your hands up even higher
I know your arms are tired and they have your ankles bound
So stay low to the ground and we’ll leave the freezing fire
Whether it’s the easy way or the hard way, it’s time
To decide which side of the battle you’ll side with
And I promise you, friends, the latter is mine

Hook
Though I am weak, still I need to stay moving
Still I need to stay moving

Pre-Chorus
Stay low, stay low
They say to shut the fire in my bones
I know, I know
If my bones are Yours, the fire will grow

Hook
Though I am weak, still I need to stay moving
Still I need to stay moving
Though I am weak, still I need to stay moving
Still I need to stay—

(( We need to move again tonight )) .

Tower of Silence - Track 9

Hook
Hey
Wouldn’t it be great
If we could sleep away
The hours that abate
And wake up the next day

Hey!
Wouldn’t it be great!
If we could sleep away!
The hours that abate
And wake up the next day

Verse 1
But still I fear
When the day is done
And the night draws near
I pray I can overcome the setting sun

Pre-Chorus
I will stay awake tonight
Keep me alive until morning light! God

The night, has just, begun

Chorus
For the dark will not take me captive
I will not be a prisoner to the setting sun
I will play no part in the daylight’s declination
For my demons have no hold on me
I will set my heart ablaze
And you may come all you want
You have no plans, I’m free

Verse 2
I know 2am far too well
I recognize the darkness in which I dwell
I know it front, back, and inside out
I’m familiar with the crazed words my demons shout
But still clouded with all the doubt they bring
This is why I really hate the weekends
Because I’m face-to-face with all my demons
I know that even under my sheets, I fear
I’ll loose myself in night’s deep, still here
I believe there’s a reason why I won’t sleep
I can dream of the morning though now I weep

Pre-Chorus
I will stay awake tonight
Keep me alive until morning light! God

The night, will come, again
The night, will come, again
The night, will come, again

Chorus
For the dark will not take me captive
I will not be a prisoner to the setting sun
I will play no part in the daylight’s declination
For my demons have no hold on me
I will set my heart ablaze
And you may come all you want
You have no plans, I’m free

Hook
Hey, hey
Wouldn’t it be great
If we could sleep away
The hours that abate
And wake up the next day-ay-hey hey hey hey!

Verse 3
For a second, I thought I was moving past the feeling
But I reckon, every room I step in there’s only darkness beneath the ceiling
I’m better today than I have been
But I can’t expect it again to happen
Lately it’s been worse than it has in a while
But I know it’s just my faith under trial
I’ve been tested like a ship at sea
The winds and the waves have come to suit me
I fancy the darkness’ mutters
I doubt the nihility shutter
But in time I know I will recover
For peace and strength comes from no other
Recently I’ve been worse than I usually am
I wonder if I’ve chosen it, how to undo it if I can
I know the night will come again
But to play a part in the dark will not happen
I can’t choose every moment to live in the day
Even if I tell myself to think that way, the feeling won’t stay
One day I will get over this wall of stone
Though now I know I’m so far from home
For now I am fighting to reach the morning light
Deciding what must die and where I need to fight
I’m taking a stand to split up my mind
And one day I know I will leave behind the night
I’ll rely on the peace granted through the pain
Like a drought awaits Your replenishing rain

Pre-Chorus
I will stay awake tonight
Keep me alive until morning light! God

Refrain
The night, will come, again
Moving past the feeling
Slowly I’m letting go
Moving past the feeling
Slowly I’m letting go, again

Bridge
All these buzzards won’t stop
Make them quit
All these buzzards won’t stop
Make them quit
tHEY’re talking too quick, quick, save me
tHEY’re talking too quick, quick, save me
tHEY’re talking too quick, quick, save me!
(Hey!)
Quick, quick, save me!
(Hey!!)
Quick, quick, save me, please!!
(Make them quit)
(Make them quit)

Verse 4
The devil can’t even see
What’s right in front of me
So why would he do these things
If he already knows who reigns
(I don’t know!—he’s dumb)
Why does he think he can change the outcome?
So let’s fight in the fact that God has already won

Outro
Let our faith be sung, for they only come
When the day is over, in fear of what is done
They fight in fear of what we’ll do
The greatness of our God lives through
Can’t you see that they are scared?
Let them taunt you in prepared
The night has lost, so come if you dare

Tower of Silence - Track 8

Verse 1
I’m burning
But still cold, Am I learning?
I’m tending to this fire
But it never grows much higher

Hook
((( Darkness is a room, one of many in this mansion I call my brain
I’ve left, I assume, but still I hear those demons scream my name )))

Pre-Chorus
Deep calls to deep with the roar of Your waterfalls
See as I weep, I don’t trust You in the falls
All Your waves and breakers have swept over me
I’m with all the sleepers, let me drown at sea

Chorus
My heart, is so black and white
I think that you’re right
I’m just black, I’m going back
It’s a heart attack

Verse 2
How could you say everything’s alright
When I’m not even putting up a fight
I’ve created my own religion
A world in which I’m barely living
Within walls I’ve just written in
I’m working my way through this system
As I’m dreaming but it’s not my vision
All I want is a spark
And ember in the dark
You are my torch in this dry space
Be my light between two places
I don’t want to be alone
As I find my way back home

Pre-Chorus
Deep calls to deep with the roar of Your waterfalls
See as I weep, I don’t trust You in the falls
All Your waves and breakers have swept over me
I’m with all the sleepers, let me drown at sea

Chorus
My heart, is so black and white
I think that you’re right
I’m just black, I’m going back
It’s a heart attack

Bridge
((( A lifeless light, luminous, yet so dark
     Surrounding and cold
     Deep of night, with thoughts so stark
     I could not break hold )))

Verse 3
I am burning down my hometown
Send your fire and flames to reign down
Burn these strongholds to the ground
But still You hide your face
And I am forced to look away
I’ve had the tough of Your torch
And I feared I wasn’t of the sort
It isn’t enough to sort of touch
Is it enough of such to stand on Your porch?
It isn’t enough, a touch, I want that much
Just give it a touch—you’ll see He’s such
I’ve touched the tough and You are much, You are my torch
Now I’m such to have the touch of Your torch
Standing on my porch, I’ll show You His worth, the tough He endures

Bridge
My heart, is so black and white
Deep calls to deep with the roar of your waterfalls
I think you’re right
See as I weep, I don’t trust You in the falls
I’m just black
All your waves and breakers have swept over me
I’m going back
I’m with all the sleepers, let me drown at sea
My heart, is so black and white
Deep calls to deep—(waterfalls)
I think that you’re right
See as I >weep< — I don’t <falls>
I’m just black
>all Your waves<  <over me>
I’m going back
>sleeper<  <drown at sea>
It’s a heart attack

Verse 5
Please excuse me, how could I write something so contradicting?
I’m sorry, I don’t know who it is I’ve been depicting
Disappearing into my own sung theories
I hope it’s not confusing, I know it’s tongue-twisting
How conflicting, is it wrong to write what I’ve been thinking?
I’m not sure what it is I revel—is it God or the devil?
Looking back, I must be careful
Not to be dragged back—we are rebels
Sometimes I rather just wallow in my sorrow
But I don’t want you or me to be ****** into the funk
So I will try to testify the sky
With the introspective thump of our hearts’ rhythmic hum
My fingers the gates, this pen the flood
Singing as there is nothing new under the sun
What’s underneath—is it flesh or is it blood?
If I told them exactly what it is I do
I wonder if they’d say we’re through
I think you’re right, they just might, turn away from You
It’s hard to find a balance, so ignore my talents
I don’t want to be heard, I want you to listen
To this session of introspection
Look a little deeper and you’ll see what’s written
Take apart my art and you’ll find what’s written on your heart

Tower of Silence - Track 7

Verse 1
Once again, I’ve found myself up against a wall
Play pretend, I hear voices linger down the hall
I know, because I’ve done it all before
I don’t feel like doing this anymore
I don’t want to trouble you when the sun sets
I won’t show you all my pieces
I refuse to give you all my troubles
I neglect to let loose to all my demons

Pre-Chorus
Can you hear the voice inside me?
Do you know what my art means?
It’s calling out a cry, showing you my seams
Can you sense what my tongue claims?
Do you feel what I’m trying to say?
It calls you by name, asking you to stay

Chorus
I am a ghost
Transparent to those who get too close
Haunted by the ones I love the most
I’ll transmute on the low
That way they won’t know
And if it’s making me seem low
I am a ghost

Verse 2
All these people, they are real
All these questions, they’re sincere
All these voices, they’re for-real
And I will try, to let your words pass me by
Please ignore me when I say I’m fine
So I’ll ignore you still
On what I’d rather ****
Regardless, I don’t know how I could have fought this
Honest, I’d been even deeper down in the darkness
If it wasn’t for this art, God gave me as a start
But I am haunted still
All these voices, they’re for-real
When I write I begin to fear
At the sight of what is really here
I write some things and it seems so worthless
I say something and it feels so wordless
Maybe that’s the purpose
Memories formless, deep thought verses
Thinking comes to surface
Writing to plead something, rhyming but I say nothing
I have not forgot—You are all I got
Just trying to make it all stop
So before you go, don’t walk away
Listen for what I have to say
Deeper than this art or talent
A different dialect I can’t unpack
Eventually I will have lines to offer you
But you must stay—be here for what I’m going through
Stay by my side and give me time
My head is dead and decayed but I’ll be okay

Pre-Chorus
Can you hear the voice inside me?
Do you know what my art means?
It’s calling out a cry, showing you my seams
Can you sense what my tongue claims?
Do you feel what I’m trying to say?
It calls you by name, asking you to stay

Chorus
I am a ghost
Transparent to those who get too close
Haunted by the ones I love the most
I’ll transmute on the low
That way they won’t know
And if it’s making me seem low
I am a ghost

Verse 3
I’m driving inside my mind, and I’m driving kinda sideways
A runaway, but I don’t feel free
Relying on the highway—why can’t it be my way?
Swerving over the yellow lines
Give me some times to speak my mind
It’s stout to let it all out
So maybe my words are just drought
I know you’re worried for me and what I find
My head’s not right but I’ll be fine
I promise you I’ll come home some time
But in the meantime, listen for my cry
No, you don’t have to keep me down from ledges
Or steal from me razor blades and shoe laces
But prop you door open with wooden wedges
For when I enter into these dark places
For long enough I’ve tended to a heatless fire
Scared of labels they press to uninspire
Tried to convince me this gloom was nothing
Then you’d think I’m demented or something
But at the same time my aloneness was hyped
Making me think I was of the insane type
But it’s nice to hear my words filter in you
Otherwise I don’t know how I’d make it through

Outro
I know it can be hard
Don’t go in alone
Don’t think you have to be tough
Let your cover be shone
Your oxygen’s running low
Let our cover be blown
And steak out the window

Together we’re singing
Lah-lah-lah
Lah-lah-lah
Lah-lah-lah

Tower of Silence - Track 6

Verse 1
I think I just don’t recognize it
Or maybe I’m just prone to disguise it
Either way I fight it
I use to let the eyes in the dark
Creep in my conscious and part my heart
Staring up at the ceiling, hardly breathing
The fan circling, my life in loop
The weight of my demons, it’s time to regroup
Staring at the waves, but it’s just that ceiling—
Beams are the things with no balance—as far as I’m reaching
I have instances in my reality
Where I stand and hold my breath cowardly
I have a voice inside me, disguised
That says I’m a mad man and lies
I have moments that tear me down
So I fall and drown
I’m desperately pleading, my fear is screaming
But still I’m sleeping, my soul is freezing

Hook
So I would write to rid a mind of wrong
But as it turns out, the eyes would read along

Verse 2
I don’t know why
Some days I decide
I’m better off stay quiet
Lock myself in another room
As I will enter a state of gloom
I like it
I’m ignoring your eyes, I’m deserting your fight
I don’t know why, I like to make you cry
As you watch the being inside of me
Becomes the thing it doesn’t want to be
Trying your hardest to make me feel, to fill my well
Can’t I just claim that I’m being real?
I can’t just lose the voices I know so well
But I can’t just stay in that room
Otherwise I’ll think too much
In the silence, I’ll think of fears and sorrows and such
I must distract my mind with something
In fear of the thoughts the silence may bring
You have a life, come in and see
So take this pen and do as you please
But in time, please remember Me

Hook
So I would write to rid a mind of wrong
But as it turns out, the eyes would read along

Verse 3
So still I stare into the crimson eyes
My emotions hyped and the darkness vamped
And I give into the call of the neon lamps
Bruised but compelled not to say goodbye
I have a God who fights my battles
But still my head spins and rattles
I’ve developed a tendency to do my own doing
And that’s why my fears are moving
They move through the night and out of sight
But in reality my hope is never losing
I must avoid those eyes, give You the key
You are my hope and again I see
I give my life to You, do what You do
And show me what it means to believe, and follow You

Bridge
Help me breathe, help me breathe, help me breathe, help me bea-eathe
Help me breathe, help meee breathe, help me breathe, help me breathe!
Help my brea-eathe, help me breathe, help me breaaathe, help me breathe
Help me breathe.

Verse 4
I believe many people would say nighttime is not their best time
Because after nine lives our crimes are realized
But when the sun sets if upsets and regrets progress
Our interests are shown from beneath the surface, but from the surface you won’t learn this
Because my nonsense makes your contents look non-violent
So we digress beneath the mess, but putting on a mask to disguise our lies
But for me I find it’s the day
Because by the time I reach midday, my faces hides and I put on a play
In hopes the night will fade away
And then my mind will walk astray, in fear my thoughts will stay this way
But then the surface will start to decay
And then I find the truth behind, that you and I are not so different—keep that in mind
Because when the sun rises, it reveals what’s common inside us
But for some reason we hide this and put on our disguises
Honestly, it cures my insanity
It pleases me to find people like me
Because, truth be told
We are not so different—you and I
Do we all just ignore this great blue sky?
Because by the time the day reaches noon, we all know night will he here soon
Then another day will be haunted by night’s nihility
So to reach our comfortability
We hide behind our mask to please the lie
The lie we find so common inside
Thinking as if it will keep us alive
But the truth is—it’s dead, alright?

Tower of Silence - Track 5

Verse 1
Listen
Is this just my own selfish ambition?
All my doubt is taking over my vision
Could the letters in my head be my mission?
Or would the go ahead and be better off dead?
Would someone ever listen to this point or am I just missing?
Question
Is this my commission or am I just faking submission?
I must be ignoring the lesson
‘Cause I don’t know if I am dying or living
Or if dying is even worth giving
This is my faith that He’s testing, but I’m denying His blessings
Because for His sake, I’m abusing His grace
The name plate, isn’t His face
I’ve been given a new name to exclaim
But I walk and I will stay the same
I’ll talk but I’m repeating the game
Taken His own life to make a way
Given His Son in order to save
But I’ve made my own way to the grave
So whether this is dying or living
I’m so far from fulfilling
I’m too far from flying
I think I’m dying
( At least you’re trying )

Pre-Chorus
I want to fly
But why can’t I
Take up Your wings
I want to sing

Chorus
I am dry
Can’t You feel?
Can’t You speak?
I fall as I believe
I’m drifting as I think

Verse 2
Doubt, deep seeded but when it sprouts
I without a doubt know what it’s all about
But still I can feel like I’m left without
Dealing with these seasons of drought
I conjure up things He’s know to conquer
So why Father and I still bothered?
Oh how frustrating, it must be
As I sit here comfortably
How degrading, I must seem
As I fade here underneath
I know it’s dire, the sharing of this fire
I aim to inspire but the motion seems to expire
With the notion that our time is fading
And I’m debating if I’ll be waiting
So my fire seems to be waning
I have a comfortabLE ROutine
But my part seems to be fidgeting
As the sun with fade away, and my life with turn to grey
Pressure starts pulling at my brain
My faith drained—spirit contained
I’ve been robbed of my peace with the peace treaty
I’ve made with the pieces of what’s creeping
It’s the same game every day—same as it always is
Don’t want to speak my mind—waste my time explaining this
I’m an escape artist
It’s not written on my wrists, but let me present these skits
I’m a Pharisee and here I sit
Only content with the abyss
There seems to be no empathy
I’m on the verge of blasphemy
I’m alright so quit asking me
Who to be, how I see
Out of sight I walk absently
To walk by sight is just for me
The darkness suits me comfortably
This is what happens when I’m taken by worry
I guess it’s because I don’t feel worthy

Break
Lah-dah-da-da-da
Lah-dah-da-da-da

(( Can’t You feel? ))
(( Can’t You speak? ))
(( Falling as I believe ))
(( Drifting as I think ))

Lah-dah-da-da-da
Lah-dah-da-da-da

Verse 3
With what little of You is in my plans
I trudge through these stark and barren sands
My ocean is dry, a parched and des’late land
Taking the water of Your salvation into my own hands
But even as I cry, I found that as I
Look up towards You sky, I find it doesn’t meet my sight
So how worthy am I that You would go to die and trust me enough to make the eye
The problem is I can’t tell the difference between my sea and His sky
I don’t know which is which or where to start, light or dark
I’m just rowing alone, caught in the undertow
Can You drown my life?
I’m rowing through my emotions in only fragments of my parts
These days it’s hard for me to tell what’s real
What’s the sky, what’s the sea
Which is fire, cold or heat
And even what I feel
So here, here’s a message in a bottle
For if You even bother
It’s the floating dingy of what I’ve been thinking to show You that I’m sinking
Send down a strike of lightening to show me what to do
Light up my sea so my ocean can turn blue
Hit me straight on so I can see You
This sea is far too dark, and my wound has become a scar
Show to me God what is true
And teach me to hold onto You

Refrain
Keep me hold of You
Keep me hold of You
Keep me hold of You

Pre-Chorus
I want to fly
But why can’t I
Take up Your wings
I want to sing

Chorus
I am dry
Can’t You feel?
Can’t You speak?
I fall as I believe
I’m drifting as I think

Outro
(( Can’t You feel? ))
(( Can’t You speak? ))
(( Falling as I believe ))
(( Drifting as I think ))

Lah-dah-da-da-da
Lah-dah-da-da-da
Lah-dah-da-da-da
Lah-dah—

Tower of Silence - Track 4

Chorus (distant)
We’re heading down
To find our sound
We’ll sing it loud
For those around
We once were lost
But now we’re found

Verse 1
So what’s wrong with me? What’s my problem?
Now I need to see, go down to the bottom
But I need you with me as I’m solvin’
‘Cause I can’t dig deep enough and keep hauling
Without you here to get a different view of this coffin
There’s no above or around
The only way is down
I don’t see a way through this door—what is it here for?
Is there a way to find a key? There must not be
Well then that’s when I start to wonder
If it’s better to just go under
To **** myself quietly
Or lose myself within the sound
Can I somehow go around, or sit here happily?
Either way I lost my sense of ground
Because we can’t just ignore the reason we’re bleeding for
But we adore to store it in our bones
Then I finally give in, to what could still be deception
But it’s the only way I see fit
Is the way that’s barely lit
So I head down the path I think is heading sound

Chorus
We’re heading down
To find our sound
We’ll sing it loud
For those around
We once were lost
But now we’re found

Verse 2
Demons come to me in the dark
I feel them stay as my mind departs
I don’t really know, what’s behind my skull
They talk too fast, and that’s all I know
I’ll sit here and let it soak in
Whatever they say, I’ll take it slow
Like I haven’t been
I stepped away from the sound
Get a level head and find some new ground
No noise to hide behind—thought I could think
But to my demise, I found what lies
Behind the space to get away—oh so terrifying
Turns out the silence is violent
And now I don’t think I can make a break
Oh, though fascinating
Can hardly keep it quiet, behind my mind
As I finally find the thoughts within my skin
Because the noise only allows thoughts at night
Now I can try to or I can let the silent win
But I will keep myself posted up on this Tower of Silence
Because there’s truth within the night—is what I find
So I will sit here, visited by kisses of reminisce
I will let the carrion come tonight
Stay in the dark until I find what has me torn apart
In hopes the quiet can shed some light
I just want to close my eyes
So I crawl back inside my mind
To see how far my thoughts will go to lie
Like my noose, I strangle the truth
Uncross my T’s, un-dot my I’s

Chorus
We’re heading down
To find our sound
We’ll sing it loud
For those around
We once were lost
But now we’re found

Bridge
My mind receives mores code
Messages most don’t know
Channeling things to me
Tell my I’m gone but no
Information I must take slow
Is anyone capable of listening?

Verse 3
I fear my imagination
I’m scared of my own creation
I don’t know what to do with my right side brain
It’s the addict to darkness I can’t keep contained
Could he ever benefit the world in some way?
I’m just falling around, wondering if I should keep him bound
Or if I should take off his chains
To hopefully cast your demons at bay
I desire to help others through what I write
But I fear I’d be returning to my dark plight
Because every time I go to jot something
I feel like I’m stumbling
I need to take a careful pace
Careful not to put myself in a hazy place
I still have a bad taste on my tongue
Of what I’ve gone through but I want His praise to be sung
I need to be careful so I can help you

Refrain
Start low, follow me down
Start low, follow me down
Start low, follow me down
Start low, follow me down

Break
(( Is anyone capable of listening? ))

Verse 4
Or maybe that’s the purpose, if it’s worth this
For me to keep returning, to go down so you don’t go under
To post myself on this tower to host His glory and power
So will you walk with me, my Kind, my brothers?
Will you take a look at the dead dark side of the moon to reach you sooner?
Fuel this fire, our hearts are yearning to be burning
I will stay with you, I will go
I will be here, I’ll stay the night
I will fight so we both see the light
You who are caught up in your darkest thoughts
And you believe your mind is all you got
It’s not just you, there’s another way through
We are not alone, our heads sick and our brains prone
So maybe what I’m trying to say
Is we’re messing up but that’s okay
Come down with me and we’ll find our way
So sing it with me if you know what I mean

Break
(( Messages most don’t know ))
(( Tell us we’re gone but no ))

Refrain
Start low, follow me down
Start low, follow me down
Start low, follow me down
Start low, follow me down

Chorus (x2)
We’re heading down
To find our sound
We’ll sing it loud
For those around
We once were lost
But now we’re found

Tower of Silence - Track 3

Verse 1
I can - feel my - tempo - drop
Doubt - it will - ever - stop
I must have got lost, I’m not trusting
I forgot I am bought, I’m not trusty
I see that when I wrote it
But the next thing—you know it
I’m lost at sea
Collapsed, capsizing
My head is rocking sideways
Pulverizing, help me polarize it
My mind is like a sailboat, You know what I mean
You’re as close as close as close can be, but You’re still so far away it seems
And I can’t control my brain
My mind takes over my body
I can’t help but feel insane
My thoughts loose a lot of me
This morning, my life was without stain
But as the day goes by, my heart grows faint
Beaten down by the voices that taunt my head
Then I forget the war that’s lead
I let another day go, by
Polluting what should be a clear, blue, sky

Hook
I am in the think of things
Lost my sight of lunar rings
I want to live in open fields
But I doubt if that is ever real
I like fancying outside the woods
Then I fear I never could

Verse 2
I walk down the route for a season
Then I find my soul is really sinking
I’m afraid I don’t know what I’m thinking
Sinking deep, because I’m my own shrink
Can you tell I fall asleep when I give to the blink
Hell must be hot and rightfully so
Because we ought to fancy the dark
And my soul is cold, more so the older I grow
Thinking myself to sleep—we think too deep
Pressure behind my eyes, my stress will swell with pride
This headache is my own mistake
It’s the siren I let off in warning of my mind frame
Because my game is to play with my brain
I live the the pain of what my mind has made
It’s a migraine—the absence of light
I’ve been tested with no rest to walk by sight
Can you hear this distress call?
Something’s not right

Hook
I am in the think of things
Lost my sight of lunar rings
I want to live in open fields
But I doubt if that is ever real
I like fancying outside the woods
Then I fear I never could
I am in the think of things
Lost my sight of lunar rings

Refrain (x3)
Give me Your water, give me Your fire
I cannot drown, I cannot burn
When I am holding onto You
When I am holding onto You

Verse 3
I created a world inside my mind
To retreat to the darkness behind my eyelids
My head shipwrecked on what land I could find
Welcome to my wrists, I also call my islands, I rely on
But might I say we take a break from the slits
To break away from the graves of the day
We’re broken people, forged with beautiful minds
But be wary of the things your heart goes to find
Because we tend to linger toward the things undefined
Then we begin to doubt and leave our faith far behind
Listen to me, you may be convinced you’ll like it better when you’re sleeping
The dark has feeling and the pain is fleeting
But please hear this, don’t give to the blink
When I did, I found myself sinking
I fell asleep, eternally bleeding

Break
Dark nights, cold days, no sensation
One way, delayed, cease from conversation

Verse 4
The difference between being awake and dying, for one is trying
That’s all we’re called to do, You have saved me so I’ll try to love You

So please be thinking, because your soul is really breathing
And your sea may be dark, but salvation is not that far
It might take some tenacity, running from the thoughts that are after me
From the dark I turned to pleading
Asking desperately, speaking honestly
“Come save me!” and now I’m free

Your heart, my counterpart, is not made of stone
It is a roaring sea, of soul and emotion you have left alone
And it longs to break free

Tower of Silence - Track 2

Intro
(((Hey, I’m heading back up my tower
I am be careful!
I’ll come down when it’s no longer safe)))

Hook
There’s panic in the lines of these rhymes I make
Maybe I shouldn’t tell you but it’s kinda late
You should probably be concerned with our mental state
The truth is all around me but my mind’s not made
My heart is with you somewhere but my head’s not safe

Verse 1
I’m a product of this culture, just another soul convinced it’s over
Taken over, taken fall to the world of overexposure
I’m the poacher, killing this son and killing my brothers
I fear my crave for blood—circling above
No I am not enough, no this is not enough
Whose blood soaks the door? Should I even do this anymore?
I am a vulture, feasting on a past that’s dead
Blood-soaked feet—keep my fangs soaked in pain
Can’t escape the thoughts ramped in my brain
Plummet on the thought that my mind’s insane

I’m just another copy
Copy and paste, brob’ly, He caught me
Is this really who I’m suppose to be?
This is not what you’re suppose to see
Who is this that’s stoppin’ me?
Voices, voices tell me I’m a copy
Bounty, on me—tired of mockery
Counterfeit seems to fit the description
To the point it’s ‘bout to stop me
Is this the plan of the one who bought me?
If so, nothin’ can’t stop me

Hook
There’s panic in the lines of these rhymes I make
Maybe I shouldn’t tell you but it’s kinda late
You should probably be concerned with our mental state
The truth is all around me but my mind’s not made
My heart is with you somewhere but my head’s not safe

Verse 2
My Kind, my Blood—they mean so much to me
I hide, behind—who I’m not suppose to be
No, this is not what you’re suppose to be
Is this suppose to be what’s truly me?
Take it easy with this poet, please
I’m scared to death of what you’ll think
Because it could be the death of me
I’m scared of my own voice
I don’t know if it’s my own choice
This thing—is it just a dream or is it the beginning
If singing is my meaning
A cover over my head, I wear a headset
Noise begins to make me afraid on my mindset
I let words get through—I regret
That I allow the words to linger and set
This has come to be my headrest, I bet
The reset, is just another test
A solution to drown is not the best
Because now the sound gives me no rest
But the nepotistic noise and voices I get
Becomes my choice with the volume I set

Hook
There’s panic in the lines of these rhymes I make
Maybe I shouldn’t tell you but it’s kinda late
You should probably be concerned with our mental state
The truth is all around me but my mind’s not made
My heart is with you somewhere but my head’s not safe
You should probably be concerned with our mental state

Verse 3
There’s a problem with our society
Worse than suicide, depression, and anxiety
It’s how we deal with these problems
Rather, it’s how we cause them
If I didn’t know better, I’d think you look a bit dead yourself
Not a Heaver, not a Breather, just caught up in your head
But wake up and join our battle cry
To help these dry bones come to life
Scared of the pace in change so you stay in place
Open your eyes and crank up our volume
Fall out of formation, help our vocation
And take a chance to take off your costume
Because right now our rates are hallow
It’s culture’s fault, though it forbids
So wake up to the things that you hid
And what you put on display
That death is a logical way
I don’t mean to sound harsh
It’s just, we need your heart
I don’t want to be crude
It’s just, I think it’s a but rude
Just what Sleepers do
Listen, I fall victim to it too
Please excuse me and do what I do
But no it’s not just a mere fad clad in sadness
They need to know, together we will get far
And help us say this gloom is not who we are
Come together in this path that needs paving
And be wary of the message you’re engraving

Outro
My opinion, life’s worth living
Culture say, might as well
Problem is, it won’t sell
Death’s addictive, but the price to live
Is worth the pay, so I will stay
Please stick around, I’ll have you found

Tower of Silence - Track 1

Verse 1
I’ve tried to give up poetry as if it’s some sort of addiction
Poison to the heart as if I’m an addict—do you get my depiction?
Addicted to the page, confined to my mind—the paddock
I feel like a ****** who’s on it again
Writing another poem to a friend
For others to use it as I pretend
That I’m not another fanatic, devoted to the pen
I’m addicted to the waves
Tossed and blown about—their slave
They pull me asunder
Oh Lord, take me under, blow my cover

Chorus
No, I don’t know, what’s my direction
But I can accept the blind man’s perception
Take me under, blow my cover

Verse 2
My feet dangle up off the ground
I levitate above the sound
Ever since I was young, I’ve been on dope
Nowadays, I use it to be my rope
I’m just a *** head, I guess
Really it’s just my head, more or less
Am I just being dramatic? I’m emotional
I’m just ranting again, I regret what I told you
It’s just the cof-fee tal-king
So let me just be in my own world
Because I can’t explain what’s in whirl
So how could I be prepared to share
My faith with what’s beneath my hair
So bare with I’m a Thinker
So don’t listen if you rather be keeper, to yourself
Go throw it away and let me do myself
If you stick around keep it on a shelf
It’s therapy for me and it might be scary
It’s the wrists of a poet, my release yet my blade
It’s creativity so I know it, the control of pain
Like you I’m a user of dope
That doesn’t mean that I smoke, no
I’m talking about words with emotion
But sometimes I get lost in this ocean
Compulsive to smoking, I’m writing this hoping
That as my pen is my lighter
And my cigarette is the page
I can light your soul on fire
While keeping this addict in his cage
May your demons choke on the smoke
By the words that are the brume you consume

Chorus
No, I don’t know, what’s my direction
But I can accept the blind man’s perception
Take me under, blow my cover

Verse 3
Tie a noose around my brain with floating feet
Still breathing, my mind will not be able to seep
Choke of the lull, my throat hung on a leash
You demons have no hold on me—capeesh?
It’s a catharsis, but honest, it’s darkness
So it’s not for you if you’re heartless
I could post the depressing lines in my head
The flow is smooth and the lines resonate
I could hold a celebration for another name
At least it’d save me before I dissipate
Then that would just be returning to the dead
I’ve decided that between who would die
I choose my name to be lame and my God to glorify
So between you and I, I’ll write for you instead

Chorus
No, I don’t know, what’s my direction
But I can accept the blind man’s perception
Take me under, blow my cover

Oh Lord, take me under
Blow my cover

Buzzcut to cut the buzz I dose
Cut ties with the side I delight
I cut my hair so they won’t stare
Giving into the plans of the Vendetta
Take the pain of VEIN and change the name

God is not the one at fault
For the world’s fallen parts
Satan said I am a hostile rebel
When really the fault is the devil’s
He ought to have know he was mistaken
To mess with the kin in the making
For whenever I doubt or question
I can know God is not done with the quest I’m in