My brain was wired differently
My heart is that way too
It doesnt make me stupid,
But I'm easily confused
Is that why I cant make a friend?
Because of the way that I was born?
Everyone loves roses
Maybe I'm the thorn
The eyesore
The ugly duckling
The ******

The loser


Different

Why do they hate me
I've done nothing wrong
Yet my name comes from lips
That don't stick around long

I still cry sometimes
When I feel I'm at my darkest

I still wonder why
You waited this long

If I could go back in time
I'd prove that you were strongest

Held your head up high
Even when you were wrong

I'd hold your hand
And fight your battles with you

Instead of watching
You fight alone

And if that all fails
And we were still two different people

I'd hold you tight
And make sure I'd never let you go.

I'd prove to you
That you were more than perfect

That you were worth it
But instead is true

You were fighting on your own
And believe me please
I wish that we could fix this


But I'm tired of fighting
This brick wall hiding your demons

And it's been so long
I know you've gone for a reason

And now when I need you the most
You laugh at me

When I need you the most
you turn your back

I know I guess I deserved this
I proved I was the weakest

When you needed me the most.

I'm sorry, if I knew that you could change
I'd keep trying

But now it's time to let you go

It's funny how you can drive yourself crazy with regret

How anger and heartbreak dont let you forget

The things you should've done when you had the time

How quickly things can change in a blink of an eye

Taken for granted, what was given was luck

Forgetting for a moment you were nothing but stuck

Your like a ridiculously bright star in the sky

I'm like you

Both of us pretending that we're something we're not

Bright, but obviously so

And not flickering with hope

It gives us away

Tall grasses brush against fingertips
Her skirt sways in the breeze
Little flowers surround her
A light scent that cant be febrezed
A warmth that sinks into her skin
And eases her troubled heart
A feeling she cant put with a memory
A bittersweet work of art
It makes her feel like a child again
And shes no longer made of stone
A smile plays gently on her lips
It feels so much like home

I hate the way you left me here
All alone, no one left
No one here to care enough
To ask if I'm ok.

My family said I was grieving wrong

Too much

Too strong

I'm sorry,

my heart

Hurts

It hurts

IT HURTS!

                          It hurts...

I'm so empty

And jealous of the fact
That you could leave
The depression
And turmoil
Behind you

I dont understand
Where your soul has gone
Or why the best ones leave so soon

I wasnt ready
To be left alone
Without you

I still hope
That you'll answer my texts
Just one more time
One more phone call
One more "I love you"

I'm begging


Why doesnt anyone help me
Please help me understand
What to do
Who to be
Without my dad