My hands shiver , I'm breaking down in guilt
Amidst the ruins of hope , this heart keeps beating .
O how I've fallen into the voids I've built
Living an ever-lasting lapse before the solitary meeting .
Clouded by those shifting visions the depth was my desire
And the depth an illusion , bound with me in fusion
Lost in my own heartless riddle , I pulled the cursed wire
The bliss of those ignorant smiles was my sweet delusion .
Now I'm standing somewhere I don't see , I don't feel
Actions , thoughts and dreams part ways in their own directions
One spoke at the rise and now the next and I'm a wheel
Trying to search for a way to alter my guilty inactions
And I see it surging higher , smoked away
Trapped inside this cage of steel , that forms this air
Part of me that's still alive , it's just in their way
Now time is just another lie , I'm barely here .
Days are just a camouflage , nights all plotting savory violence
Movements going undetected , the stealth of lost control
It incessant pulls my guts apart and grants that silence
But watching myself lose my role , my soul, now punctured with timeless holes .
And death is not a payoff of some fatal wound , on some ****** ground,
This heart just cherished an unseen thread,
Wondering what changes once I'm not around
In the clutch of shackles of truth , I'll see my red .