Stuck in a void,
I accept the fact,
That I won't be coming back.

Stuck forever,
Lost forever,
Till the judgment day

But I like it,
Being stuck
And surrounded by emptiness

It feels like
The home
I wish I had

Stuck and lost in a void,
May feel frightening to some
But it feels like a bliss to me

Too much like a bliss
That it makes me
Want to never come back

The world is falling apart
In front of our eyes
We are watching
We see It all

Yet we don't mind
We give more importance
To finding life on other planets
When the life here is about to end.

The sun shines bright
And so does the moon.

But the sun hides behind the moon,
And helps in shining light on the dark

They work together,
To keep us in light

To never let us experience darkness.
Because they know,

They've seen things,
Felt things.

But whatever it is that they saw,
They do not wish for us to experience it.

Because they think we deserve light,
And not the dead dark.

People
Are like
Teacups

Some are pretty
Some are plain

Some have a saucer
Some don't

Some carry warmth within them
Some turn cold in a blink

Some are the favorites
That we see everyday

But some are lost in the dark
Without their existence being known


But in the end,
They're just teacups

The forgotten child
Never asked how they are
Never asked for an opinion

Forgets them in the zoo
Doesn't have time to listen to them
Never asked if they want a second helping.

Loses them in the mall
But doesn't care

They come home with a purple eye one day
But nobody aks
Because they are the forgotten child

And it's always going to stay that way

Nights are special to me
Because they understand me

We relate,
The night and I

We are both dark
We are both loved by some and hated by some

We come and go everyday
And some miss us
But others don't

Some wait for us
But some wish we were never created

Some are afraid of us
While others seem to never stop loving us

It's these traits that keep the bond of the night and myself strong

And tonight I'm going towards him
Towards the night.
To be surrounded by his darkness forever.
To be alone with him, is all I want.

It was a day full of rain
A gloomy one
A depressing day

But once the rain went away,
I saw it
The most beautiful rainbow ever

All seven colors
Shining brightly
My eyes were pleased

I wondered,
What it would be like,
To bite into that rainbow

What would the colors taste like
Exploding in my mouth
And leaving my tongue colored

Ah, but I can only imagine

1 2 3  stars
Fixed in the sky

Some twinkling
Some still

Reminds me of the time
The world was a happy place

When people,
Actually wanted to live here

When society didn't judge us
When were free to be us

When there was only
Joy and love around

But now,
All I see is

Fire, death, anger
Families torn apart

I see people
Losing their minds

People holed up in their houses
Afraid of society judging them

The world was a beautiful place
Now it just *****.

They say life is good
But I don't believe it.

What is good
In millions of people dying every year

What is good
In global warming

What is good
In school shootings

What is good
In floods, earthquakes, tsunamis

What is good
In being diagnosed with a chronic illness

What is good
In divorce

What is good
In your home being destroyed by a fire

Maybe there is no good
Maybe they're just lying.

People say that they hate saying goodbye. So isn't the better way to never say hello?

I'm sorry.
For the way I've been.
Like you said, I'm a sailboat in the middle of an ocean.
Water surrounding me on all sides.
Knowing, there is no way out.
I watch the days turn to nights, and nights to days.
The cycle goes on forever.
Sometimes the moons light gives me hope.
But the clouds cover over it,
Just as I was beginning to get hopeful.
Sometimes I like to curl up in my little boat,
and count the stars at night.
But I never make it to the end,
Just like how I won't in this world.
But I see you,
In the distance,
Coming towards me in your strong ship.
You're coming to rescue me.
But the waves are too strong,
And they take you away from me.
So I sit back down once again,
And stare at the night sky,
Waiting for the clouds to shift.

I want to get lost in this universe
Ride by the stars
And spread rays of light

Help in creating flowers
To braid my hair
And for him to give her

To love all creatures
And watch the waters flow
Silent and calm

I just want to get lost in this ******* beautiful universe.
That's all I want.

Quick question:
Do the demons ever leave you alone?

I'm screaming
Out loud
In my head

But I look around and smile
I don't want people
To think I've lost my mind.

I'm not me anymore
Something else is controlling me
It's not me anymore.

Everything is a joke to me
Nothing makes sense
Like me.

I hate this
And at the same time
I love it.

Pillows that hold tears
walls that hold memories
Books that hold death

Tickets that take you places
Water that gives life
Money that gives happiness

The truth is forgotten
Lies are aprreciated
Chivalry is dead

Our world is changing
We are changing
It is slipping out of our hands

But are we doing anything to stop it?

Life is temporary

So do whatever the **** you want

"Leave me alone" she said, but she didn't mean it, and he didn't know.

I keep writing
But I can't find the right words
To get out this feeling in my chest
I feel sick
And I cannot think straight
Oh, how I wish everything would go
Back to the way it was.
I wish I was happy
I wish I could at least fix it.
But I'm broken now
Like you, and everybody else
And we can't be fixed anymore.

I'm still breathing
For what reason,
I do not know.

Isn't it ironic,
That people who hang themselves
Struggle to breathe
When their feet no longer touches the ground
They're struggling to breathe,
To live,
When their intention,
Is just the opposite.

"There is a reason behind everything"
Maybe there is, maybe there isn't
Or maybe it's just what you want to believe...

Why do I cut?
To remind myself that I'm still alive and breathing.

Ever losing sanity
Mind crumbling to pieces
Heart pumping for the last time

This is how it ends
There will be no sequel
This is it

Mind filled with noises
It's never quiet
Can't wait for this to end

Bruises on my body
Pain spreading everywhere
All of it

Will end
Tonight
Can't wait.

"Everything happens for a reason" they say.
But that's only what they want to believe.

I wish I were dead.
I wouldn't cause any more troubles.
I wouldn't be a burden.
I wouldn't be missed.
Please take me away.
Into the darkness.
Take my life.
I don't care anymore.
Everything would be so much easier.
It's better this way.
Oh, how I wish I were dead.

Flowing through every little space,
creating ripples from ones touch,
consisting of many compounds,
but all of the same type,
is water

Water above me, as I lie under,
Wanting to escape from here,
wanting to get away from all responsibilities

When water surrounds me,
I'm in a different world.
A world where days turn to nights, and nights to days.
A world where freedom runs through your blood.
A world where someone cares.

But once I reach surface,
It's all gone
And I'm back again.

We are made up of stardust
Or so they say

I look down at my hands
And see they are glittering

Is it glitter?
But no, It' not coming off

Shining radiantly
Almost as if It's a dream

But It's not possible
My mind says so

But the voice in my head
Tells me

To stop for a while
And let my imagination run wild.

What is it like
To have a heart
With no feelings

What is it like
To have a mind
That controls you

What is it like
To have a mouth
That won't work when you need it to

What is it like
To have hands
That make you choke yourself

What is it like
To be normal?

I never thought I'd matter
To anyone

Until you
Came along

And changed my perspective
Of the universe

You made me feel
Like I matter

And I'm grateful
For you.