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Sep 2018 · 196
Punch my fist on the wall
Tess Sep 2018
Punch my fist on the wall
Hear my knuckles crack

Keep punching
Till they start bleeding

Punch again
Till I don't feel the pain anymore

Draw my hand back
And feel the sting

I punch the wall
One last time

My knuckles are broken
And can't be fixed

Just like how
I'm broken and can't be fixed
Sep 2018 · 338
Demons. [Trigger Warning]
Tess Sep 2018
It's late at night
I'm in bed

I hear sounds that aren't there
I see shadows shifting around

Then there they are
The demons in my head

They force me to get up
And make my way to my desk

They tell me to grab my blade
And bring it my wrist

'One cut' they say
'And the pain will be gone'

And I give in
As I bring the blade to my wrist

And I  realise they were right
One cut and no more pain.
Sep 2018 · 694
What is it like
Tess Sep 2018
What is it like
To have a heart
With no feelings

What is it like
To have a mind
That controls you

What is it like
To have a mouth
That won't work when you need it to

What is it like
To have hands
That make you choke yourself

What is it like
To be normal?
But the thing is, I know what it is like to have all these things except normalcy.
Aug 2018 · 459
I talk to myself.
Tess Aug 2018
I talk to myself
A lot

Maybe It's because I know,
That I'm the only one
Who will talk to me

Only I understand what I'm saying
Aug 2018 · 205
Sad truth.
Tess Aug 2018
Isn't it weird
How
When kittens are born
They are afraid of us
It's almost
As if
They knew
That the world
Was a cruel place
Even before they were born
They knew
We were not to be trusted
It's sad
That they
Were born
With fear in them
It's sad
That we cannot
Do anything now
To change it
Aug 2018 · 160
This site
Tess Aug 2018
This site
It's people
Are more amazing
Than the people I see everyday
Here
You and me
We understand each other
We share the same problems
We stick up for each other
It's different
This world
Than the world outside
And I'm starting to think
That I love this world
More than the world outside
I know I'm new here, but I've met so many people here, everyone different from each other but we share the same mind.
Honestly I'm so glad I found this site.
Somewhere I can share my sorrows and joys.
Somewhere I can get help and help each other.
I'm so thankful for everyone here.
Aug 2018 · 196
I'm sorry
Tess Aug 2018
I'm sorry
I can't

I'm sorry
I won't

I'm sorry
I couldn't

I'm sorry
I should've
Doesn't make sense, I'm sorry.
Aug 2018 · 169
Untitled
Tess Aug 2018
"There is a reason behind everything"
Maybe there is, maybe there isn't
Or maybe it's just what you want to believe...
Aug 2018 · 183
The forgotten child.
Tess Aug 2018
The forgotten child
Never asked how they are
Never asked for an opinion

Forgets them in the zoo
Doesn't have time to listen to them
Never asked if they want a second helping.

Loses them in the mall
But doesn't care

They come home with a purple eye one day
But nobody aks
Because they are the forgotten child

And it's always going to stay that way
Aug 2018 · 1.2k
A Lie
Tess Aug 2018
They ask me how I am, so I put on a fake smile, pretend like everything's all right and say " I'm doing great, how about you?"
Aug 2018 · 326
Something and Nothing.
Tess Aug 2018
I wish I had the courage to say goodbye.
But I don't.
So I'm still here.
Eating away the days.
And never asking for a second helping
At night,
I celebrate my victory
For having survived yet another day,
In this stupid world, with stupid people.
This is meant for the outside world, and no one living in this site. I highly like everybody here. Its just that the outside world can be very ******* sometimes. If you know what I'm saying.
Aug 2018 · 18.0k
Colors.
Tess Aug 2018
Why do all colors have a description to them?

Red- For strength or anger
Yellow- For sunshine and happiness
Pink- For all girls
Blue- For the boys and for when you're sad
Black- For hate and fear
Purple- For luxury and ambition
Green- For nature and energy

We force people to be someone by giving them a label.
Should we do that to colors too?

Why should black be the evil one?
Why can't yellow be a way to express sadness?
Why is pink for girls?
Just why?
I wasn't so sure on posting this, but here it is. So yeah.
Aug 2018 · 187
A quote from a book.
Tess Aug 2018
If I switched the letter, my name was Air.
I thought it might be a great thing to be the air.
I could be something and nothing at the same time. I could be necessary and also invisible. Everyone would need me and no one would be able to see me.

-Aristotle and Dante discover the secrets of the Universe.
Author: Benjamin Alire Saenz.
A quote from one of my favorite books.
Aug 2018 · 168
Missing someone
Tess Aug 2018
I hate the feeling of missing someone
It shows how weak you are

I hate the pain in my chest
when I think of the times I'm not going to be there with you.

I hate this feeling
The feeling of missing someone.
This is maybe meant for someone, who probably doesn't even feel the same way.
Aug 2018 · 133
Untitled
Tess Aug 2018
"Leave me alone" she said, but she didn't mean it, and he didn't know.
Aug 2018 · 145
Universe.
Tess Aug 2018
I want to get lost in this universe
Ride by the stars
And spread rays of light

Help in creating flowers
To braid my hair
And for him to give her

To love all creatures
And watch the waters flow
Silent and calm

I just want to get lost in this ******* beautiful universe.
That's all I want.
Aug 2018 · 185
Her.
Tess Aug 2018
Sometimes she lays there wanting to feel something. Anything
No one cares about her anymore.
Not her friends, her family.

Her life is behind a shut door.
She is surrounded by walls, plain walls.
Walls that hold secrets

Her pains, her cries, her dead memories.
She is forgotten but she doesn't forget.
She has no role in this world

Or so she thinks.
Her thoughts flow like black waters,
spreading through her body, her veins.

Her memories almost dead.
Her heart broken into a million glass pieces
that stab her with every thought of you.

Because you should have been there for her,
when she was alive, when she needed you.
This was the first ever poem I wrote through which I discovered there was a poet living in me, undiscovered.
Aug 2018 · 133
Water
Tess Aug 2018
Flowing through every little space,
creating ripples from ones touch,
consisting of many compounds,
but all of the same type,
is water

Water above me, as I lie under,
Wanting to escape from here,
wanting to get away from all responsibilities

When water surrounds me,
I'm in a different world.
A world where days turn to nights, and nights to days.
A world where freedom runs through your blood.
A world where someone cares.

But once I reach surface,
It's all gone
And I'm back again.
Aug 2018 · 131
Untitled
Tess Aug 2018
Pillows that hold tears
walls that hold memories
Books that hold death

Tickets that take you places
Water that gives life
Money that gives happiness

The truth is forgotten
Lies are aprreciated
Chivalry is dead

Our world is changing
We are changing
It is slipping out of our hands

But are we doing anything to stop it?
Aug 2018 · 172
Smile.
Tess Aug 2018
Smile at a stranger
Make them think why

Make their day
Stop them from doing something terrible

One smile
It's all it takes
To change a life.
Something simple and short.
Aug 2018 · 319
Stuck.
Tess Aug 2018
Im stuck
Inside my head

There doesn't seem to be a way
For me to get out

I'm scared
And lonely

Stuck with my demons
It's my nightmare come to life

I can't see
Or think

My words are stuck
I can't make a sound

My cries
They're held within me

I'm stuck and afraid
For ever and always.
I wish I was just like everybody else sometimes. I hate being stuck.
Aug 2018 · 216
Stranger me
Tess Aug 2018
Everytime I look at my own picture
It feel like I'm looking at a stranger

It takes me a moment
To realise that's me

I've changed
In ways I don't know

I'm not my old self
I'm a stranger to myself

I'm a stranger
Who I'll never get used to
Jul 2018 · 617
Demons in my head
Tess Jul 2018
The demons in my head
They're mine
Mine to fight

I don't need your help
You don't understand
You never will

The demons
They're multiplying day by day
And growing stronger

They're slowly eating my soul
Until I have none left
They're destroying my feelings

They're going to take over me one day
But until then,
I'm going to keep fighting

Fighting until they're out of my head
And somewhere else instead
There are demons in my head and I have no control over them.
Jul 2018 · 199
For someone
Tess Jul 2018
You are brighter than the stars
The sun, even

And I won't let anybody take away that brightness from you
Not even him

In this battle
Against you and him,
I'm on your side

I'm rooting for you
I will always be rooting for you

I'm angry
At him

For taking you away
Away from everything

But I know now,
That in this battle
There will only be one winner
And I'm sure it will be you
For Logun Alexander Johnson and his battle against 'him'
Jul 2018 · 194
Something
Tess Jul 2018
Sometimes I feel nothing, and other times I feel everything.
There is no in between.
I struggle with extreme mood swings. And right now, I'm having a depressing episode.
Jul 2018 · 167
The night
Tess Jul 2018
Nights are special to me
Because they understand me

We relate,
The night and I

We are both dark
We are both loved by some and hated by some

We come and go everyday
And some miss us
But others don't

Some wait for us
But some wish we were never created

Some are afraid of us
While others seem to never stop loving us

It's these traits that keep the bond of the night and myself strong

And tonight I'm going towards him
Towards the night.
To be surrounded by his darkness forever.
To be alone with him, is all I want.
I honestly don't even know
Jul 2018 · 185
Thought.
Tess Jul 2018
People say that they hate saying goodbye. So isn't the better way to never say hello?
Jul 2018 · 200
My pillow
Tess Jul 2018
My pillow
An inanimate object
Yet

He knows more secrets than my best friend
He has seen me in states that no one else has

He holds my secrets
He is soaked with my tears
My screams are held within him

He understands me in a way no one else will
He listens to my endless cries
He never complains

He is ready to hold me
When I'm tired and ready to switch off

My pillow is one who loves me
Endlessly and without complain
Feedbacks are appreciated
Jul 2018 · 647
Poem.
Tess Jul 2018
I'm a young girl with her entire life still ahead of her
But it's my moods that are holding me back

One day I'm on top of the world and the next day I'm at the bottom of the ocean

Nobody understands this
They think I'm just another spoilt kid from the city

But I'm not and I just want to make them understand
Just for once in my while entire life,
I just want someone to understand me

Just for once
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Jul 2018 · 216
Lost.
Tess Jul 2018
I'm losing my mind
Slowly,
I don't know what's real anymore

Who are you?
Who am I?
Where am I?

Will I ever be back to normal again?
I don't understand myself
So I don't expect you to either

I wish I could find my senses
And be normal again
So I don't hurt myself
Because I want to feel something

I've lost everything
I don't know what to live for anymore
I'm done. So goodbye.
Words just flowed out of me. Maybe some of these lines don't make sense or are abrupt. But I tried.
Jul 2018 · 274
Stupid humans.
Tess Jul 2018
The world is falling apart
In front of our eyes
We are watching
We see It all

Yet we don't mind
We give more importance
To finding life on other planets
When the life here is about to end.
I'm done.

— The End —