I told myslef that this was done.
I thought my mind had finally won.
But after all this time I see,
There really is no beating me.
My mind and my soul,
Have but only one goal.
And that is to find peace with what I’ve lost.

The best of my dreams are the ones in which I die.
I can see a life beyond my own, and ask, who, what, when, where, why?
In my twisted paradise all I see are perfect days,
But even in my dreams, the things I love the most tend to fade away.
Then I finally awake to my miserable life,
And I find myself asking, why I even try?
These are the moments I realize why my favourite dreams are the ones in which I die.

One job was all it took,
I never took a second look.
Within seconds before my eyes,
My heart was struck, and I realized,
That beyond the jobs, and the red robes, she suffered, screaming for me to come home.
She’d warned me once or twice before,
But my anger sent me slamming doors.
So I look back with a smile on my face, knowing in this cruel world I hold no place.
Because in this hell you call home,
I sit laughing all alone...

The strange games you play with my brain,
Are simply driving me insane.
You shoot me down, and wither my heart.
With you there’s really no place to start.
When I’m with you I feel cold.
Your attitude and abuse are getting old.
I have to escape you...some way, somehow.
But I can’t, not here, not now.

Every time I become locked in a haze upon your sea blue eyes,
I feel my heart tense as, I memorize your lies.
I trusted you with everything I had.
You left me crying, and had me far beyond any kind of sad.
I watched you leave me. I saw you waltz out my door.
What’s left for me now...? Nothing anymore.

Broken wife, empty life.
I tried to fix her with a smile,
She forgot me for awhile.
All I wanted was to see her
glow,
Trying with her had never left me so low.
So I forgot her, and left her to die.
She yelled, and screamed, and asked me
“why?”
I just laughed and let her fall.
I wont be receiving anymore of her calls.
So I’ve set my old life aside,
Because now I see the funny side.

I laugh and cry,

And wonder why.

Why you would hurt me like you did,

Was it because I was just a kid?

You left me bleeding on the floor,

My heart was hurting to it’s core.

I screamed as my blood began to boil.

The last thing I remember was the scent of oil

Count the seconds, the clock ticks fast.

Every breath could be your last.

You’re dying now, and I feel alone,

Your tears make my body ache to the bone.

The sparkle in your eyes echos in my memories, as if to rhyme.

I suppose eventually everyone runs out of time.

If I should fall from the height of Space, would you give me the Power to retake my place.

To calm my mind, to rest my soul, to show me those I used to know...

Would you turn back the hands of Time, to reveal the Reality which was once mine?