Falling
   Falling
      Falling...
        Still Falling.
            Waiting for this to End.
So That I can Get Up
   And Climb Back.

For Someone
whom I can be
The Real Me.
The Search Continues ....

Maybe
I still cant See
What is to be Seen.

So proud of its  Shape.
The Color and the Make.
Except for the Drain.  

Hidden and Blocked.  
And was so glad.
Not realising that Water
would soon fill up.

Full and Heavy
It overflowed
Cracks all over
It Finally Broke.

Long Two Decades.
Not much of Success.
Tried Tried and Tried.
Ended up always Crying.
Finally Gave up ....

In the End.
Always the same...

Sometimes out of Love.  
   Sometimes out of Respect.  
Sometimes just for Others.
   Sometimes just for peace.
Simply I remain Quiet

Sturdy Foundation.
Perfection Personified.  
Synergy in Asymmetry.
Still Remains a Mystery.
Resonance Flows
Eyes Behold.
Charming Smile
Body Agile

Sometimes ...
The Branches of the Tree Fall.
But never hurt the Tree itself.
Humans still need to learn this.

Four and Three - Forty Three
End of this wonderful Journey.

When close friends dont reply
It Hurts.....  

When you are the only person
in your college batch not invited.  
It Hurts......  

When you are the Only Neighbour
Not invited for the Wedding.
It Hurts.

When someone close to you
Keeps on Discouraging you always.
It Hurts.  

When employees whom you Empower
Became Competitors
It Hurts.

When you are contacted
Only when the need something  and Ignored rest of the time.
It Hurts.  

All I need to know is WHY ?  
As even not getting the Reason Hurts.

Either

you see Order
Or Ignore it

and see chaos.

Some Fires are lit
To be Extinguished.

At times there is no one
except your own self
Whom you can talk to.  

At times you are all alone
Left by all your so called Friends
Virtually and Physically.  

At times you are faced with
Stiff competition by those
Who had worked with you.

At times you just feel helpless
Depressed and Un Wanted.

These are the Phase of Life
for which gives you oneslef
a new persepective to Life

Waiting for the Next Phase......
The Next Phase of Life

The Stagnant Pond ....
Way Way Beyond.
An Ambitious Fish ...  
Just had one Wish....
Wanted to Fly..
To Reach the Sky...
Went High
And  Died.....

Hard from the Outside ...
Delicate Inside...
In It the Seeds Reside....

Stagantion at its best....
This place is like a nest ...
Wanna Break Free and Fly .....
Explore all under the sky.
As the Endless Time goes by ...
Every moment I just try..
Waiting for that one Moment
Where Initial Inertia is Overcome.

Just Entered
Many Many Qs.
Stood in one of them...
Proud of my Line.
Time Passed.
Many Questions
Few Answers
All Lines lead to One.

Some Cry
Some Talk
And Some Smile....

In the end ...
I walk alone ...

The More You Lie.
The More You Smile.

The only difference
between you and me is ...
You Break.  I make.

Maybe I have misunderstood you.
   Concern.
      Understanding.
          Endless Chats

Maybe I had taken you for Granted.
     Trust
        Love
          Bonding.
  
Maybe I am to be  blamed now after being
       Ignored
          Alone
             Left Out

You dont Die
Just Once........

Never accept my Silence
As a Guilt , Defeat or Acceptance.
Nothing but RelationShip has
Always Been the Top Priority.
You never know when and how
Environment and Person Changes.
As every Human still needs a few
To put him to Rest to Eternity.
Friend or Foe Who Knows.

Gussa Ka Sailaab Sai
Nahi Darta Hu Mai.
Darta Hu Tau Sirf
Bana Banai Rishtai
Ka Bhai Jaaana.

Afraid I am not
with the Floods of Anger.
But Scared of the AfterEffects
where Relationships
will be broken and swayed away.

O Bewafaa
Yeh Aap  Nai Kya Kiya ...
Bewaajaa Dai De
Mujhe Aisee Sazaa.
O Bewafaa.

O Bewafaa
Itni bhi Kya Naraazgi Thi.
Labhau Kai  Alfaaz Sai
Dil Hi Nasuur Kar Diya
O Bewafaa

O Bewafaa
Dard Kai Samundaar Mai
Ab Taair Raha Hu Mai.
Dubnai Ka Intezaar Hai.
O Bewafaa

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Mera Yeh Dil Ab Nazuk Hau Gaya.
Aab Aur Bardaas Nahi Kar Saka
Kabhi Teri  Khamooshi
Kabhi Teri Nafarmani.

I feel as If

I am a Candle not Lit.
I am a Car not Driven.
I am a Machine not Switched On.
I am a Building without Dwellers.
I am a  Party without Guest.
I am a Game without Spectators.
I am a Conference without Delegates.
And
A Soul with a Body but without a Cause.

That Peaceful Ambeince
Filled with Happiness
How can I forget ....

Sweets from Neighbours
Served with Genuine Love.
How can I forget.....

The Music and Dance
On the RoofTop
How can I forget .....

Those Days have gone.
Most of my Neighbours too.
How can I forget ....

Even after 3 Decades
I just long for those moments.

Its about Time
I am What I am.

Its about Time
I do What I shoud have done.

Its about Time
I accept and Just Move On and On.

Its about Time
I will be perfectly Fine.

Wish  I could take out this Coat
Which I so very much loathe  
With So Many Thorns and More.  
Though I feel in it So Secure.
Longing for that One Small Hug.
Being aware that it will hurt you more.

A Long Long Time Ago
Came a Man without an Ego.
He would Sell Fine Lemonade.
And as Time Passed by
Many Many did accolade.  

As time passed by
His clients got bored
And slowly dwindled.
So he had to offer perks
And good discounts.  

Soon came many more
who would offer Lemonade  and more.
The Market Place got Crowded
And Thousands also doubted.  

The Original Seller
had to do something
Else would be wiped out forever.  
Retorted to Brainwashing his Clients
Spreading Lies and Deceits.
Some came in his sway.

Soon many Sellers went away
And a few still decided to stay.
Now the Original Seller is still selling.
The Old Lemonade in a new way.
But is always so scared of a few.
Aware  that the lemonade has to change.

Those Inviting Eyes.
Never Ending Smile.
Nostrils Flaring By.
Red Lipstick Electrify.

My Heart goes Awry
Lips became Dry.
Things get Prolonged.
Emotions go Beyond.  

Matter of time Now.
Moment of Wow.
Desires Incomplete.
Transfer Complete.  

Those Inviting Eyes.
Never Ending Smile.

Make up your Mind —
You are everything but Blind —
We were so much aligned —
Memories I may not Remind.—-
Cant leave them Behind. — -
I do understand your mind.
But you cant leave me Quarantined.

5 Little Birds Sitting on the Tree.
Named A , B , C ,D and E.
All Lived in Peace and Harmony.  
Till Came another one called P.
Not much place for he could See.
So had to kick one just to be.
Saw the weakest one was B.  
So Clever and Smart was he.
Spread Lies and Hatred against B.  
After B , it was A , C, D and E.

Kab Kahan Kaunsa Kutta Kattai
Yeh Patta Na Chalai.
Chal Rahai Hai Hum Rah Par
Bina Kissai Kai Dar.

Yet to be explored ..
The Metro
The Trams
The Sweets
The Howrah Bridge
And More.

They are times when
Not one Soul Speaks
Not one Soul Listens
As the Day and Night Passes By.

The Time has finally Come.
Many things I have to Dump.
I may encounter a few Bumps.
The Time has finally Come.

For the Things I did get attached to
Had as such nothing with me to do.
Reliased its far better to let go
Should have done the ages ago.  

Enough is Enough for My Heart Says.
My Soul and Brain also said  Yay.
The Time has finally come.

Ya Khuda.
Yeh Kya Hau Gaya
Qubool Kiya Tu Nai Yeh Dua
Ki Dur Hau Jayai Woh Sab
Jau Na Karta Hai Mujhe Sai Pyaar.
Yeh Kya Pataa Ta Mujhe
Ki Shamil Hau Jayaigai
Merai woh Sab Sai Pyaari Dost bhi.

Came out of my Shell.
Explored and Enjoyed.
Played along for a while.
BackStabbed and Hurt.
Unhappy and Sad.
Going back into my Shell.

Sands on the Shore
Waves Come and go.
Imprints made
Not there anymore....

Paths  after Paths.
Diversions Many
Took Some
Dead End  Few
End of the Road Now

Emptiness
No Thoughts No Words.
Stagnant State.
Free Wheeling in Space.
Loneliness

Na Maluum  Hai Meri Manzil
Bas Rastaa Par Chaal Raha Hu.
Kabhi Rukh Jaata Hu.  
Kabhi Thaak Jaata Hu.
Manzil Aanai Mai Daair Hai.  
Sauchta Hu Ki Baas Chaalta Rahu.  
Manzil Mili Ya Na Mili Aaab
Kya pata Yeh Chalna hi Tha Meri Manzil

Red Orange Yellow.
Green Blue and Indigo.
Violet makes the RainBow.
Together they Simply  Glow.

Each Colour has a meaning for Sure.
Pure , Mature and Obscure.  
Different Frequencies.
Living Together in Harmony.
Ever Spreading Energy.
Travelling towards Infinity.

Yet to learn a lot
From this Rainbow across.