a force in my head
overwhelming magnetic power
all it wants
is to **** me
chaotic
emergencies
******* me into
a black hole  
all you want is
my consciousness
hostage from the light
the spirit
from joy of just being

when you turn to G-d
and don’t feel Him with you

INT. CENTRAL PERK - DAY

The Friends are all sitting on the couch, chatting and sipping their coffee. Joey bursts in, holding a large box.

JOEY: Hey, guys! Check it out! I got a new entertainment system!

MONICA: (sarcastically) Oh, great. Another giant box to clutter up our tiny apartments.

JOEY: (ignoring her) I need your help setting it up. Who's in?

Chandler, Phoebe, and Ross all raise their hands, but Rachel and Monica look hesitant.

RACHEL: (doubtfully) I don't know, Joey. This sounds like a lot of work.

JOEY: (encouragingly) Come on, Rach. It'll be fun! And I'll even order us a pizza.

MONICA: (smiling) Okay, I'm in.

Rachel reluctantly agrees, and the Friends start setting up the entertainment system. Joey pulls out a large instruction manual and starts reading out loud.

JOEY: (confused) Okay, it says we need to connect the yellow cord to the blue input, but I don't see a blue input.

CHANDLER: (sarcastically) Well, Joey, have you tried turning it off and on again?

PHOEBE: (jokingly) Maybe you need to sacrifice a chicken to the technology gods.

Ross, Monica, and Joey start arguing over the proper way to set up the system, while Chandler and Phoebe start making up ridiculous solutions. Rachel sits off to the side, looking amused but uninterested.

RACHEL: (smiling) You know, I have an idea. Let's just call the Geek Squad and let them deal with it.

JOEY: (defeated) Yeah, I guess you're right. I'll call them tomorrow.

MONICA: (frustrated) Ugh, I can't believe we wasted all this time on nothing.

PHOEBE: (smiling) Well, at least we got to spend time together.

CHANDLER: (nodding) And we'll always have the memories of that time Joey accidentally shocked himself with the power cord.

Joey looks embarrassed as the Friends all laugh, and the camera fades out on their good-natured teasing and banter.

2 midlife crises
by the age of 22

highlights lowlights
and hell

i don’t get to choose when you come and go
i don’t get to choose how long you stay
i don’t get to choose how loud you are
i dont get to choose how intense you hurt

do you hear me
I won’t ever know

Alone in the dark,
My tears are the only spark.

there is too much to figure out
too much expected of me

you dont need to win at life
if its a stupid game either way

i think resilience
turned into anxiety

for now ill pray to G-d
for always ill keep wondering

an insomniac
with an alarm clock

how do i filter out
the poems about love

there is no autocheck
on my beliefs

quitting therapy is the depths

why does your simulation require
stabbings to my gut and a boulder on my chest

he rejected me
it hurts
it wasnt meant to be
this pain is meant to be?
who are you mr meant to be

journey makes it sound like an outdoor adventure
its actually more like hell treck

and how can you know true love
when true love faded in the past

do pained people turn into poets
or would they be a poet without pain

do i know deep down
or am i delusional

when youre not drowning
youre floating

and by the end of this life
i wonder if i will say no thank you

im too sad
too present you a clever poem

definitely one hundred percent doing this whole life thing wrong i dont know how to do this

ill either see you never
or forever

edit: i hope i never see you

of im going to have anything
its because You led me to it

my emotions keep
throwing me out of whack

it usually doesnt work out in the end
and life keeps living

all this discomfort
and no relief

i dont like it here
i never wanted this

what do i do with an awful feeling
that keeps coming back all the time

art is imperfection
otherwise it would be a photograph

i feel awful
i cant escape

i wont write about
the peace i feel now

all the wisdom has not been enough i am here in pain

whats if my sadness all this time
was never up to me

just squirming for a life of the least discomfort and its not working

emotions won’t **** you
but that’s the worst part

she told me she thought i did a good job
and my brain called her a liar

i can’t be there for you
because i feel all your pain

i never asked for this life
but nobody asked me

my emotions attack me
i am defenseless

waving a palestinian flag is not freedom of speech it is hate speech. It is the new **** flag

the sun is shining through the window
and inside the weight of black thickness

i fall in and out
so i don’t trust love now

my heart is abused by my mind
and it can just stare paralyzed

and tonight
we have nothing to say

Unable to brush my teeth
bec throwing up from stress