there’s a virus in my brain
it’s always chaos on the screen

the pain is always deeper than the pleasure

when you turn to G-d
and don’t feel Him with you

INT. CENTRAL PERK - DAY

The Friends are all sitting on the couch, chatting and sipping their coffee. Joey bursts in, holding a large box.

JOEY: Hey, guys! Check it out! I got a new entertainment system!

MONICA: (sarcastically) Oh, great. Another giant box to clutter up our tiny apartments.

JOEY: (ignoring her) I need your help setting it up. Who's in?

Chandler, Phoebe, and Ross all raise their hands, but Rachel and Monica look hesitant.

RACHEL: (doubtfully) I don't know, Joey. This sounds like a lot of work.

JOEY: (encouragingly) Come on, Rach. It'll be fun! And I'll even order us a pizza.

MONICA: (smiling) Okay, I'm in.

Rachel reluctantly agrees, and the Friends start setting up the entertainment system. Joey pulls out a large instruction manual and starts reading out loud.

JOEY: (confused) Okay, it says we need to connect the yellow cord to the blue input, but I don't see a blue input.

CHANDLER: (sarcastically) Well, Joey, have you tried turning it off and on again?

PHOEBE: (jokingly) Maybe you need to sacrifice a chicken to the technology gods.

Ross, Monica, and Joey start arguing over the proper way to set up the system, while Chandler and Phoebe start making up ridiculous solutions. Rachel sits off to the side, looking amused but uninterested.

RACHEL: (smiling) You know, I have an idea. Let's just call the Geek Squad and let them deal with it.

JOEY: (defeated) Yeah, I guess you're right. I'll call them tomorrow.

MONICA: (frustrated) Ugh, I can't believe we wasted all this time on nothing.

PHOEBE: (smiling) Well, at least we got to spend time together.

CHANDLER: (nodding) And we'll always have the memories of that time Joey accidentally shocked himself with the power cord.

Joey looks embarrassed as the Friends all laugh, and the camera fades out on their good-natured teasing and banter.

oh just please G-d be more clear
on how exactly you need me to dance

i would like to chase my dreams
but for now at least its not a nightmare

yea
life is long

im having a terrible time here
and i dont know the solution

my life is coming apart at the seems
whats next

I’m feeling worse and worse
getting older and older

G-d if i knew for sure
you’d be the center for sure

i’m drowning in the ocean
with boulders on my chest

my brain
is toxic

my heart is abused by my mind
and it can just stare paralyzed

therapy is a drop of water
when the whole worlds on fire

sometimes my bad days
are many rounds around the clock

i get why they take drugs
my life relatively isnt bad
and yet the feelings are too painful
constantly being wounded over and over

the facts of my life
are a weird combination

yes fear will stop me because
im terrified of feeling like i want to die

when i write about gd
no one can relate

its a secret how to dance in the world

gd if i loved someone
i definitely wouldnt make them live this life i have

I don’t care for the rat race
and if HE exists, HE doesn’t play either way

living is
overrated

do pained people turn into poets
or would they be a poet without pain

i hope to abandon you someday hello poetry

gd i wouldnt let someone i love
feel the way i feel

gd if i loved someone
i would make her feel so loved

gd if i loved someone
id never let her feel abandoned

can you love me when the dust is not settled

there is no autocheck
on my beliefs

just cried my heart out to gd
or a crazy lady just spoke to herself
ill never know because gd doesnt seem to ever answer my prayers

when a headache is the least painful thing
i’ve felt today

the mini high you get after your anxiety makes you throw up yellow stuff in the morning
its the small gifts in life thank you g-d

try not to suffer
and suffer more
or suffer another way

a force in my head
overwhelming magnetic power
all it wants
is to **** me
chaotic
emergencies
******* me into
a black hole  
all you want is
my consciousness
hostage from the light
the spirit
from joy of just being

when i go up to heaven
i hope its all explained to me

im desprate
im taking a gamble on G-d

bold of you to keep on asking
to trust the faulty process

and how can you know true love
when true love faded in the past

how is it legal to hold up a palestinian flag if it’s illegal to hold up a **** flag?

my life is me trying to avoid suffering but not knowing how but knowing that its in my hands you get why i hate it here

it usually doesnt work out in the end
and life keeps living

ill either see you never
or forever

edit: i hope i never see you

i never asked for this life
but nobody asked me

why is the air
choking my neck

too often i have my emotions stab me in my heart
with every beat another stab
i dont know when it will stop
and when it does its sure to return soon

its either all over eventually or
there was meaning all along

there is no peace of mind
in the pursuit of it

i don’t get to choose when you come and go
i don’t get to choose how long you stay
i don’t get to choose how loud you are
i dont get to choose how intense you hurt