if gd doesnt exist im crazy
but there is no way to know

i dont like it here
i never wanted this

life is incomprehensible

and how can you know true love
when true love faded in the past

ill either see you never
or forever

edit: i hope i never see you

its either all over eventually or
there was meaning all along

you tell me its all in the mind but when circumstances change my throat opens again

i didn’t pray to gd today
i always do
i didn’t sing your praises
or read how you carry me
i wanted this poem to rhyme
so you can find it cute
but i always do doesn’t rhyme with
i feel so broken and like you don’t even care and how do you put me in all this pain and my life makes me feel like i want to die and nothing is fair and im suffering in emotional pain too often for like ten years already and it’s not like im not trying not to suffer, i am but i dont seem to know the code they say embrace your feelings but then also let go and i feel like i dont know how to accept my feelings or let go and it results in so much suffering

so sometimes life doesnt rhyme

Kfir, Ariel, Shiri

self esteem wasnt in your mind
those who were watered in sunshine blossomed

waving a palestinian flag is not freedom of speech it is hate speech. It is the new **** flag

What looked like a rock was just an image on a hollow inflatable

why is the air
choking my neck

when youre not drowning
youre floating

G-d you better have good explanations
when i get up there

he rejected me
it hurts
it wasnt meant to be
this pain is meant to be?
who are you mr meant to be

either G-d or life
is a hoax

seriously G-d
you expectations are wild

gd why do you let this happen to me
im not sure you will help me

when a headache is the least painful thing
i’ve felt today

definitely one hundred percent doing this whole life thing wrong i dont know how to do this

you cant force me
you can manipulate me

art is imperfection
otherwise it would be a photograph

my life is a relentless series of
a boulder on my chest on and off

why does your simulation require
stabbings to my gut and a boulder on my chest

i think resilience
turned into anxiety

what do i do with pain
that is clinging to me

i dont want to be here
i dont have a choice

i can’t be there for you
because i feel all your pain

when is it intuition
and when is it fear

let me at least revel
in the moments i dont wish to die

and now even sleep
has no rest

what did i do to deserve this
im trying my best over here

she told me she thought i did a good job
and my brain called her a liar

all this discomfort
and no relief

im too sad
too present you a clever poem

im not going to have beliefs
the invisible truth will just be

the sun is shining through the window
and inside the weight of black thickness

it will pinch your inside
and squish your heart
logic won’t calm it
but i am here with you

just tell me ill eventually
have clarity on existence

do i know deep down
or am i delusional

i don’t trust my reasoning
it’s not reliable

i dont want to feel
i dont want to suffer

the only hard part
is not knowing how

my sadness is as attractive as my poems

is this sadness my fate
will there be an escape

G-d if you exist
how’d you come about

imagine having an incessant weight on your chest
and an awful feeling inside
but expecting yourself to be normal

my emotions attack me
i am defenseless