Trying to reminisce our memories
Is like looking for tire tracks on a rainy day.
Useless.
Looking for the reasons I fell in love
Is like looking through fog.
Impossible.
You meant so much,
You mean so much.
I don’t want to let go,
Yet holding on
Is like carrying an anchor
In quick sand.
Its time to say goodbye.

Because I loved you.
I dropped everyone
Because you’re the only one I saw.
you didn’t do the same.
Because I loved you.
I sacrificed my happiness
Maybe thinking you’d give it back.
You didn’t.
Because I loved you.
I let you play me
Like a deck of cards.
Because i loved you.
I let you break me.
And now here I am
Picking up the pieces
All.by.myself.
But as long as you’re happy,
Right?

You tell me i’ve changed
Like i chose to lose myself.
You tell me i’ve changed
Like I haven’t spent nights
Reminiscing on better times.
You tell me i’ve changed
Like you didn’t push me
To who i’ve become.
You tell me i’ve changed
Like i don’t sit up every night
Wishing i hadn’t.

The rainy days were soothing.
Those days she prospered.
The rainy days were soothing,
Until the rains turned to storms.
What came as a steady pace
Slowly turned into a thunderous growl,
Ruining everything in its path.
But she told herself:
It’ll pass.
It’ll pass.
It’ll pass.
          •••
I hope.

I notice many things about you.
Every time i look at you.
I notice how when you laugh,
You have the slightest dimple,
Right on your chin.
I notice that you only drink your coffee black,
Two spoons of sugar,
No more and no less.
I notice that you used to listen to my stories,
Holding onto every word
That dripped from my lips
Just for you to hear.
But the largest thing i’ve noticed
Is that you lost your ability to care.
I notice that when you’re harsh words
Shatter my heart and it drops,
Instead of looking down,
You walk right over the pieces,
And leave me be.
If you’re ready to leave,
Please tell.