You are trying to make me regret the words I have said to you. When it should be you regretting the words you could have said to me.

Is it really sad that
When I silent call you
I wish that you would
Stay on the line long enough
For me to hear you take a deep breath
That way
I can close my eyes
Pretend that you are breathing
Next to my ear
Like you used to
When we were sleeping

You are the one I love
One that I call mine
I thank whoever is listening
For your existence
You make me laugh
You make me cry
You make me feel
That I am alive
I thank that i have you
And that I belong to you
Stay mine whatever it takes
There is more laughs
More tears to come by
I vow that I belong to you
However long I can
However long you want me to
I am proud to say I am yours
I wish to stay I wish to be yours
Don’t forget to stay mine
Don’t forget that YOU ARE LOVED.

At last
The end is in sight
This time I’m angry
This time I’m grieving
You have just given up your soul
Not to the devil
But to guilt instead
This is just the beginning
For you. For me. For her
This time it will hurt
This time it will last
I can’t help but feel
The loss of a loved one
You have just committed suicide
You have given up the last bit of you
Not to the devil
But to guilt instead
I’m hurt
I’m sad
I’m angry
I’m left behind
You haven’t just given up on hope
You have given up on memories instead
Not only the ones we made
But the potential ones
We were yet to make

How can you love me
And hurt me this much
How can you love me
And touch her skin
How can you love me
And let her touch you
Why did you do this
Why did you leave me
To be hers
Out of guilt you say
Out of pity
Since when guilt rules desire
Since when pity becomes ***
Do you feel guilty for me
For what you have done to me
What happens to me now
Do I need to seek your pity

On the edge of darkness
I sit I wait
For what is yet to come
It feels sooner than later
Is this the end
Is it only the beginning
Trying to be strong
Pretending I can survive
It will hurt that I know well
How much how long
That remains to be discovered
I have nothing left to lose
But not much to gain either
With you without you
Life will continue
How much I lived
Since I got to live loving you.
What I have lost of myself
Since I gave all of mine to you
You gave me pain
You became my pleasure
What I felt with you
Is bigger than the words I know
When I said I more than love you
Nothing more was left to do
When I fell
I fell hard for you
When you loved me back in return
What else was I supposed to do
I was the love of your life once
Who knew the life was gonna get this hard
I won't ever apologise
What I or you ever done
My crises brought us together
Your crises will do us apart
When the time comes
Be gentle with me for one last time
I been hurt once
I got broken and punished enough
Be the most decent man I once knew
Come tell me yourself
Decisions have been made
Time for us is at its end
Tell me your goodbye
Kiss me for one last time
This time I know it's gonna end for good
I won't drag my feet
I won't shed my tears
I will walk away from you
To give you your life back
And to start searching for mine.

Do you know how it feels
When you walk out of my bed
To go back to her
It hurts
It hurts not knowing
If she is playing a game
Knowing you will go
Because she asked you to
Not knowing if she really needs your help
Or just want you by her side
Knowing you will go
Because she asked you to
Do you know what it does
It breaks me to pieces
Not knowing what you will do
Will you help care for the sick mother
Or hold her close tell her you are there
Is she trying to get you back
Will you let her have you
Will you tell her you belong with someonelse
Do you know where you belong
Have you made that choice yet
Is there even a choice to be made
Can you walk away from me
If she offers to take you back
Will your life become whole
If it is you and her again
Can you become hers once more
Forget who have you just left
Is this a game of me versus her
Or was I always by myself