BYe is the last word I hear with you.
You never look at me.

People see me I'm happy as I am.
But little did they know I'm broken.
I always hiding my feeling
And when no one can see me I cry a lot.
I want to shout my feeling but I cant.

People that surround me makes me scare.
I want to hide.
They should not notice me.
I want to be nothing.

I want to cry and cry.

Its been 6 Months.
I'm still into you.
Hearing  & seeing your name still give pain in my heart.

I'm still stock with you.
I'm still waiting for you.
I'm still a foolish.

It pained me a lot.
I smile a lot but sorrow is hiding.
I want to burst out and scream my pain.
I want to confide my hurt feeling and cry a lot.
I want to be hug.

Its make me curious, if you still remember me.
If you miss me.
If you really forget me.
If I am really nothing to you.
Thinking those thinks makes me cry.
My feeling become so sad.

Why I keep holding on to you.

Im scared.
Sorrow can eat you alive.
Pain can destroy you.

Im scared how can I handle myself.
] want to be happy as I am.
I want to be serious as I am.

But Im scared.
Judgement, criticism,
I feel so small.

Im scared with my surrounding.
Everything.

Be positive enough.
Smile as you want.
Be happy always.
Cry as you want.
Be firm.
Be strong
Have courage.
Believe in your self
Have confidence.
Hope.
Your brave enough.
Be more understanding.
Forgive.
Love yourself.

Haunt by your memories.
I should stop.
I dont have news with you.

Keep thinking of you.
Remembering our stories.
Reminiscing sweet moment of us.

A short time but full of impact.

All of a sudden you've change and its destroy me.
Remembering my hurtful moment with you makes me cry.
Those days I feel your fooling at me.
Those days you've changes,
It makes me feel so stress and so less about myself.
Ive been good with you but why you hurt me.

I thought I was strong, but I was not.
I still keep looking and hoping that your coming back to me.
I was such a big fool.
How could I trust you If someday my dreams come true.
That you will come back to me.

You are my first love.
But I was not your first love nor your last love.
I think I was nothing else with you.

You are my first of all.
Love and Hurt.
But hurt is more big of all.

I hide my hurt with a smile.
Smile that full of sorrow.
Eyes that keep looking happy.
Hiding the tears that overflowing in my soul.