Haunt by your memories.
I should stop.
I dont have news with you.

Keep thinking of you.
Remembering our stories.
Reminiscing sweet moment of us.

A short time but full of impact.

All of a sudden you've change and its destroy me.
Remembering my hurtful moment with you makes me cry.
Those days I feel your fooling at me.
Those days you've changes,
It makes me feel so stress and so less about myself.
Ive been good with you but why you hurt me.

I thought I was strong, but I was not.
I still keep looking and hoping that your coming back to me.
I was such a big fool.
How could I trust you If someday my dreams come true.
That you will come back to me.

You are my first love.
But I was not your first love nor your last love.
I think I was nothing else with you.

You are my first of all.
Love and Hurt.
But hurt is more big of all.

I hide my hurt with a smile.
Smile that full of sorrow.
Eyes that keep looking happy.
Hiding the tears that overflowing in my soul.

What is more hurtful.
The person will say his not into you anymore.
The person makes you feel you are nothing.

I love you.
I'm not always saying I love you.
But I always love you.

But I asking myself,
What, when, where, why and how.
You changed.
What is your reason.
When did it start.
Where did it you realize.
Why you do this to me.
How can you do that to me.
You hurt me big time.

I really love you.
I was really hurt.
But there is so many why in my head.

I want to forget you.
I want to stop thinking of you.
But like a water you keep flowing in my mind.
Its a rewind series of event.

I cant stop thinking those things.
Short memory but have impact to me.
A big impact in my being.

I keep looking back.
Looking back how we start.
Looking back how you become sweet.
Looking back how you become persistent.
Looking back how you court me.
Looking back how you constantly communicate at me.
Looking back how you make me fall in love with your antics.

Looking back all the memories we have.
Looking back with the short encounter we have.
But those minimal encounter, I treasure it.

I treasure every encounter I have with you.
I treasure it with all my heart.
I keep looking back at you.

Those keep looking back it hurts my feeling.
You make me feel I'm not worthy.
I keep asking myself why you did not let me stay with you.
Am I not really important to you.

I keep looking back.

I feel so broken.
I feel so numb.
I feel the pain in my mind and heart.
I feel the tension in my stomach.

I feel so broken.
You broke up with no closure.

I broke up with you.
You lie.
You cheat.
You're hiding with me.
You're avoiding me.

I hate you so much.
I feel so regretful
I want to forget you.
I want to erase you.

I can't say I miss you.
Because you will say I'm obsessed with you.
I can't say my whim to you.
Because you will say you're not here.
I can't say I need you.
Because you will say I'm needy.

You become the person that I cannot tell what I really want.
And I feel I become a person to you that I'm not comfortable to be with.
And it makes me sad.
We become really different with each other.
I'm not the person that you need anymore.
And your not the person I need anymore.