I can't say I miss you.
Because you will say I'm obsessed with you.
I can't say my whim to you.
Because you will say you're not here.
I can't say I need you.
Because you will say I'm needy.

You become the person that I cannot tell what I really want.
And I feel I become a person to you that I'm not comfortable to be with.
And it makes me sad.
We become really different with each other.
I'm not the person that you need anymore.
And your not the person I need anymore.

You are full of lies.
I don't know who really you are.

I fall in love thats why Im hurt
I fall in love thats why I give everything.
I fall in love thats why I become fool.

I fall in love for the first time.
I fall in love but its hurt.
I fall in love with a wrong one.
I fall in love with a two faced person.

You tricked me.
You used me.
You hurt me.
You destroy me.

You have a two faced.
I let you tricked me.
I let you used me.
I let you hurt me.
I let you destroy me.

I did not know you will change.
I did not know I'm just an option when you're bored.
I'm a fool that fall in love with you.

I see you.
All the sorrow I feel has gone.
All the doubt I feel has gone.
All the bad things I feel toward you has gone.

But when you left again.
I feel the sadness that eats me.
I feel the doubt that makes me crazy
I feel that you dont really care.

Seeing you makes me confused more.
Seeing you makes me fool.
Seeing you makes me numb.
Seeing you really distract me.
Seeing you makes me want to be with you again.

Even though you don't need me anymore.
I am nothing anymore to you.

You are my hidden desire.
Your the one I want.
Not the particular body parts of your body.
I want the whole you.

I realize now that if Im not the one will communicate you.
You will not going to communicate me.
Its hurt the attachment I have for you.
I need to overcome it.
I need to accept that you really have impact in my life.
I need to accept that there will be a person will make you realize what you really want.
I need to accept that I need to be open with possibilities.
I need to accept that Im not really important to you.
I need to accept that your not really mine and Im not into you.
I need to accept that you just make me experience to love and to get hurt.
I need to accept that you just teach me to see the real me when Im inlove.
I still need to thank you.
And I thank you for all in all.

I told you what I feel.
You ask me why I being like that.
You gave me reason to feel it.
But you just see how bad I am.
You cant accept I am not perfect.
I have feelings.
I open it to you but you refuse me.
Its break my heart.
You cant accept the way I am.
I told you in the first place that I am selfish and bad.
I thought you will understand me.
I just need your explanation and your assurances
Is that hard to do?
I just need your time and attention.
I cant figure out how busy you are.
Why I been stock with the feeling of hurt.
I can smile but when no one sees I cry.
I feel so down that make me cry a lot.
Please stop confusing your feeling to me.
Please say  if you dont love me anymore.

I do understand now, I should step aside away from you.
Im just new to you.
You make me feel so insecure about myself.
Im not important specially to you.
Your so bad.
Your so cold, colder than me.
Stiffer than me.
I know now that you can tolerate and neglect me.
I am sorry for me.