i

if deferred
another word
but
or

absurd
tut
can
am

i
mother
sky
purred

such glory
birth
or dying
see

hear
an infinity
in
the bird

song
(hit-****)
in the
agave..

ii

fallen tree
ah me
on a dime
everything

everyone
must
(secret-
tusk)

love ridden
unbidden
thus
be..

iii

i say none
asked
first
or last

spaced
´tween
the branches
nothing

laced
won or lost
your hand
after

all these years
still precious
teeth gone
hair

gone
what now
if then
deferred..

i feel a lot younger now
then when i did i was ten
i try to think of one reason
but can´t think..

2-perhaps that is it..
all my intuition gone..
that ancient reason..
i have developed so..

into a modern man..
lifted my pagan heart
for a logical land..
3-off to a complete start

4
til death do us part-
the circle is completed..
little by little
apart..

away and once
back and forward
but always the same
the key to the prison

shines in my mind
old young
once a man
twice a child..

if i could
cast some
cold light
which would
burn a hole
deep in your
heart from
afar off star
leaden a glide..
then i
look out my
eye grin out
and what did
everything there
is here doubt
fear and blight
weasel dome
all known-
that red lid
peeled off
until less
scars and more
the hollow
cries mercy less
in your down
tender and like
a cheese grater
i stare out as
no more endures
and shiver jelly
grey and dead
surround..
(yes..i have a
raison d´etre..)

i)

if i die today
i would consider
myself fortunate
to have lived
thus long..

that is to say,
the intro wired
to a fugue state
sad and loved
a lost song..

till twenty
unnamed
so waited
nearly died
nearly gone

many ways..
many..
(you know?!
like you
who knows

not me..)
then,
suddenly
i was there!
but where?
one..

ii


two
three
four
not much of a future
done-

what to do?
i see
or saw
tenses
tense
oh,tense-

shoulder
ear
here
and then
now
ow!

how to be
who knows
not i*
if i die to today
upon my stone-

say-
a question
perhaps some unheard
and star distant
exclamation-

some thing..
well i died
and lived
all the same
pray-

perhaps,
i was lucky
or as angels
maybe
i made my own
who knows?!

if life was an etch-a-sketch*
but it is not,
the past may not,
be erased with a flick of

a supple wrist-
no,the thin grey line is
unmistakable and
indelible

on us and we can fiddle
with circles
peer into cracks
smash it against a

post..
(play another game)
to no avail
let others take the
blame..

no,no..
score a goal
look to the moon
no..

(write a poem..etc..)

i

if mental illness
become glamorous
(when glamour
is fear)
could see here
or little green
men peering in
our collective *
in the mirror or
on a flying star..


or there
which statistically
certainly are
in doubtful reflection
alien sadness
fat or thin
their self
nothings to
**** probings
regardless colour
!

i


If my mind
no longer mine
said oh fine
fin-

a stop sign-
the end signed
all good kin
in

love find..
i say fi(e)!
shark fins
circling

what´s been
or even
threaten
threatening

threats
threat
what has gone..
****-going

hex
circling
no longer you
ex

ii

x
no was
some
errant
fingers

in distant
pies
now
they

know
no?
you...

is
how
irrelevant-
try again!

why
lol
question
s

if they
can do this
what else..
we shall see...

i)


i found a snow flake
(a lesson for us all
original if full
of holes..)

she told of love
fell from above
iridescent dove
(with the huff..)

what to make
turning blood
if it would
one day s
it stood

mighty but
lost
cold we flossed
no place to
go..

ii

my name is lily
she said
(and tossed an unanointed
point through
my heart)

first we must die
to live
(-roll me a spliff
you give and i
take-easy..)

we are ancient and
freed
our seed
our eternal way
some ways
lay..

iii)

taste this stuff
it dance on the
tongue
in color ripe
always young

alright enough
you have enough
i have
love
to give..

lily,you say..?
i found a snow flake
it was ***** and
forgotten
i have wisdom
you have light..

with her might
she twisted and followed
in-dum-dum
a light..!
a barb dripped

stay there..
now we stay
i watched across
the floor
so far away
fire..

she returns and
like an angel
makes her offering
a sacrifice
and simple

smiles
he gave me his lighter
smoke like
while
time..

iv)

lily
what to say
say nothing
look here
do you want some
well,it is mine
let us not forget
the concept of
possession
or would you
thankyou
i am old school
and here we render unto
caesar..


v)

you may have the
wind in the trees
and beauty
a lot of wood
and seeds, mostly
(yeah,well this is
1979..what can you do?)
i prefer hash
so do i..
so what we live
we die
i can live free!
you read hesse?
i prefer the russians
is nt the waiter
odd
yes,he is-
his children
are beautiful
is there work
i don´t want to work
i had some good jobs
i had bad-digging holes
carrying bricks
you are mad...you want
to hear a joke..



we stayed in white
boxes
the showers were live
wired
the landlady was
kind
fish and soup
wheelbarrows and
pelican
our landlord enjoyed
our parties
he shook all our
hands
we had to lock the
door in the end
his vegetable garden
we were proud!
the surf was the last
noise..soon we were
gone and on the beach
when the tourists came
the english in their underpants
we were on our toes..


vi

he keeps putting his
tongue at me
it´s the cold
is that his wife
yes,did you eat
did you eat
we will go to the
soup kitchen
sounds delightful
and down copious
cheap claret
for a panacea
what is that
is a goat tethered
upside down
the cuisine is
sin
and gold pouring..
ah,to be young..

vi

in the cinema
and off to the disco
in the olive groves
a white house

in the sun
in the evening
with beer and
coffee and cognac..

if revered
there may be
tears-

yesterday
there were three
blackbird

in the agave
they looked at me
without  

rancor
question
or regret

quite
quiet
quit it

i thought
sure
persistent

an inordinate
pause
they ordained

with their
glance
i said

i am
the head
of a church

and considered
wallace stevens*
returned

to finish
the washing up
uh..

if reversed
(fie-a mild
blasphemy..)

or you
and i
we go

back!
you and
i

happy or
sad
(mostly)

jesus,
if
not then

for then
lost
or best

dead-
much said
thus

wink to
a blind
man

a moment
in
the past

dude
gravitas
gratitude

a rainbow
of then
now

and if-
harmony
a kiss

a hand
if
reversed

would be
the same
so..

if reversed
the devil tell
the truth
in echo´s

well..
time though
we can be sure
here-

is our knell
straight
live
and direct..

if reversed-
love is
us

-this occur
-that obscure
obvious!

same bus
moon verse
soon her

soon me
all together!
tree

song bird
thrush?
lost purse

reimburse
we..
telephone

number
no need
insisted

bus conductor
cupid´s
while

big smile
nice eyes
her stop

go..
end..
began...!

if we have a collection for the musician
every one to benefit give a little
perhaps some more from businessmen
there will be an interest every day..

in the air and around the water
through the green and in the blue
toward the later morning and
around about evening too!

many people might come too
spending money and say
who is that country boy?
classical and improvised blues..

why not..every body has a right to
make a living for themselves
and really if there is anything
that might save this civilization

it might be generosity..

if you can find a purpose
(in this world)
then indeed,
you are a fortunate
porpoise-
cause a letter
either way,
is the difference
between heaven
and hell..

if you could see you(me)
i´d see nothing new
mayhap a crack or two
with a **** come through..
that would be all..
the distant call
of an owl..
a thin haul..
wait i can!
a bird with
in sight
of land..
the forest
of love!
song as sweet
from pan..

i gave you the color blue,
i asked what is it for?
i said, start anew
ok..

i gave to you,
the color blue,
(i always felt
propriety restricted..)

i gave you the color blue-
over the rainbow
and overrated,
you..

i gave you the color blue,
and i will take it to
my grave,
i give

to you,
my loyalty and
love,
until then accrued..

i had a purple
but was crumpled
ah well not
to dwell
some love
just disolved not
all lost..

a lesson learned?
faith burned?or
future´s earned
(delicate fern..)

i had a thought
or memory
to be more exact
a wild pact

i thought that
is crap
but it persist
a mad hat

stood to the
devil´s laugh
win or loose
to late

i said what
don´t forget
for the very
planet..!

i had a wish
but better than
nothing..
i had a dream
a long kiss..
cut my heart in

two
too
to
t

me
you
i woke
to everything..

i have a
pigeon´s skull
full

of love
delicate and
hard

to define
from hell
or

from above
gentle
or peaceful..

i have a
pigeons skull
like our love
peaceful

delicate
sometimes hard
like hell
sometimes

wonder
or hate
below
or above..

i have a
pigeons
skull
so delicate
and full

of wonder..
like our love
hard to
define
from above?!

i have a little man
he collects money
in a slot at the back
of his cranium..

made of caste iron
his smile red says
with sad blue eyes
put a penny in

and one day a fortune
by my murdering
wiles
will be yours..

meanwhile i will
prop up this dusty
old mirror
with cloven hoofs

dig land fill
and gleefully
stare as everything
else falls away..

ii


i have bewitched her..exclamation
but for the better
now a pur
echo´ s there

now relief´ s astir
once lost for
before
here

quiet
too quiet
and quieter
ah..

a great sigh
bare
stretch love
just a last breath

just
an eye
close
..

i


i haver never ate a fast food burger
i have never met a famous movie star
i have never driven a fast car
i have never marched off to war..

i have never set out to mar
i have never been to mars
i have never eaten a mars..
that´s not true i have eaten a mars..

was the first couple of verses,lily,
it went on and on far and far..
and i have lost all three versions
pity,i like one or two lines..

though it could appear pointless
ramblings..i enjoyed writing..
and thought the sad and absurd
gave the love and pain a touching

touch..

ii

lily says..
she has given up on
the rats..
she arched it
across the way
in disgust..
how would we
expect them to
behave if they
gained the world..
again,which surely
they will..she,
is away at the wine..
but the assault on the
commuter train has
proved too much..i will
not allow these images
in my mind..if we consider
our treatment of rats..
they are similar to us somehow
so we experiment on them..
i can´t see them very forgiving..
in herberts book they are not..
but if one great mad moment
by proximity alone
and the ensuing terror..
but anyway what´s the hurry
says lily..we´ll **** ourselves
long before..


iii


tommy our very striking
cat
made a bid for my seat
i forgive him much..

he has a bad case of piles
bless!
what a carry on..
he hated the box..

but lay dormant
when the vet probed
his ****..
he was glad to be home..

and now we have some
ointment..
i just can´t remind her..
tommy will have to suffer..

we are both pretending
to forget..he´s in foul temper
but he can not have my chair..
a man´s chair is..a man´s chair..

i have written over 2000
poems that mean nothing-
just so much sand
in the *** hole of existing..

what about excitement..
-a ball passing between two
sticks..
no none..

i lurk around supermarkets..
i read old books..
i get ****** and listen to old dub
tracks..(at the week-end)

still, how beautiful the day long
and majestic!
how sweet the little song birds
entreaty-

hear me
!
see the brightest way!
kiss this wild dome!
(or write a poem...)

i hold within
a little feline
crying
for love

she rubs
away
from above
(by and by)

i ask what
is required?
invariably
the answer

is nothing
or
we will see
with a darkest

purr..i say i
will or
why
a saucer

of circle
riddle me this-
i don´t know
but no-one does..!

ii)

from the golf courses
and from the bars
came the alderman!

assembling in dismay
and confusion-
comparing tans!

order!ORDER!!
-a birdy by god-!
-a state of emergency

has been declared
due to an invasion of
vermin-

-thought it was
the gin-
the right honourable

lord mayor of tower
Hamelin
rose

what is proposed?
scratching his nose
no-one knows..

silence grows..
(like a
dandelion)

they may
just go
you know-

(boredom)
suggested
the member

for lower
east saxony
or-

uproar!
howdy do?!
not a clue

or-at the
window
look!

their
listening!
a big

specimen
rattus noregicus-
understands!

we must prevent panic
all are running
when all fails

we´ll ask the
population..!
democracy

will save the day
lord
squeak..so..

so word is out
hear the criers
shout!

hear ye!
hear ye!
500 duccats!

to he
who can
rid hamelyn

of it´s
infestation-
500 duccats!

(no more rats..!)
hear ye!!?
that´s me!

thought the pied
piper
in passing

on an errand
pete to his friends
what a princely

sum
said he to his
mum

i´m away to
hamelyn
lickety split!

but i shall return
rich!?
she packed

his sandwiches
while he dressed-
black hat

white spats
a salt and pepper
suit

a magical flute!
Jess his newt
on his shoulder

water..
with out
a doubt..

off to hamelyn
for fame
and fortune..

ii


lily is humpy
it´ s how you
get up
love

conquerors
all
still i rise..(maya angelou)
was it why

the blue sky
lily´ s sigh
is as humble
as a button..

i

i knew the moon too well
i would not like to dwell
there..

i don´t really understand
why man
needed to go

there seems to me
had we spent the money
wisely

here instead
say,on pollution..
then we might be happy

here..
but i´m sure
there is a lot

i don´t know


ii