some remain blocked
for years
they try everything
(fear lies at the very
rooty-toot..)
nothing to loose
-it has all been left behind
doubt ***** like starving
succubi-money,
but they have
achieved..

some push on through
mediocre and even las vegas
dessert islands
and a couch-
zen to love even..
but the relieved-

death on the horizon
was it all a dream?
within the green
room
the great line
reaches out beseeching..

something is amiss
the silence of a
fish
a hushed drum
solo
in my mind o!

in elastic tension
of my head
quiet
something wrong
will  occur
bing-****!

ah no!
what is that
silent
raged forward
is it dying
is it stone
is it
my brain-

my hand
it is god
like light
take that!
(tiny
pain
quietude..)

hey dude
hows that
acid
i dunno
i just dropped
it
about
around..yeah..

some things are irreversible
(like underwear)
there is one way

and what is done is done..
ah,if it were so simple
live for the day!


o we don´t care
what of the future
and babble-babble..

i

sometimes it is hard to do
the right thing
(everything is wrong)-

too much-not enough
hate and love
who cares

sins of inclussion
and omission
almost the same

purity
obscurity
obtuse

specific-
say what you mean
mean what you say-

silent why
too quiet
too loud

shrinking violet
too proud
prone

get up
hate or love
too fat

too thin
we like you
we don´t like you

do this
no,do this
no-do that

not that..
god!
devil!

mad!
too good
too bad..


ii

yes,she says, i lived
by denial-like
beauty

when i was young
i would breakfast by
the nile

it was beautiful
i was very ill-
hepititis

yellow as their beautiful
lemons
amid the greens

felucaas and croissant
i smoked strong hash
and stayed awake

through the night
the athan,so beautiful
i would not sleep..

sometimes an opening
is only recognisable
years later
when destitution
and loss enable
we go..oh yeah..
times and time
pass us all
say i loved her..

sometimes i poach
or encroach-

love is a brooch
a pin stoat on
a burning coat-
a forgotten foot
note of
a suicidal load
hard to hold
on so much
too hard to
carry on too
two to one
just none
love gone
never to return
again and again..

some wild cat is oz
over an effing rainbow
or what

a black bauble
voice of an angel
never bought

soul that was
ancient so
devil sought..

suicide?
it is my body
and my mind

-they would quite
happily
send me away

to die
in some pointless
war

so why should i
bother
love sister/brother..

superstition fission
(costs a billion)
per se-

instinct, a rinky-****,
a line so drawn
sand in the ****-

makes you think-
make me think-
but not too much..


ii

what does that mean
lily
the fantasy of logic..

the difference 'tween
fancied genre
fashion..

iii

what we are told
what we believe
what we feel
what we are sold..

new is old
and so forth
the world is flat
and that is that..

iv

i detect  discontent-
(they have asked her to open
a supermarket..)

take some acid-
moon in june-
you will be fine..

read a poem..
some poetry-
it will be fun

you see
i need the money
we need the money..

take time to make time
time to make time take
to time time take make
make to take time time
time time time time

time-repeated as a
child
hung from a
mountain
wild sea..

somewhere in the
lonely middle
the eternal
doldrums
within earshot
of fall
a pack horse
to the stars..

i)

that is a supermarket
where we gather our sustenace
-a magical emporium of mirrors and
music-surveillance..

for we have many laws
both legal and moral-
thou shalt not steal!
bleep?

ii)

our technology is theft
and will bring an end
and there are those who say
about time-

we shall return to fire
we have paid our debt
lord..
that, is a fast food outlet..

iii)

but there are those who enjoy
the convenience
and running after wildebeest
not for them-

that building is the town hall
choices and democracy
peas or beans
to you and me-bleep..

iv

that´s a pub and there is
a hospital
there, the police station
a symbiotic call-

alcohol....!bleep?
one cheap narcotic readily
available and socially
acceptable-

causing mild euphoria
to depression and sometimes
violent behaviour-addiction
common place..

v

bleep!
frightening?
where-as marijuana
giving peace and well-being

possessing health-benefits
mental and physical is hunted
down like double parking on a
bank-holiday..bleep?

why?
mostly tax reasons.
bleep-tax..
ignorance-

vi

we would burn old ladies
that distribute herbs
bleep-words-power and money
and ***..bleep?

-the way we procreate
each culture has it´s take-
we were taught that the
children of god, adam and eve

in the garden of earthly delight
were innocent but not to eat of the
forbidden fruit-(reputably an apple
but subsequent speculation cast doubt-

more likely a fig or cherry moyet
in keeping with the climate)
but a serpent-(vilified ever since-)
tempted her- eve took a bite-(being a woman

when told not to do something..)
(and vilified ever since-)
and so they were cast out-
into this world of sin..

bleep?we were children-
(but the apples reputation
remains intact-)
we turned out odd..bleep..


each culture has it´s belief and
art-that is the museum-
they sell the best chips in town, there-
i had a war once over vinegar

bleep?no,you would n´t believe
it.. we will fight over anything..
which end of an egg to open
football or music..

vii

bleep?-why-
mostly bored-bleep?
-wearied by dulness or
sameness-

our system demands it-
it outwardley promotes individual
spirit but we are alike-if not
then it would n´t function..

(if someone is different then they
better have good reason..)
we spurn this similarity-
duality-

cultures that are similar
often war..
but if we did n´t demand
greasy hamburgers

made from noses and spleen
where would we be?..bleep..?
so,what about personnel anarchy..?
bleep..

viii

here, we have war between
the socialist-liberal and capitalism
individual-we will fight over anything..
we are warrior..

our brains create serotonin
that crush bone and  worry
later..we shake hand and give
a little kiss and make heart shapes

and grin inanely-
but for some reason we hate each
other-don´t know why..
bllep..yes,bllep..

ix

now, that is a bank-bleep..
you have to go?
ah,you are looking
for intelligent life form-

try the moon-bleep
up their symbol of
love and darkness
diana noble hunter..

the bird´s nest
we sent off into space
some time recent or

some demented caress..
and they wrote back-
dear lily,

we have the cosmos
of munificent beauty
we have eternal bliss

like a first kiss..
more tenticles
then you can shake

a stick at-but we have
nothing like this-pride
of place over

the mantle piece-
much thanks-see
you soon..

ii

i´ll have to show them
around i suppose
she is blase

meet and greet
i hope they don´t expect
too much..(look at the high street..)

the blackbird in the agave
watching me
it´s beady eyes
say free-!

here a secret!?
all i got to
do is to find
some key

to unlock me-
he sticks his proud
tail high
two wings

fold like love
inside
and his happy sigh
goes high..!

the clowns wandered not far
the earth-centrifugal-
the people came as one
with the lion and camel-

one smelled rather foul
the other a star-
said, better in a cage then
the jungle..

ii

to understand the babble
first -quiet
he said,the great peace
in your heart..

look in the rubble
amid the white-
freedom is hell
time´s sweet blight

iii

i said thankyou lion,
the many colours..
the camel farted-
i set off for south..

reality-that *****
of a chessnut!
came back sorted-
a rainbow and sepia..

iv
back to the underground
and my guitar
i swung an axe
for a tinker

and then they left
all together
the applause and
myself bereft..

the doorbell
to hell-
in inspiration´s dell-

did you know lily
the sole of the foot
corresponds to each

major *****?
and plenty in-between..
lost in a dream she says-

ii

there is so much we
don´t know
or understand

in the amazon is a cure
for everything
and what is in our

minds-don´t say
heaven and hell-
hells doorbell..!

iii

but we have to sell
have to-
to have or to have

not-that is the crux
that is what divides
us..

i notice she
has smoke and
the space..

with out a trace
and heat..
through slit..