my memory is not
too hot
it might be

a vitamin deficiancy-
they say,eat fish!
i prefer to for get..

i)

my life has been a complete waste of
time
i have achieved nothing
i am a total failure..

ii)

my father did nt know if
i was an idiot or a
genius..
i was too idle to fall

off the couch..
he said i would get into
trouble..
(beware the ides of march..)

iii)

but despite all
i quite enjoyed it
thus far are
we not the culmination of
our days
how ever..

why everything is underlined
in blood red
(ask god ..)

go head
imbibe wine
look for truth

(soon be dead)
look for love
and sing:

we will live on!
in the way of believing
in water and stone..

go break bread!
(in the ways between
death and living..)

look around
take it in
around and around..

i)


i found a snow flake
(a lesson for us all
original if full
of holes..)

she told of love
fell from above
iridescent dove
(with the huff..)

what to make
turning blood
if it would
one day s
it stood

mighty but
lost
cold we flossed
no place to
go..

ii

my name is lily
she said
(and tossed an unanointed
point through
my heart)

first we must die
to live
(-roll me a spliff
you give and i
take-easy..)

we are ancient and
freed
our seed
our eternal way
some ways
lay..

iii)

taste this stuff
it dance on the
tongue
in color ripe
always young

alright enough
you have enough
i have
love
to give..

lily,you say..?
i found a snow flake
it was ***** and
forgotten
i have wisdom
you have light..

with her might
she twisted and followed
in-dum-dum
a light..!
a barb dripped

stay there..
now we stay
i watched across
the floor
so far away
fire..

she returns and
like an angel
makes her offering
a sacrifice
and simple

smiles
he gave me his lighter
smoke like
while
time..

iv)

lily
what to say
say nothing
look here
do you want some
well,it is mine
let us not forget
the concept of
possession
or would you
thankyou
i am old school
and here we render unto
caesar..


v)

you may have the
wind in the trees
and beauty
a lot of wood
and seeds, mostly
(yeah,well this is
1979..what can you do?)
i prefer hash
so do i..
so what we live
we die
i can live free!
you read hesse?
i prefer the russians
is nt the waiter
odd
yes,he is-
his children
are beautiful
is there work
i don´t want to work
i had some good jobs
i had bad-digging holes
carrying bricks
you are mad...you want
to hear a joke..



we stayed in white
boxes
the showers were live
wired
the landlady was
kind
fish and soup
wheelbarrows and
pelican
our landlord enjoyed
our parties
he shook all our
hands
we had to lock the
door in the end
his vegetable garden
we were proud!
the surf was the last
noise..soon we were
gone and on the beach
when the tourists came
the english in their underpants
we were on our toes..


vi

he keeps putting his
tongue at me
it´s the cold
is that his wife
yes,did you eat
did you eat
we will go to the
soup kitchen
sounds delightful
and down copious
cheap claret
for a panacea
what is that
is a goat tethered
upside down
the cuisine is
sin
and gold pouring..
ah,to be young..

vi

in the cinema
and off to the disco
in the olive groves
a white house

in the sun
in the evening
with beer and
coffee and cognac..

i had a purple
but was crumpled
ah well not
to dwell
some love
just disolved not
all lost..

a lesson learned?
faith burned?or
future´s earned
(delicate fern..)

what is worth a cost
(when the price is nowt)
if the penny so pretty
buys out-

if we fall and lost
to shamble about
no longer we
but cheap tout-

who then is boss?!
is there doubt!?
when love is free
and how..

there are so many
ways to be
(more then i

can say)
more then stars
in the sky-

different hearts!
pulsing away!
why..

there are so many
versions of reality!
but not to worry-

you know your´n
i know mine
fine-

how´s the weather?
hither and thither o
long the tether..!

sometimes an opening
may come and then
sometimes it won´t-

yesterday a rare dawn
cold inspiration
an endless font

todays  blank
sunset honed down
to can´t

think and who
cares anyhow
on the whole

i´d rather be a
cow
or a whale

than a poet..