I remember cold nights
Crazy fights
Deep thoughts
Scary moments
I remember speaking to deaf ears
Expressing my deepest fears
Shading these cold tears
Just to be told I wasn’t enough
I was just a moment
I was just someone to occupy your space
Something to embrace your presence
It’s evident that now that you are writing a new chapter, my name won’t be mentioned
But please remember to give me credit for at least taking your class on love
Even though I failed it
I learned a lot from it
I grew from it
If I was to take it again I.....

Comfort Me
Hold me, touch me
Restore me, heal me
Fill me to feel me
Don’t leave me feeling empty
Alone and lonely
Comfort me in the storm
Keep me warm
Hold me like the womb I came in from
Comfort me today
so I don’t seek comfort in what pleases the eyes
Let me get lost In your heart
Glue my emotions to yours
And pray that they never get torn apart
Comfort my soul
for it knows nothing but the feeling of your love

I saw fear in you as he hugged you
You begged him not to let you go
Holding him closer so he could touch your soul
He smiled and wished you well
Not knowing that he was the cause
of your tears in the well

Drowning in emotions you were
But you painted a smile so good
He thought you were doing well

What he didn’t know
was that he was the one who belt the well
Which your tears occupy

Crossing roads with no stop signs
Even danger fears me
Love scares me
Risks bore me
Love confessed to be my enemy
For many years it fought me
Till it won me and now it abuses every part of me
I gave it hope but it’s still wants more from me
With every piece of my being it forces me to be vulnerable, show emotions that are relatable
So now every time I say “I love you” I take risks not knowing if that will be the first or last time I say that to you
It was risks that got me this far
It will be risks that will expose my hearts scars

Aching hearts speak louder than healed hearts
They tell stories of being torn apart
Paint pictures of painful art
Images of struggle, hidden below empty bottles
Empty needles which entered numb veins
Just to sustain feeling sane
Love is a drug addicting
Contradicting, controlling,
laced with emotional healing,
mastered by emotional killing,
secrets of the naked soul it’s forced to start revealing
Vulnerable minds exposed
hearts beating at the speed of light
While crying in darkness
Love is a mess cleaned by emotional struggles
Painful but yet appealing
Vengeful but yet caring
Hateful but always loving
Aching hearts trust in pain
to validate their feelings

My name is _____
I’m addicted to poetry
One word changes me
I’ve been an addict for the last 20 years
When I met poetry
I was lonely
afraid to live life because it was scary
I hid in my misery and found comfort in my insecurity
I cried tears faced fears,
cuddled with nightmares, opened old scars
Then I met poetry
Words so deep it touched my soul
Peace it brought to me
In love I now fall
My past poetry helped me forget it all

Admitting my addiction
gives validation to my feelings
I seek no rehabilitation
For this addiction gives me complete satisfaction

Today I wrote a poem about a poem
In that poem
I wrote about my mind going insane
The emotions I poured on them
Leaving me numb to pain
Forcing my mind to go with no direction
Worst fear as a writer is having ideas
That won’t leave your brain
Lacking inspiration
Having feelings that can’t be shown
Mental imprisonment, given 25 to life
Suffering to live
While living to die
Ideas tide in millions of words
Only to be expressed in one emotion
Writers block is the disease I suffer from
It’s destroys my creativity
forcing me to judge me
While making me feel all alone
It’s just me and this pen
that can quickly turn to pain
Today I wrote a poem about a poem