I know it can be scary,
I know it can be grand.
We share this very thing.
Some have more than others,
some i'd say have too much,
others not enough.
It's one thing that can make or break us.
For some we go in spurts.
We all have moments of being,
bold, daring and self-assured.
Other times we're sanguine, hopeful and possitive.
no matter how we are feeling,
be sure it's from one thing.
In days of doubt we lack it most.
We feel afraid even cowardly we tend to shy away.
A little sad and meek today we seem to be unsure.
We can not know which way the day will go.
For everyone we know shares this very thing.
No matter who we are a moment can change it all.
From being self-reliant to feeling more depressed.
A simple thing can chang it all for sure.
A compliment or negative response,
a true effect they both do have,
for each and everyone.
A simple little word,
the power it does hold.
For everyone I know shares this very thing.
We learn and grow from this extraordinary feeling.
A gift we have in all.
No matter who you are,
Be bold and daring,
strong and sure of yourself today.
For everyone is beautiful no matter what one says.
Be satisfied with who you are.
The gift was given to all of us.
Be proud of what you are.
I know sometime's it's hard.
This amazing gift we have,
meant to raise you up.
Be convinced of yourself,
for you will see.
Confidence will show you things,
you may have never had.
It seems like such a little thing,
a difference it could mean.

I wish I didn't know you,
I wish we never met.
My insecurities fill me,
with poison through my veins.
My beating heart is aching,
my throat is hard and weary,
my eyes are blind and streaming,
my lips are trembling silent,
my mind a racing rage.
I wish I didn't know you,
I wish we never met.
my insecurities fill me,
with poison through my veins.
I wish I could escape you,
My fears I can not hide,
You hold a power over me.
I wish I didn't know you,
I wish we never met.
Jealousy is killing me.
Jealousy I fear, it holds a certain rage.
Jealousy fills me with it's poison,
Toxic in my veins.
I wish I didn't know you,
I wish we never met.

My rage is fiery red,
My greed as selfish orange,
My fear as noticed as yellow,
My willpower as strong as blue,
My compassion as vibrant as indigo,
& Last my favorite one,
Love as beautiful as violet,
All the colors of the rainbow,
Holds a little of everyone.
For all of us share these qualities.
who knew the good and bad,
Could mean so much to our personalities.
How beautiful are rainbows?
How beautiful are we?
A balance of the colors,
A site we are to see.

I watch the chatter of long time friends
The jealousy's blooming
It will never end
The thing that's always been there that refuses to let go
This ***** named jealousy is the only friend I know.

You where there for me.
When I was small and fragile,
you where there for me.
When I couldn't protect myself,
you where there for me.
you sheltered me with hugs,
You held me close to thee.
You stood your ground & raised your voice,
Always saving me.
You showered me with kisses.
you always looked out for me.
Protecting me through thick  and thin.
I always knew you loved me.
We grew older,
Separated where we.
I struggled to find myself.
Ashamed of me I was.
Denied myself the only one, whom accepted me.
Grandma i'm so sorry,
I wasn't  there for thee.
I loved you very  much,
Important to me you where.
I'm sorry I didn't show you,
How you meant to me.
my tears flow wild and thick,
I wasn't there for you.
The guilt I hold within,
the anger feels surreal.
My sadness is but strong.
You needed me,
I should have been for you.
I feel I betrayed you?
maybe let you down?
your loyalty you gave to me.
I'm so sorry I wasn't here for you,
The way you where for me.

Your little hands,
Your little toes,
Oh how they will grow.

Your mind seems small,
But oh how large it is.
For all the things your taking in,
The places you will go.

I hope I teach you well.
I hope  I raise you right.

Your little nose,
Your little voice,
Oh how they will grow.

My little serendipity,
My life, My love, my heart.
oh how fast you grow.

I was but a lost, broken down girl.
Never knowing how to trust another soul.
Not understanding or comprehending Love.
Longing to be held safely in the arms of another.
I knew nothing of it all.
Scared and alone, weak and torn, ashamed and confused, emotions running high.
My battered body, my ****** hands I would hide.
My mind damaged from abuse, I couldn't speak a word.
My heart has been shattered, by all too many.
The weight I carried on my shoulders.
I hid my very soul,
Ashamed of me I stood aside.
I've waited seems forever, only to be seen and heard.
My suffering I have bared alone.
In only an instant, my life would quickly change.
For he saw me and begun to set me free.
I saw him & I fell.
For my walls I could not keep,
For he begun to break them down.
He has eyes of pure serenity,
The heart of gold,
The strength of many men,
The voice of confidence,
The body of protection.
He holds the key to my very soul.
He has undressed me with open eyes.
He has embraced me with the tightest hold.
He has kissed me with the softest lips.
I am his student, he is my teacher.
In him I trust.
He has listened with an open mind.
What once of mine was shattered,
Is whole again once more.
For he has touched my beating heart with his presence.
For him I have been waiting for,
For him I do crave.
I am bare breasted, kneeling at his feet.
bound I am in ropes, bound to him I am.
My fiery passion burns for him.
A slave I am to he.
I am his submissive beauty.
My will is his orders,
I wait for his commands.
I honor him with my loyalty.
Saved me from the darkness,
He brought me to the light.
his power strong and thick running through my veins.
I will not fight,
I will not deny him.
For I am his submissive beauty.
My soul is his to keep.
I hide no more.
He is my one and only,
Always and Forever,
The one I shall obey.
He is my Dominant,
The only one I trust,
For when im bound and serving him,
My life is within in his hands.
He never takes advantage or treats me with disgust.
what many may see as wrong,
they really do not know.
I've  never been or felt so safe,
He never goes to far.
He know's that I am beautiful,
Respects my very being.
He is My Master,
& I his most Treasured Possession.