waxing streets a maze of affluence
Those spots of hidden lightlessness blockade a fear
So few can hear, shadowed an paired
The gentle raps slide close behind
A soft rustle the only hint
Breathes quicken as footsteps follow
A burst of slick fear the final taunt
Sudden claws wrap around the soft flesh
The neck bared to chilled midnight air
A shock smothered screams
Cruel fingers tear away shields of appearance
Barren and defaced,
fast harsh strokes rip through the night
****** lips whisper nothing
A rustle is all that tells of a loss
the click of steps recedes into a gathering dawn

They sit next to you on the train
The bus
The desk next to yours
you pass them everyday
They laugh with their friends
smile at jokes
who they are is hard to see
from the captain of chess
to the queen bee
From the girl who hides behind her *******
To the boy with alcohol on his breathe
No one looks
past the red eyes or *** stained sheets
No one sees whats hidden
In that perfect outfit
what lies behind that smile
hidden darkness buried in them all
from the school *****
to the stoner god
They all hide that single flaw
From the class president
To the ballet star
We see them all
The musical prodigy wasting away
To the redundant poet trying to make it through the day
No one can see the lonely

Spouting one thing
You say its all ridiculous
But i'm torn
to trust you
all of this was over
now my hearts fit to bust
why is everyone speaking this way
It feels like i am just in the way
i just lay curled up in pain
all of this
making things all the worst in so many ways

Like a splinter of dread all of these pictures fill my head
Bile rises in my throat it makes me fit to choke
i just want to fall in bed
yet my stuttering hand lifts this god forsaken pen

I have a streak of suicide
                                  Wait you like me better When i speak in lies
                                                     So i won't die
                                                                ­       I'll live my life
                               A reason to be isn't beyond me
                                                              ­  I will stay awake even as i wish to dream
                        I won't give anymore silent screams
                                                         ­                  Give me no reason to stay
                                                           I'll be here waiting for my final days to end naturally

Those two little tickets lay in the box  from a half remembered day when things werent all they could be

When you leaned over to me an said you loved how i watched the movie

Well now i sit here the smell of bleach drifting through the air

Me wishing i could tell you all thats happened with me

Like when we stayed up till three just trying to get to know me

But your gone an im misunderstood

Just another broken boy up to no good

Wrestling with my thoughts now that your off

Ill just sit here an let our old songs play remembering every single day

Falling down into a world of lovely demons
Lending my soul for the night
Crafting a sin from sweet perfume
Giving in to the rhythm of lust
Feeling all that we won't
Her name echoes in my head
As my body speaks with another's
I lend myself Trying in vain
I won't remember her wretched name
Need echoes my partners giving a desperate pace to our endeavor
Till we lay side by side my mind on another