There's this thing you know
have tried million ways
to clean
hard detergents, dry wash
home and laundromat
and other ways
tried to erase
to delete
but know not
what will work
on this stain, a mark
its so deep
inside
somewhere in my heart.

Advice please,
do you know
how marks of betrayal
can fade? ©

I know I'm forever lying
when I say
I want just one more breath,
in truth, I want
more than one,
in fact
want to go on breathing,
forever,
in total honesty
I want
countless breaths.
God,  how can I be
a liar to myself?

Delicious wind blowing,
snow melting
water falls,
drop
drop
and a crocus
rising head,
peeps
peeps;
hi
spring.

I cry and cry
don't know why,
you look at me
and ask me why
I know not my friend
what makes me cry.

I walk in pouring rain
tears streaming down
that's much better
raindrops and tears
run down together.
Now
you will not see me cry
to ask again and again
why do I cry.

Are angels pouring
oceans of water
to douse the flame
burning within?
I don't know
why I cry, why.

Time, how could it be
you befriend me,
promise me life
and then,
when my heart pauses,
too weary to go on,
you do not wait,
but flow on.

You will never look back
even if my heart stops,
I love you time
but you love me not.

This time of the year
its a different waiting.

When will tulips bloom,
and daffodils too
and the grasses will be green?
So that when you come,
your bare feet
will walk beside mine,
while we feel the cool blades
tickle our feet
we'll be lost for words
and lie down,
waiting for the spring breeze
wrapped in each others arms.

A different waiting indeed.

Life might have been easier
if childhood and youth
had accepted the truth;
things are imperfect
life is not permanent,
and so not spent time
on saying or writing
over and over
" Love is forever".

Now time moves on
and love dies
incomplete forms
while hopes bow to
countless deaths.