Shiloh

Shiloh May 2014

Thick, hot carelessness
The air ripped from my chest
Sticky with disappointment
This is only for the best
As you gracefully gloss over
My lingering words which only ever
Try to hold such meaning
Seemingly to myself
This ongoing drought
Void of all emotion
I have little doubt
Of comprehending notions
With heart in hand I walk away
Painfully forcing every step
I don't look back because I know
This is only for the best.

One of my favorite poems that I've written and it just came to me within five minutes.

Shiloh May 2014

Secretive.

All these pieces making up who I am
winding up like a clock that ticks
fighting for the longest time
to keep everything inside
not sure what to make of it
I wish I could just...

Shiloh Apr 2014

Stolen.

I wish I didn't know you
but it hurts too much when I don't
forever lost in this paradox
you keep slipping and making me watch
because I could never help you
you are too far gone

circling the same questions in my mind
not being able to answer just how we got here
thinking about you makes me sick
especially knowing how much time I have spent
waiting, understanding, giving you chances
it should have killed me

I may have lost all reasoning as to why I exist.

Shiloh Apr 2014

Better.

catch the earth
it has lost its breath
cast your net
wide with subjugation
but you will never capture
what you think you know
but fail to understand.

Shiloh Apr 2014

Happy Dappy Joy.

There is a certain tragic beauty
to what I am able to create when my soul
craves the sadness and the madness
that has never been a stranger

But to that hidden side of the coin
the words come out stagnantly static
I write until my fingers bleed it seems
the end result being something for which I am content

Whenever I find my mind
seeking out everything that makes me smile
I dance around for what seems like forever
and all I wish to do is write things I'm experiencing

It may come out vanilla but the words
they flow like water, the inspiration is endless
when all I am is free to achieve
what I have meant to be

I have had my share of pain
and without it I would not be the same
so I thank the forces everyday
but welcome the good with open arms...

for the first time in my life.

Shiloh Apr 2014

Forget Me Nots.

I can no longer hide
the desire you inspire
the symphony of epiphanies
the lullabies of butterflies...

even though my life before was tragic
every little thing you do is magic
my feet can hardly touch the ground
to cheesy rhymes and 80's lyrics it seems I am bound

because of you I am focusing on the brighter side
no longer holding onto all the moments I've cried
over all that is forever damaged and lost
but I intend to hold onto you at any cost.

cheese.

Shiloh Apr 2014

Tough.

breathe in
breathe out
others find the mundane in routine
I discover the freedom
the hidden frequencies
connecting my downward spiral
to the teeth that grind
feeling stupid as I shake my head
if only I had listened
but you should know
you can never be told
lessons can only be learned by experience
confined by the walls I created
when in reality my existence is limitless
I cannot contain my joy
so pure and light
smiles sneaking onto the corners of my lips
as if this happiness
were a secret, sometimes kept from myself
I now cherish
Everything
I
Am.

static.