There is no turning back now that I have woken up
Destination in sight and it is only a matter of discipline
To keep me seat belted for a a ride on my spaceship
Meditation is my discipline that keeps me steady

Breathing with awareness and observing self
Mindful in every breath and every thought
Intention is honed in with precision
As a practitioner who plays to hit the bull's eye

By hitting the eye one may enter
Into the vastness that is freeing and awe inspiring
Where there is no room for boredom
Nor is there lack for you create as you may please

I chose to love and be loved
I chose to forgive and be forgiven
I chose to be wise and be intuited
I chose the best version of myself

Awareness of choices may help release all fear
Awareness of  thoughts may help release anxiety
Awareness of actions may help release boredom
Awareness of movements may help release illness
Awareness of breath may help release illusions

When fear, anxiety, boredom, illness and illusions
Make space for the expansion at the heart space
There may enter grief, forgiveness and compassion
All expressions of divine love
To love is to live
To live is to love

Looking within to find answers to that which is manifested around
Today is the day I chose to become someone else
By shedding the layer of illusion I created around me
Why have I been in the current of illusions passed on to me
By those who didn't have a clue as to who they truly were

Generations of illusory living caused us to be 'walking dead'
Now is the time to change from walking dead to being alive
Now is the time to feeling alive in every cell
With an intention to change I practice awareness

I must be in the moment to catch a thought that created the old me
I give myself permission to let go of thoughts that don't serve me
I give myself permission to converse with the divine within
I allow myself to be wiser from staying connected to the Source

I go out only to give for I have plenty to give
I am abundant and am flowing freely
Into the valleys flow the rivers that spring forth from me
May they grace the valleys with fruits for all
May beauty, honor, peace, light, and joy  surround me always.

When I sit in silence with an intention
to touch my heart with love
I feel the heart pounding and welling up
within me creating space that is so vast

In the process, i come to this place of joyful creation
that which is created is nectar of love
it penetrates into my being so deep
connecting me to all that is, was and will be

this is the creation that i love the most
this i cannot find outside of me
this only i can create when i am in Him
thus must i sit with Him often

So that i will not be tempted by the food
of lesser value outside of me
But rather I will be the giver of this food
whose fulfillment it is to satisfy the hungry

Endless are the desires
They move like pendulum
From left to right to left

Until the time stops
the needle keeps moving
From positive to negative and back and forth
when the desire takes a vacation
the time stops at a perfect
balance of peace

catch this peace and be in it
for here are the pieces of wisdom
the nuggets of wisdom
that lets you in on the secrets
of all that there is

so that you can create
-manifest that which is needed at the moment
transform it  when you no longer need it
To wisdom of a heightened level and intensity.

Passed were the Nine decades
And four more years later
Numerous memories woven together
Mother lays on her bed

How much our lives have changed
And yet you, my mom, are my love
in wakefulness and in dreams
Frailty gives away  moans
Though you wished it not
A child in old age to your adult child
Your stubbornness makes me impatient at times
A child so bashful at scoldings
Feeding meals, washing her, kissing her to sleep
While lovingly hugging her,
I lay beside her and am thankful
For this chance that she gave me
To know her as the vulnerable child
Her inner child now exposed
Nothing else she would want than this comforting presence
You, my beloved mother, suckled me in my infancy
Washed me cupping water from a bucket
braided my hair and applied kajol in eyes
While I did not even understand the love you had for me
Unconditional was your love for me
While I lay beside you
I am comforted to be your comfort
For the time being

When it hits you
You are awakened
From your inertia
Into the Conflict of variance

Scornful words travel fast
Along fury's roller coaster