The stillness in my mind
it's not a comfort.
It's
so empty.
Nothing is there.
Where are my thoughts?

I look close,
still nothing.
It's gone, all gone.
So black in a place where pictures and words should be.

I feel so lost.
No where to go,
nothing to say.
Communication is gone.
I am alone in this darkness.

Am I alone?
The only one,
with a mind that's blank?
Please
answer me.......

During your darkest of times,
Ive only got one piece of advice,
Write write write.
for the paper will always listen,
and the pen will always tell,
For You'll never need an audience,
If u love yourself well.

I am afraid.
I know the odds are against me.
I have doubts. I have so many doubts.
But I offer you my bare wrists.
I offer you my whole heart.
I offer you my body
And my mind.
I believe that to receive what you wish for more than anything in the world
You have to be willing to risk everything you have.
So here, I risk it.
I lay on the table the darkest days of my life
And the possibility that they will happen all over again.
I surrender my pride, and my logic, and my suspicion.
I hold nothing. I present it all.
I strip myself of the armor I use to fend off feeling.
Because the bottom line is that faith
Is the biggest risk you can take.
I am full of thoughts whirring like gears in a motor,
Full of doubt like ice water,
But faith is not about being sure.
Faith is about knowing that everything could crash down
And deciding that there is something you need to love
More than you need to be ready for that fall.
This is my decision. This is my show of faith.
I offer my bare wrists to this world
And if it demands a blood sacrifice,
I will be unsurprised.
But if there is even the smallest chance
That someday I will hold you in my arms
It is worth the risk.
It is worth every risk.