damaged goods

Jul 2016

Sophia Chang

girls always dreamt of their prince charming in their fairy tales
that they would be the knight in shining armour ready to save the day
that they would be the ones to fight off the evil villain
the villain that says bad things to make all hate them

but how can we girls identify which is which
if the villain is the one that says all the right things?

{19.07.16}

#fairytales #princecharming #villains

damaged goods Jul 2016

This Mask of Mine

Hey there, I'm feeling just fine
I am loving today just like always
Hey there, everything is good with me
Cant think of anything to complain about

Inside i cry and try to pry my tracks out of my head
I cant keep it up, cant keep trying to hide dread
My tank is on "E", my worst enemy is me
Put the face back on, don't let it crack or they'll see

Good Morning! I woke up so life is good!
I have so many good things to be thankful for!
Thank you for asking!
Its all......good, no worries!

**** did i slip and crack the mask?
Please, please, don't let them ask.
This is bad I hope they didn't see.
Oh God, I wish someone would see me.

No i'm okay, why wouldn't I be?
Of course I'm fine, there's no reason to be anything else.
No, there's really nothing wrong.
It's all good.

Should I take off the face and be real in it's place?
What if they see and run away like it's a race?
But what if they see it and stay and be great?
Don't know which is worse, now sadness is hate.

***** it, I'm going to patch the mask
turn them away when they ask
drown my pains in this bittersweet flask

losing them is not a chance I could take
they all know the false me, the fake
locked up, stocked up masked patched and wont break.

**Someone please take it off!

damaged goods Jul 2016

Relief

I finally had a night in which my dreams were all my own
for weeks i've had a face in them, subconsciously I was shown
i hoped and hoped that one day soon i'd wash the fear away
but deep deep down my mind wouldn't let the memory fade
so instead i dreaded laying my head to rest my weary eyes
for all the good the memory had was tainted with the lies
but now i guess I've dealt with it and now I'm going to shine
because today i woke up happy and free my dreams are finally mine
it's possible that the lingering idea of what it could have been
is what i held on to because in the end i wanted a friend
but friends don't have malevolence hidden behind a sweet disguise
so now I'm wise to despise the lies and smile when the hope dies
that being good to people that aren't can set the standard high
to set a good example for them to be better or even just to try
I finally had a night in which my dreams were all my own
thank you for the pain you've caused, because of it I've grown
Stronger now i pity you
you can change, or die alone.

damaged goods Jul 2016

For My Best Friend

Over a decade you've been there
through happiness, chaos and despair
you i lean on when things go wrong
you push me always to be strong
without that bond i'd be a bigger mess
without that strength i'd never rest
you've been my hold in this crazy life
good and bad aside, you are my wife
as time marches on and we all change
our lives evolve as we do, it's all rearranged
for the rest of the world im almost always hiding
put myself in a dark room with no sliver of lighting
but for you ive brought a torch to see
though i try to blow it out constantly
even then when we sit with no light together
you're hand in mine, a solid tether
a form from shadows comes in to vision
as time goes on im seen with more precision
while i may feel cold, broken and alone
you speak straight to my heart in a calming tone
and i know that you've seen me for who i could be
were the lights turned on, doors unlocked and free
it's because of this thing that you always do
that i will never give up on the bond i have with you
i will always hope that you and i make it
and less and less will i hide myself or fake it
for the years you've given me that i haven't earned
i will become better and give you the same in return
regardless of how it ends im happy to say
because i woke up besides you, it's a wonderful day.

damaged goods Jul 2016

I Would Rather

i wake up with thoughts that are one track and on repeat
i'm like a lost puppy with no owner, starving in the heat
i stand up here so very high from the ground
just dying to see you when i look around
but you will never be there when i open my eyes
i will never find you on this earth before it dies
i'm am as lost as any man who ventured past the known
i've fallen off the end of earth with no maps i could be shown
most people say its better to have loved and lost, right
i'd prefer to be blind from birth than to miss the sight of light.
to never hear the beauty of piano, ringing soft and true
the brilliance in your first borns touch, beginning life brand new
i'd rather have went a million years in silence, no pleasure felt for me
than to go one more second, not having US be what we should be.