Unknown Existence

The fear of the unknown has settled down on me
My mind and soul both aching
Reaching out to find peace and contentment
As I looked back, the memories scattered

Messes, failures, and joys come back to life
Questioning the existence, I have in this shattered world
I can feel the numbness that scared the hell out of me
Lingering into the darkness that surrounds beneath

Stepping into the unknown is inevitable
Tormented in the pitiful eyes of the lost souls
Today, as we gather in this holy place
I lift my strength and continue to chase the game

On the darkness wraps the cold sound of the night
As I slept while hearing your breathing echoes so tight
Dreaming last night that I’m out and paralyzed
Shouting your name like am scolding my soul inside
A promise kept by waking up to light
Remembering the love, we shout for our lives.

By Tosh A.

Reaching for the stars that blink on top of my head
Going crazy while chasing sleep runs fast dead
My body lays on an empty, bared bed
This guy makes me silly, which I can’t forget.
 
Walking in the street, morning of half past ten
Busy wondering, when another body slammed into me
My whole world goes gray as his hands picked mine
How can I forget those surprising time?
 
Days, weeks, and months had passed
Those memories keep on coming back
One knock and I couldn’t move anymore
Here you are, eyeing me once more.

You left me hanging on the road years ago
whispered goodbye and never returned home
My heart crumbled into pieces as I go along
crying in tears like there is no tomorrow

Never thought that this nightmare won’t end
as the pain floats and no one can mend
Emptiness lies beneath my hollowed soul
until a soft knock touched my door

There you are, standing pale and tall
waiting for my voice who speaks nothing at all
You grab my hand and say “Sorry, Marvy…
Can I come home with you, baby?”

As a kid, I daydreamed of my own childish thing,
like meeting my very own prince charming
Clothed like a pro, riding a horse, and
who will treat me like a real earthly queen

Back when the flower bloomed in May,
ugly duckling referred as my middle name
Then I beseeched and kept my distant
to the faceless man, I cannot have in an instant

Days, months, and years had passed
searching for true love has come to last
when our eyes met once again
I shiver and let fate control what remains.

Thunder strikes multiple pains in my heart
as I slammed my body on the edge of the ground
recalling faces strangely runs in my head
leaving marks of hatred and living dead

Good forces crashing waves and fragments
broken in pieces while dying in wretchedness
fear of the unknown holds my sanity in vain
crying makes it easier to numb the pain

Cruel mouths forced to silenced the ache
like unwanted souls embraced the game
feeling sick and unsure of anything
closes my eyes so harmony flows in

In the midst of the deep blue sea,
someone special became part of me
pondering how we met months ago
while I am still confused and won’t let go.
 
Your spirit lifts me up during dusky times,
when I was lost and could not think twice
Offered me your real and everlasting love
but, I refused and did not come back.
 
Now, I am walking from side to side
wishing we are cruising on the same ride
My world stops, when your eyes meet mine
smiling for me just like the old times.