Fire is the sun and the moon
These dusty fields and broken streets I walk through
Fire is everyday and every word
And I am ashes
Ashes
Spread amongst the purslain
And the charging ocean winds
The vestigial glint of hope
I am ashes
Now
A ceremony
As ashes fall into place
I have to die
To be reborn

Oh
How have I died?
Only in your eyes and in your arms
I was burning with the rage of bullets
And pin-struck amorous lighting
A thousand needles
Each speaking the name of the flame
And stubbornly stabbing
My mind ablaze in torrid heat
How have I died?

Only in whatever way I had to

I am ashes
Falling slowly from the life I used to have
When all was fire
And I was cinder
I am ashes
Formulating in unexplained definitions
Where love is death and birth
The let of knowing holding on
And no wind could tarry me assunder

I am ashes
From a life before
A living heartbeat
And belief
I am ashes
Falling into place
Every little part of me
Who I was
And who I'll be

If....
Perchance
You happen to traverse all the seven hills
And the five blue stones
Shining aquamarine
If
It happens
There will be flowers growing on the side of the highway
And wheels on the road
Finding direction

I'm watching the way the wind
Plays with the flowers that grow on the side of the highway
The clouds delight to see
Dancing petals
Caressing breeze

If....
Perhaps
My world that separates me will be made smaller
By my love that grows
Becoming wings
If
It happens
You shuffle through my country and stumble through my town
These streets won't be made of concrete
And they won't feel so cold

I know in summer heat
There will always be flowers growing on the side of the highway
Only so your eyes can see
Myriad colors
Carried on a zephyr

The teardrops of stars
A woman with a body
And a name
Celeste
How I look up in the night
And see her eyes
I see her skin as the sky
A cosmic answer
A soft place to land
From my recent fall
The tears that formed
Flow like glaciers
Ruining her make-up
Mascara on her cheeks
And her heart
Branded
How I reach out through these voids
These pits of despair
These ****** of pain
And touch love
These crystalline tears
Shine on my hair
And drown my hands
In her forever
I never saw the sun
But I swear
By god
I have felt it
Fall on me
As love from the ether
As teardrops
From stars

Its a darkened room
The candle you lit
Is not a light for me
I have a memory

A lantern
If there's no oil does the fire go out?
I have no doubt
In all this doubt
I'll be left in darkness

Not a helping hand
A knife in the back
I feel you twist
You tell me that you miss me

A lantern
If theres no oil does the fire go out?
I have no doubt
In all this doubt
I have my broken hands
I'm punching walls

You aren't you
I'm not me
Never again
So why pretend?

Why now in the darkness
Can I see shadows?

I was breathless
And you were formless
I watched as you were named
And felt the trees grow
The roots reaching
The twisted limbs
The dancing leaves
I was the soil and you were the seed
Nothing but a soul and rain
That was the way we began our journey
You were shouting
A rose from your throat
I dreamt of the sky
While I slept in caves
Facing gaping holes
And creatures
That was the way we began our journey
The band plays
And the music falls heavy on me
The way these angels
Bring me to my knees
So easily

We were all nameless when we came here
You tattooed your skin with your fear of death
Its only emptiness feeling holes
And inability to feel whole
Inadequacies

I jump at opportunity
See a void and be swallowed
I'm all that I am
Become a vacume
And a happy martyr
I only want what's best for you
And worse for me

You tattooed your skin with your inferiority
And feel ashamed
As the science and psychology prove your weakness
Is my strength
All that I am
Is good enough
For death.....

You weren't good enough for life
Not without the hand of man
To change the writing
From the hand of god

My god
My love
Is the very thing
To save me
Or destroy me
How many times before?
How many times again?
My god
I've finally realized
I don't want to be happy
Without you
And you don't want to be happy
So I want nothing at all

I am on an Arab beach
Head
With nothing to say
I'm saying anyway
If only I had no name
Only skin
And eyes
You would always know the truth
I want nothing at all
Or
At least if I should fall
It will be with enough force
To leave some sort of impact

Forget my mouth
And my teeth

Armistice is over
Killing fields full of flowers
I let you build your army
Rock steady, drop bombs
And now its time for me to bring the end

Cheap defenses and lazy art
Heavy cannons in my arms
I can never be the one to blame
Now I am aiming
Even if I cannot say a name
Nameless as you are

I am the water
I drown in
I am the rapids
With white violent foam
I am the tides
Sweeping away from the shore
I am the water
You swim in
Never knowing
How deep I am
The way I provide for life
Or promise death
I am the water
That falls from the clouds
I am the water
From drying out pools
I am all of it
I am the flood
To quench your thirst

I am not your friend
I am the enemy
Of the end
That you embrace
With open arms
And open palms
With a name drawn
Onto clouds
And carved
Into skin

Its should be as natural as breathing
But, its as painful as bleeding
No suture for these open wounds
No future
To fate we're bound

I am all you have
I am the answer
To the riddles past
Raven and writing desk
Oedipus answered man
Its all I am
With a name and a face
And eyes that can see
Eyes that blink
And a hungry sphinx

It should be as open as the sky
But, its a dark and dysmal cave
Our hearts become arrows
In truth of the scarab
We shoot wide and narrow

The end of which we seek
Will not be peace
Fall on me now
Or follow me not

The flower never grows
Without the rain
Maybe its just a summer mist
Maybe its a hurricane
it's all the same
The flower never grows
Without the rain
And all my grey clouds
Turned to black
And brought raindrops
Only in lightning
Its all the same
I was begging for your water
However it came
Quench my thirst
Or make me drown
I will be happy
I was only waiting on the rain

The clouds have opened up
I'm growing now

There is a way I die into your arms
That is different from the way I have died before
I have died before
The taste of poison on my lips
The surge of poison in my veins
The poison I eat
I have died before
Fifty miles per hour into a tree
Because I took my hands off the wheel
When I saw dangerous corners
There is a way I die into your eyes
That makes me want to see
What life could be
It makes me want to live

I wish I had six fingers
I wish I had three hands
I wish I had two heads
One that had a beard
Just so my physical appearance would show
What kind of freak I am
I wish I didn't have a soul
So I could be unaffected by the world we know
And
Its sickness

I watched you come
Come to me
Knowing you would leave
Still I loved you
I love you still
I watched you come
Come to me
Saturated bed sheets
And my hands
Like you never felt before
I saw truth in yours eyes when you spoke my name
I felt truth
I knew the end
I watched you come
Come to me
Great ocean spread wide
You know you touched me
I feel it now

I'd like to forget
          The places I have slept
                     Before
But....
There is a way
            The things you've seen become
                      Who you are

I don't feel the pain anymore
But I still bare the scars
I carry them with me where ever I go
And my hands are empty

I haven't left this parking lot for three whole days
I'm leaving now
Leaving part of me there

I'd like to forget
           The places I have slept
                      Before
But.....

The places can't forget me

I take it all
And throw it all away
I could be the change
That never could save me
I was only hoping.....
I will run
Hammers in my hands
I will
Take it all and throw it all away
I was only hoping I could know what love is
Before the end of the world

Scars
I was hoping I could find the reason
For these scars

I was living
While I was alive
I knew I only have a short time

Hammers in my hands
A name
And scars
Scars above her eye
Her sacred name
Her holy scars
The way she sees me
I was only hoping

I was only hoping I could know how love feels
Before I felt the end

Its a taste
Foreign to my tongue
I see clouds you don't
You feel rain
And I fight wars
As I fight against
Still your skin is the land
And your eyes are oceans
I don't want to stand
I don't want to swim
The pendulous nature that my hands know
I can only stare
My fingers
The way I feel
Its something impossible
So go away
And maybe I can heal
Don't go away
I need you dearly
The only seed I sow
That has to grow
The happy end
Its not a name
It is the dirt
Bury me now
I love you
I love you
I will die
If that makes you happy

We live on different worlds
Skies aren't to my eyes
Oceans aren't to my heart
My soul
Cannot shift this reality
My feet will never know your ground
Your steps lead you away

What is is real
Is transiency
Hope is hurt
Heart is mind
Love will become
What we make it be
Transgenciancy

Now up is down

I know too much
I know a name
I cannot say

Lame
is giving a ****
What anybody else thinks

Truth is truth

Sick
Sad
Pathetic
Little world
And the fear of the unknown
A disease is growing
Proliferating in populations
And syncophantic minds
Sick
Sad
Pathetic
Little world
And a cancer that cant be cured
Cell by cell and whole body
It eats insatiably
Until nothing is left
Sick
      Sad
           Pathetic
       l i t t l e
World
               Truth
                        You don't want to hear
Our world is a diseased
And we are the cause

Still
don't worry

Death is coming soon

The disease we create
Dies when we do

This is the desert
Jackals and vultures with hungry eyes
Are watching
Setting their sight upon your skin
They want you to die
They feed on the promise of your demise
And salivate
At the dryness of your mouth
This is the desert
Endless miles of sand and angry sun
Attacking
As all you feel is heat with no relief
They want you to die
Your body parched falling back to scorched earth
And forsaken hope
A soul dying of thirst

Build a well
Don't let the scavengers have a chance
To taste your meat
Don't die
Strung out from dehydration
As simple lips are licked by evil tongues
Longing claws
And crushing jaws
Build a well
And you will find water
The lord has granted
Rehoboth

There is wind inside my mind
I want to love you
I'm going to love you
But right now
Gale forces are escalating
These waves are hungry
And swallowing me whole

I'm a fear
I am a sailor
I'm at the bottom of the ocean

There is pain inside my heart
You know I love you
My blood loves you
My hope
But my mind
I'll survive these brutal squalls
These bashing waves
These hateful storms

But I don't know how

Still
I'm sure I will

Believe in me
Even when I don't want you to
When I can't believe in myself
Be my island
Be my shore
My solid ground
My shelter

Give me reason to believe
When I can't believe in anything
Be my sunshine
To **** grey skies

Be
What I need
And one day I'll be
Your everytning

Let it die
And let it swallow me with it
No escape, I dig with spades
I scrape my knees on asphalt
And live in empty streets
In my mind
I have a fist-fight with Auden
And as he's bleeding he's making money
A mockery of my divine art
He's in the textbook
And I am dying
In my eyes
The sun has lost all meaning
No true light, but neon signs
****** who walk the block
Glamour dolls bedecked with rouge
Make-up to cover scars
We call beautiful
Despite ourselves

You live inside a box
And I can repeat words
Mad Mad Mad
paper can't survive the flood
An old man
Man man man
man
Deny the works
And suffer worms
You were taught to love dirt
Become slaves
Embrace the hurt
I shine a light of truth
And I would die for my cause
I sacrifice myself
To save you
But you know only to save the pain
I die in vain
A martyrs death
I give it all until nothings left
And nothings right
There is no way I can prove
This is too good for you

I adore the very ends of the earth
I walk towards them with every step
My morning searching for the best way to fall
A line I always knew as irreversible
Irrevocable
Silence
Silence that screams to my closed eyes
My naked skin
The scars on my face and my hands
The stars I imagine
The way that I love
Im only a part of this world
That you walk
And breathe in
I deny the night
As its wings are shadows
And they fly
Sent from some oblivion
To deliver me
Silence
Silence that grows in your hair
And whispers
There is a line I have crossed
And there is no return
It boils in my fingers
And becomes everything I touch
This hope of you
And how loving
Has shown me death
I never had to feel
Until I felt everything you are
The ends of sand and time
The ends of the the worlds I hold

I know how to die
When my eyes can see no skies
And my mind forgets tomorrow
There is no fortress I can run to
Only a grave in a cemetery
Neglected and left to decay
The day is not my friend
And not my teacher
The day is a wolf
And the wolf is hungry
The star of the morning
Samuel
I know how to die
When the fires cannot be warmth
And my skin is shadows ashes
There is no home I can find
Only a strange land
Where the sun refuses to shine
The night will have no moon
Only crying darkness
The night is a demon from hell
Grasping claw-handed for my skin
The star of morning
Samuel

When I die
No one will know
My stones will fall heavy to the floor
Each one engraved
Chiselled by primal hands
With another lonely sorrow
A cuneiform alphabet
I spent my life carving brittle rocks
In sights unseen

When I die
I die again
This times the last time

When I die
I will die a young man
My skin still beautiful to the world
But my skin grown cold
My forgotten dreams
A short time that was wasted
My rotting flesh
My blood standing still in my arms
That cannot hold

When I die
It will be because I've given up
And God shows me mercy

The moon must cry when he sees you
The moon as the king of the night
To see your feet
Stepping further into the dark
The stars shine brighter for you
Burning with every inch of might
To bring you light
As you are passing through the gloaming

I cry with the moon
I know your beauty was meant for the day
But summer's setting sun
falls heavy on your soul

The moon must cry when he sees you
Falling back into the black
The surrounding of pain undistilled
As you lose the hope you held
The stars burn brighter for you
Giving every cosmic strength
To show you love
As you know I do like I was born for a reason

I cry with the moon
And surrender all my fate
I live to be the sunrise
Your skin is my name

I love you more than suns
Infintismal morning and spectacular night
My constellation shines bright onto your dusky life
When the light is fading low
I love the stars
I love you more than stars
And how the stars became your skin
Your prophetic vision of doom
My gift of a life ever after
I love your heaven
I love you more than heaven
Because an angel's song sounds sweeter on your lips
And harps and trumpets sit in the clouds you hold
Your music is perfection to my ears
I love your sound
I love you more than sound
Sound becoming symphony to cascade the unfeeling mass
And bring the rhythm of rapids as your heart beat
Your heart beats in my chest
I love you
More than sight or touch
I love you as a dream
I love the stars
I love you more

Skies are blue
So are eyes
Oceans too

Love is red
So is blood
Passions too

Pain is black

I wanted to paint a rainbow on a soul
But I have no color
My brush is only tempting fate

Pain is black
So is night
And darkness too

I swear these birds do not fly on wing
The sky is heavy
Undiluted gravity
Unbecoming gravitas
A party in the sky
Persona non grata
And what becomes?
Theatre where the stars won't act
The comedy of tragedy
Lives uncompelling melodrama
A panorama
Forgetting the hope
Of kaleidoscopes
I know these birds will not sing
Spring has come and gone
Now the underbelly dreamers
Are left to whither with fault
Sweltering festering heat
Summer suns to burn our skin
And leave us only wishing that we could be cold again
That the leaves should shrink and fade
And all the trees are dead
These songbirds of a winter ending
I held such hope aloft
And saw a symbol in their flight
I saw love inside a light
A beauteous sight
But even glorious wings
Fade from my eyes
In solemn nights

No quiero decir
Pero las flamas
Las alas
Quemando
Volando
Mi alma
Mis planetas in revolucione sobre el sol
No quiero decir
Pero
Te digo
Es necesidad
Tu eres la tierra
Me veyes en ciello
Tu eres la playa
Yo soy el mar
Hemos sido creados el uno al otro
Su vida es suficiente para hacer que te cuente
Te digo

I will drop
D
   R
      O
         P
Drop
Each ounce of energy

Its not silly blood upon a page
It is soul
Life force
Every star I am born from

Transmogrified into words

Still

I will
Bleed
Lose my teeth
From biting too hard
I'll suffer the scars

I know
And it hurts me
I know
When you look up in the night

You don't see stars

Let the words
Be said
Unheard

Beautiful scar
I saw a chasm in my skin
A deluge
A mount of Venus
The angels took their hands
And forced upon my palm a deeper meaning
I saw it bleed
I felt the pain
No head line can account for this
No love line can amount to this
No lifeline
No imperfect star
Only knives
Sharpened by whetstone
And gleaming with meaning
As they steady carve your name into my salt
You were the razor
I was the skin
You were my love
I swear to god
Even the tears you shed found a way to cut me
Cut me deep
And I bleed your touch
My screaming nerves
my fragile flesh
My paper skin
I offer up
In all my wounds I know your heart
And as I heal I know your hope
It is a line on soft tissue
A forever
A beautiful scar

She cries
She cries glorious drops of sweetest honey
Tears that melt away the obdurance that has become my heart
It's a world we know
Where man grows cold
Skin a minefield
Love a faded tombstone covered in vines
Soul a name that can't be read etched upon a stone
Decaying bones
Frozen wilds
And her warmth
She cries
She cries a boat on a mythic river
Excretions from some north September skies
Her salt a raindrop
On my barren dusty life
She cries the ocean from her eyes
And in her face I'm drowning
Dying for a taste
She cries
And it reminds me
In a stark and ugly world that made me numb
There is still something
Worth feeling
She cries
She cries ink down her cheek leaving a tattoo of my name
And giving me hope
She cries
But I will be the one to dry her eyes

I guess
      All is not lost
             Because I have my feet
My shoulders
Stress and strain

Buckle under

The weight of the world

I have my dreams
But
I don't know how to make them be

Im sure if I search long enough
For peace
I'll find a cave where no mans been
And die unkown

But still
      All is  uncertain
              Even the bones and shoes I wear
My mind is a king light
And a train wreck

I still fear dinosaurs

My fathers fossils

Even my feet
I'll take another unsure step
And hope it leads me to where you are

Or I can fall

And
     Never
             Stand
                   Back
                 Up
Again.....

Hells infinity
Heavens ephemeral

I guess
     All is not lost
             Because I still have my feet

And I'm eager to take another step

Daughter and sister
Creon king of Thebes
Great Antigone locked inside a tomb
For following divine law
Hung by her own hand
Unable to suffer injustice
Hæmon now must bleed

We were born as actors took the stage
I was only a heartbeat and hands
You were more than skin
We saw the jackals in the night
Gun headed children with powder fingers
A man on the hill shouting "death to the despots"
Falling bombs that feed no flowers
The turtle crawls slow
His jaw hangs open
We were born beneath the man made cloud
I was a dreamer caught in nightmare
You couldn't fall asleep
We saw the edge of a black hole together
Blood hungry for Armageddon
A man in a suit saying "follow me to war"
Metal raptors and steel claws
The birds fly south forever
And winter never ends

I hold you in my imagination
I know
The only things
That ever became real
Were once merely dreams
There is no reality unless we make it be
And I'm making
I am the better part of creation
And even while I sleep
I still am working
My slumber unencumbered by my rest
I hold you in my imagination
You hold my heart
We'll hold each other
There is nothing left to believe in
Except for this

I turn my face again away towards the strange
I turn into a wall
No masterpiece
Only a fear growing low in all the life I know
I hide my eyes from light and strangers gaze
I become the ghost once more
Spectral hands unable
Only a solemn letting go of all my hopes and dreams

I don't care what they say
What they say about me
I wasn't born for life
I will always be beat down

I turn my face towards the back edge of a room
I turn despondent
They will call me beautiful
But then why do I feel so ugly?
My skin is a poison and my breath is disease
I become a pit and razor wire
My own method of destruction
An infinite ending

I could not care what the voices say
About my choices made
I know well that its my fate
I will always be beat down

I feel alive in your eyes
I see a sun on the rise
Take me away but don't take it all
Bringing me now to a breaking point
I'll steal the thunder from the skies

I feel a drum I'm your heart
I see the light of a star
Burning me whole and giving me hope
Killing me slow and shining as skin
I see the beauty of your scars

I watch you fall so far
Fall now
Into my arms
Fall now
Into me

I feel the reach of your mind
A mountain I want to climb
I'm on top touching the heaven you hold
Giving my hands to every inch of this dream
My foot steps right on the line

I feel the floor of your pain
I cry angels to call your name
Oceans and skies are miles between
Constellations becoming our fate
And our love is golden wings

You could fly
You could tear apart a seraphs sigh
Confirm belief
Its only beautiful falling

I watch you fall so hard
Fall now
Into my arms
Fall now
Into me

I would say I'm a rebel without a cause
Because my cause keeps changing
But if you dig deeper you'll find the root
The planted seed
The meaning
My cause:
Find defined societal norms
And defy them

My third eye stings from staring at Suns
Pineal gland open and gods voice
What's life
What's life?
I will bring with me my guitar
And find some lonesome hill
Where only madmen have trod before
And I'll play myself a song
I'll sing
What's life
What's life?!
What's death?
My eyes can read
What the ancients said
My third eye knows
What it means

Homelely lonely snaggle-tooth smile
Tongues urging words forward
Surging as an ardent sword
Swimming in saliva
Ivory incisor
Cruel cuspid
Fangs
And sharpened islands
Teeth

Decalcified
Recalcitrant

There's an empty feeling in a mouth

Provender as a need

Viscious victuals

Forget the taste
Remember appetite
Just when you feed
Don't eat but devour
Mulling molars
Curious carnassials
Fangs
Longing for the flavor of flesh
Teeth

Putrescent
Holy cavity

There is an empty feeling in a mouth

Eat all you can

While you can

Take full bites
And swallow whole

I want to kiss your wind
The real you existing before the beginning
Before the body begins
And the beauty is your soul
Not your infinite eyes
Not your silken skin

I've seen your waterfall
I've heard you as a river flowing off an edge
Before any ocean
And no hands can hold such depth
Not the rising tides
Nor the raging waves

Your voice is a delicate breeze
On a newly formed planet
Your heart is a star being born
Your dreams are a star being formed
You were words before sound
You were love alive in tiny atoms
You are music
You are a major scale

I want to kiss your notes
The composition of a cosmic truth
Your stars are instruments
Playing melodious tunes
A glorious truth
A song from heaven

My dystopia is a blue and gray painting
A blurry eyed vision of you losing your smile
A slurred and distorted visit to a promise broken
It's watching the wind defeat the ocean
My fears and worries so great
They weigh down my hope
And bring my dreams to an underground dispair
A seven knotted rope becoming a noose
My dystopia is knowing that you love me
A star-crossed heaven and funeral pyres
Its silence and darkness as a home
Its bitter ashes from a dead sun
A black hole that swallows
An empty earth we shared
Finally meeting the event horizon
Its our destruction
My dystopia is the thought you walk
Away and always as all I need
It's watching as you leave me
Forever

Such beautiful words to bring you pleasure
He lives in my five minutes of thought
Silver snaked-tounged charmer
Claws, and jaws, and teeth, and all
A hungry hellion disguised outrightly
As a love, a father, a friend
Your standing on the ledge
He wants you to jump
Into a void
Into the mouth of darkness
He wants your flesh
He wants to eat
He wants your death
And he'll call it a beautiful life
He still is speaking
And his words are mixed and missed and often remiss
He's going to speak
Still
Listen to me
I'm only here because you need me to be
He's only there because he needs you
There's only one voice speaking truth
Step off that ledge
Fall into a lovers arms
And be safe
Yes there are demons
Who give every inch of might
To try to reach you
Still
I will keep you

I see it
I see it and I don't want to
I see it
I see it and I know it's true
I see it
But it hurts to believe it
War
I don't want war
And you don't want war
No one I know wants war
No one you know
So why?
Why is there still this disease upon Humanity?
Children sent to foreign lands
Strangers who are brothers
Cut down in the name of something we don't understand
And why?
For what reason?
What is the motivation?
What is the goal?
I see it
It's dark and sinister
I see it
And I know the reasons
But I couldn't show you
I could say it plainly and bring with me proof
But so many eyes are closed
So many minds
Why?
All I can do is ask why
And hope you ask it too

No
The dandelion is not beautiful
It's choking out the life
Of the tulips and daisies

I wouldn't mind to hold the rose
Even though thorns may cut me
How can it live
Amongst the crabgrass and creeping charlie?
How can I watch symmetrical bloom
Amongst purslane and velvet leaf

The ivy and the thistle

In a garden where weeds will grow
The years of our toil
Our hands in the soil pulling weeds
But leaving the root

The ocean is not deep
Its not a beating heart
In your chest as you sleep
As you dream

The ocean is not peace
Its hammerhead sharks
That want to eat
As I swim

But its a river in my mouth
A river of life
The transitory nature of water
You can't step in the same river twice

The ocean in not deep
A game of inches and trenches
A rock on the sea floor
And islands

The ocean is not love
It is continual struggle
Swordfish and coral reef
Beauty and disbelief

But its a river in my mouth
Flowing down hill
The path of least resistance
Reaches your heart

The ocean is not deep
A rock in a current
Soaked and worn by bitter tides
And big fish

The ocean is not truth
A rock has always been wet
Lustful for a starfish
A sea horse rides away

The ocean is not deep
There is not an ocean
Prolific Pacific or tragic Atlantic
I can't walk across

Still its a river in my mouth
You on a shore
Cupping your hands
And drinking

Drink
My love
Drink until your drunk
Drink the river in my mouth