Just a cloud in the sky
It's the middle of the night
And it rained all afternoon
Just a drop of water
That has been amplified
And multiplied becoming a milieu
The world you knew

The clouds that broke before
Were symbolic of sadness

Just a song to sing
To the rhythm of the falling rain
To the heartbeat and the veins
Just a drop of blood
That is you
Becomes me
All I ever want to be

And even when it rains
We have the sun
Even when the nights sky
Is covered by the clouds
We have a star
We make a wish on
For everything we ever want

A wish comes true

So sing and dance with me
In the rain so painful before
In the rain that brings us life
In the storm that brews
Inside a heart
And makes me smile

We'll dance naked in the street
Just the chance that it could be

I'll teach you how to love the rain

And the clouds that are breaking now
Bring only joy and love

I saw a smile in the sky
As a million years memory
Float on a stream
Through a plane
A heart shaped box
Was singing songs
Am I the only one
Am I the only one

In darkness finding light
What it's liked
To be loved
I wish for
What I wish for

What is come is passing by
Forever caught in a loop
Float on a dream
Through waking pain
A psychic Pisces
Singing songs
Am I the only one
Am I the only one

In darkness finding light
What it's liked
To be loved
I live for
What I live for

I knows it's raining where you are
Foggy London streets
I know
There's a storm inside of you
Some kind of beautiful flood
That makes us want to swim

I know you

I love it's raining where you are
Sullen raindrops assault the River Thames
I love
There's a song inside of you
That I sing
We sing together
We dance in the rain

I love you

I am the rain where you are
I see as the London Eye the  sky above Big Ben
I am
The seed I planted in a heart
Of love and hope
Through your lips a flower blooms

I am you

Please don't lose hope.

Have faith in yourself
As I have faith I'm you

Have faith in me

We manifest our dreams,
And I know we can both be happy!
You'll find someone

To be the one

And I know
The spirits speak
You're the one for me

How many strikes off a lighter
I need this cigarette to burn
And I'll tune my guitar by ear
Simply to play your favorite song

And now I'm smoking
Now I'm jamming
Falling into grooves
Natural and pure

How many cigarettes
Until I get cancer
And the simple joy of smoke
Becomes a pain I can't enjoy

As I've enjoyed before
I sing a song unsung
And you would sing along
Without knowing the words

And whatever it is
I have been looking for
Has been found
And I quit  smoking

I have all I ever need

I afore
So enamor'd of the thought
Did open up my heart
And let misguided light seep in

Mistaken was I
Though as touch'd by dying light
Trying much to hold on
To what was not

Affix'd was I
Hath grown fond of subtle pain
Did steal me of my strenth
And rob me of my hope

I thought I shan't allow such to pass again
No love is worth such sorrow
Alack and erewhile
And sun shines on the 'morrow

I thought I shan't allow such to pass again
Standing in the sun and in the rain
Whither I met you
And knew you as a friend

I wist and I am fain
Twixt the twain
The teen that what hath seen
I lief to love again

What's beautiful?
I have a dream
Meaningful
Everything
I find a reason
I known of love
And I know that I'll find
What's beautiful

And wherever you are
You're looking for me
As I'm searching
As I'm reaching
I'll find a hand
To hold mine
And walk with me
Through the hard times

Wherever you are

Walk with me to the light

No glasses
No rings
No tattoos
Just my skin
The skin god gave me
And if you know how to look

You'll see divine art

No glasses
I can see clearly
My contacts
Are the souls I reach
The love I give
And receive

No rings
My hands are strong
They hold the frets
And make a song
A song that god gave me
I have to sing

No tattoos
Because the scars are my art
And scars on my heart
Tell a story
About a life I used to live
And the time I died

Im afraid
Of Americans
Because they don't understand
But they just don't care

You can't be right when you can't be wrong
When you can't be wrong no lessons learned

I'm afraid
Of Americans
Because I'm surrounded by them
Eating at McDonalds

You can't be healthy if you don't eat right
You can't eat right if you listen to advertisements

I'm afraid
Of Americans
Because I am one
I'm afraid of myself

My bittersweet glory in creating history
My personal ability to change the world

I'm afraid
Because if america got it wrong
As the hope of the world
Why wouldn't I?

Need it be always so painful?
God's law
Not man's
Not a tool for shadowy userpers
Who bend the will
Through fear

It is love
A seed that has been planted
But in toxic soil
Doesn't grow

Need it be always so painful?
A fractured light
A broken rainbow
Not an infliction
But a benediction
A showering of blessings

It is love
A seed that has been planted
With tender care we watch it grow
A purple bloom

It is love
The most beautiful flower we can see

All the pain
All the frozen rain
All the strength we feign
And hope that's all in vain

These stories we would tell
If only we had someone to trust

All the past
These cynics and iconoclasts
Ideals we hold to fast
And dreams that never seem to last

These stories we would tell
If we knew we had someone to talk to

And maybe last year wasn't
What we wish it would be
But the future is much brighter
Than we ever thought it could be

These stories that tear us apart
Are what in the present build us

And in the future fill us
With the peace and prosperity we deserve
February was so cold
But we march to someplace warmer

Talk to me
Talk to me
You talk to me
I talk to you

If every year before has been sorrow
This next one will be happy

And I'll do all I can
Left and right
Sound and sight
The futures bright

And you'll have a happy birthday

(At least I hope you will)

I will always know the beauty
Of your big blue eyes
Even if the tears are forming
If you feel its storming
And bringing heavy rain
I see the joy behind the pain

A hand to hold
A friendly smile
A savior

You know that I care
That I'll always be there
Despite the distance
And any ocean in between

I will always know the beauty
Of your big blue eyes
And if they're crying
I'll be the one to dry your tears
If you feel its storming
I'll be the sun behind the clouds

I am next to you
And your eyes
They are not sad

And you will hear my song
And sing along
I'll destroy these walls
And together we build bridges

I'll always know the beauty
Of your big blue crying eyes
There is nothing more gorgeous to me
The words you speak
The way we believe
Nothing I'd rather be

Its okay if your not always strong
And its okay to cry
Just as long as those big blue crying eyes
Can smile once in a while

You would want the same for me
A hand to hold
A savior

Eggs, rabbits
Gifts in the night
C'mon

I'm looking for a little adventure
I find my god
In ***
My personal resurrection

******* like rabbits
I want to dip my eggs
In a young woman's mouth
And dye them the color of lust

I'll spend time with you in the night
As a welcomed visitor
I am the easter bunny

And you like the gifts I bring

Pick apart piece by piece
A sledgehammer in a China shop
That we call love
A billion brittle bits
I bend until I break
And can't be fixed

All is ash, all is fire
All is wallowed in the mire
City walls will tumble
A broken heart will stumble
A finish line
The race is done

And a new race to be run

And always attempt again
A child in a candy shop
That we call love
Start to see the sunlight
I die to be reborn
And love once more

All is earth freshly turned over
All are seeds I've planted
A mote I've swam across
A coin I couldn't toss
A starting gun
A race begun

Its time to run again

And all that I've destroyed
And buildings I've demolished
Its time to build again
A shining city

My favorite volcano
Untameable destructive force
Beautiful
And through the land
I feel the tremors
Eruption
I know it comes again
The same way as before
Devastation
Waiting in molten lava flows
And violent outburst of debris
Eructation
My favorite volcano
Cinder awaiting a spark
I'm ready to marry the fire

And just once
To see the light through the leaves
My holy sabbatical
My rest and relief
And forever
I make a family
From the trees in the forest
The petals of lotus
I give my all
My effort adjunct
To the beauty of nature
My mind enmeshed with the world in flux
I only want to find the meaning
Give it reason
Find my heaven
In this physical hell
Just once
To feel what it is to be at peace
Go inside myself
And find you there

Give yourself to me
I'll take only what I need

Its cool to be a nihilist
And I was before
And my motto;
"I don't give a ****"
I really didn't
Because what is there to care about
Somethings really nothing anymore

But I began to see connection
And even the insignificant
Holds so much meaning
If you can see it
If you believe it
If that's what you make it to be

It's cool to be a nihilist
But it is foolish
Because music exists
And love
And happiness
And if you've felt them
You know how very real they are

My connection to god
Existentialism
The god inside of me says make it be

And it is

Water be calm
Water be still
Water be beautiful
Let it be my greatest example
Tranquility in a world of chaos
A reflecting pool
Where by day
The colors of the world are seen
In a much more beautiful way
And by night
Its shining constellations

Water be wicked
Water be wild
Water be raging rapids
My greatest example of passion
A hundred foot plunge in the mountains
My waterfall
When by day
The water reflects the light
And I see rainbows
And by night
The sound I can see is my meditation

Creo que
Lo es algo que conozco
Es una ajena
Extranjero
Amante

El espacio desnudo
Entre las puntas de luz
Se necesitan
Se mantienen
Las planetas
Adonde podemos ajuntar

Creo que
Se caiga perfectamente
Aunque no mas tengo miedo
De las sombras
Sombras solo existan
Si hay luz

Irony
Stem of a rose
All we want
Barefooted passion
Kikepeo
Some kind of monster
Fragile astronaut
I want truth
Phantom limb alone in a crowd
I was a child
I remember
Would you?
Even if its not perfect
Cherry blossom
A poet who can say sublime

Atlas
Who carries the world
Will tell you its too much
Yet he does
And he never even shrugs

This weight is his alone

Eros
The god of love
Whom no mortal eye can see
Still will love a woman
Despite the Impossibilities

And psyche is just that beautiful

And why
Would I be willing to die
Or willing to live
Ready to wake up every day
Willing myself to fight once again

I believe in love

I'm relieved when I see
My message is received
And even in my weakest moments
I'll be strong
I'll carry on
I'll carry your world

I'll be your atlas

I want
The two warring nations
To put aside their differences
To help me fight a war
They both know I need to win
I stand with the light of god!!!!!!!!

Because being right
Is never as important

As being right

It was building up to this
Day by day
A mountain top
Steb by step
We reached the highs

And now the moon wanes

It was growing to be
What we want
A light to see
What we need
We saw it once

And now the moon wanes

And all the pleasure
All the pain
The truth understood
Unexplained
But never forgotten

Now the moon wanes

My inner monster says destroy
My inner god says light that is brighter
Shines brighter
My nihistic side says none of that matters
But the whole point being

Who would anyone read Romeo and Juliet
If instead of taking their lives
Because of love
They lived together happily ever after?

True love
Is the ability to sacrifice
For someone else
It is never happily ever after

By my very nature      s     O   c
Rawness of it,           S     C    R    P
I am in tune,          o      r        p   i
But out of control.      o     I
                                              O
I hope you see it as a skill,
And not a sickness

I can love you more
If only you love me

As I walk
A twig would trip me up
I'll never get where I'm going
With even molehills as mountains
And it rips me up
It tears away at me
Like my insides still are bleeding
From a trauma
My mind forgot

As I sail
This twisted ocean
My transistor radio
Sends me signals from sirens
Until I have to find an island
That once I reach
I'll never return
I want to hear that song
And I'll die happy

And as I fall
I only hope I'm lucky enough
To miss the ground
And start to fly

I question you
I'm ever optimistic
But somewhat nihilistic
And it is nothing

I question you
I bathe myself in hopeful thoughts
Because my inner cynic
Knows its nothing
                  That you want

I question you
Remain in pleasant spirit
Knowing ghost will only bother
Those who hear

I question you
When I try to be positive
Because vibes and all that
I know its something
                    If it's not

I question you

There's a song inside of me
You wouldn't sing
Coming from the city of queens,
There's a light I want to see
You wouldn't show
I'm far from the city glow

And ****** Carolina
Can't you see?
The way you're killing me
You gave me life
You gave me love
And then took it all away

There's a hand I used to hold
The skin grew cold
I couldn't feel the same as I did,
There's a song inside of me
You wouldn't sing
I'm sick of all you're whistling

****** Carolina
You could be the one
To make me feel like I'm in love again
You gave me time
You gave me hope
And then you took it all away

****** Carolina
If you took the time to realize
Maybe I wasn't always wrong
And there are demons on your shoulder
You hear
Do you hear?
I only hope you understand

****** Carolina
Can't you see?
The way you're killing me

I wanted to tell you
Something
Anything
That would make it all alright
I don't know the words to say
But I'll say them anyways

Maybe I'm just a fool
Trying to solve crimes
Without any clues
And my voice can only be carried on the wind
Confused with the din
Of a million other peoples thoughts
And a letter from a thousand year old love affair

I wanted to love you
Right now
And forever
I wanted to be a light in darkness
I don't know that I can
But I'm trying anyways

Still, maybe I'm just a fool
Searching for the source
Of a pain I can't explain
And my emotions get the the better part of me
And take my control
Making me something I'm not
A dog in the night with a knife in my heart and the loss of a loveless life

I wanted to hold you

I wanted to tell you

I wanted to love you

But I don't know that I can

I grow sick and tired of the world at times
How many dreams I have
And I awake in realization
Nobody really cares
Even the god they teach is loving

I only want to be

And its too much to ask

I grow sick and tired of doing the right thing
At the right time in the right way
And being shown that it's all wrong
That no matter how I try
It cannot be enough

I only want to be
Happy

And its too much too ask

I grow weary and despondent
How many times I lose
How many things I've lost
My empty hands attest to this
My broken heart, my emptiness

I only want to be
Happy
To be loved

And it's too much too ask

I guess I have to let it be
Or let it be the end of me

God
Or whatever god is
The universe
The cycles we don't understand

and you were mine

Let me digress

God
(As I've explained him above)
Or whatever god is
(The order in the chaos if you will)
The universe
(What we are, were, and will be)
The cycles we don't understand
(Some kind of ****** up cosmic plan)

Has designed it
So we can not lose
What truly belongs to us
So it is important
Nay, its is essential
That we not lose our joy and hope
When it seems we have suffered a loss

and you were mine

let me digress

All worldly possessions are transitory anyways

I could hear the images being steadily streamed at me by sattalites of unknown origin saying the war is coming so be prepared

I went out on my front porch and saw a black cloud approaching my direction filled with foreigners and locust and black flags waving intentionally decrying "the end is nigh" as butterflies with black wings landed on the unattended garden in my front yard

I knew I was meant to be a part of this war (as indeed we all are; pick a side) so I went and got my weapons of destruction: my bazooka, my Gatling gun, my Bowie knife, my furious intentions

The war was reaching my doorstep, and I decided I would join it, but not before I sat down and ate a slice of carvel cake

I fell in love with she S
                                           U
   And the                              N
                              ­             O
                                     O
                               M
Never enough to have
Never enough to hold

I fell in love with the sun and the moon

Today
The clouds were in the way
They covered up the sun I used to have
Tonight
The stars are shining bright
But not in sight the moon I used to hold

Right now
Its only gray skies
And scars
The woman in red
The woman in the black dress
And me all alone

I fell in love with she S
                                           U
   And the                              N
                              ­             O
                                     O
                               M
I never thought it could be
I would have neither one

Can't last much longer
Without a change
This life I feel is strange
Becomes unbearable
This sweater made of wasp
Unwearable
Not enough to keep me warm
Not a shelter
Only storm

And this taste in my mouth
I thought was sweet
Becomes a poison dart
Aiming for my heart
This poison invades me
It pervades me
And reaches even the parts
I tried to hide
And I want to show

This life
I have to give
This life
I have to lose
I want to win
But all it is
Is really nothing
And how can I hold on
To nothing?

This gray cloud
With no silver lining
Blocks out the sun
Leaving just enough light
For me to see the mess I've made

This gray cloud
I never could hold
And never have
Leaving me without you
Remembering the love we made

This gray cloud
A women in black
The love we had
The love we lost
And all the mess we made

I went back to the place
Where I can go back in time
To where you were before
But your not there anymore
My diving board
I found the deep end
I swam with you
And my demons

I replayed the words
Over again in my mind
For the millionth time
And found new meaning
My Sig Sauer
I found the bullet
It was my finger on the trigger
It was you who took the shot

You are my gun
To blow my brains out
These thoughts are bullets
And my babies loaded

I'm thinking about forever
As I'm staring down the barrel

I fell asleep
Beneath a cherry blossom
Because the spring had made it bloom
And it reminded me of you

I fell asleep
Beneath a cherry blossom
Because your lost to me and gone foervever
But it was like sleeping next to you

Again

I fell asleep
Beneath the cherry blossom
Because I had no other choice
My heart told me to

I fell asleep
Beneath the cherry blossom
Because I had no place I should be
And it felt like home to me

I wrote a poem
About a poem you wrote
And when you awoke
You were glad
Not only did someone else understand
But someone took the time
To make your thoughts
Be magical
Mystical
Special
Real
In the most ephemeral way
They made it last forever
In your heart

I like your poem
I hope you like mine

I am the greatest
The greatest poet you ever read
                             And didn't understand
I'm the greatest lover
The greatest loser
The maniacle sensitive soul grown calloused
By the world
Incredibly optimistic
Insatiably cynical

The greatest poet you ever read
Who sees blue when the color is red
Like the times I bled
My thoughts onto paper
I mix it up in purple imagery

An orchid

I found a way to sail my ship
From the deepest ocean
To the deepest parts of space
Where only nebula's
Know my name

And I'm hurting
And I'm loving all the time
And I'm crying
With no tears in my eyes

My tears form
As lines in a poem
That make you feel the same as me

So does my smile

I am the greatest poet
You can't begin to understand

I'm tired of trying to rhyme
Expired of the idea,
Dying from the expectation,
Crime of the uninspired poet
And I know it
I can show it
Just rhymes with no meaning
To it
Dying from expectation
Admire the man
With nothing to say
Only elation
Infinite relation
Sensation of the nation
Occasion of inebriation
I'm drunk off of education
No occasion for vacation
No sign and no direction
And dying from expectation
I'm tired of trying to rhyme

S     i      L        n           O   e
       U                      P
    e         E      e     D             A
E      d           R     y
      K        o                    u

                        ­  And now these demons
                    Speak louder
                       These fears are my constant companions
             Are my darkness are my friends
I don't want to hear and I don't want to be alone
                                I won't they are always with me
Unless you speak louder show me your with me
   I promise I'll hear you  you'll be my angel

I promise I'll love                         my light in the darkness

                    Speak louder *I need you

Today I am sad
I lost a friend
I lost a friend I never knew
And I knew as well as anyone

And all night I stay up
In conversation getting drunk
And getting high on ideas
And finding meaning

We spoke
And will speak no more
Today I am sad
I lost a friend

And went to find him
In the old familiar place
But there wasn't a name
And there wasn't a face

Today I am sad
It is nothing
I feared it always was
I lost a friend

A guide can only show you the light
Never make you see it
Deliver you to the oceans edge
Release and set you free
Even if he wants you to swim
Even if that's all you ever want
A guide can only show you love

You have too feel it to know what it means
I can show you love
But if you don't look
You'll never see

I show a path
The next step is yours

I was meant to
Be the shade under the medlar tree
In whatever damp sweltering heat
I was meant to
And I should be
The bough of a medlar
My wondrous leaves beautiful to behold
I was meant to
And I only want
To be the medlar fruit
The most delicious reward
No one has ever heard of
I was meant to

That there is enlightenment in ancient wisdom
That pervades as memory
There is a lesson always learned
In loss

I was meant to
Protect you
Be the seed of ancient memory
Bring you the symbolic beauty
That means more than a world to you
That you never have to suffer again
I was meant to
Love you

But my roots weren't deep enough
I was meant to be a medlar tree
But sadly as the rainy day
I am only me
Just a soul with no place to call my home
And nothing to call my own

And it never could be enough

Its only oceans between us
Oceans filled with islands
And brilliantly colored coral reefs
I see the importance of a star fish
I know what it means to me
There are too many fish in the sea
But I'm not afraid of sharks

Its only distance between us
Distance and time
And a feeling that is strong enough
To overcome all the obstacles
I know what it means to me
Is what it means to you
And I'm not afraid of being wrong

So I hold on
While your plane is in the sky
I hold on
As your train is leaving the station
I hold on
As your boat enters the bay
I hold on
I wait for you

I am this
And you love it
The way I talk
Like a song
The way I move
Like a dance
My every detail
I bounce cannonballs off the moon
With the flick of my wrist
I buy whatever I see

I make up the slang
It becomes the lexicon
I invent feelings
You didn't even know you had
I make you feel it
I make you love it
I'm a god of swag
I make you want it

I'm whatever I want
And you love it
My voice is a tone
That makes the ladies come
My moves are smooth
And make them come again
You love it
That I'm a **** *******
You always come to me
And I please you like no other

Spare me a dime?
I know this girl
Well, I kind of know her
And she has to make a call
So on her behalf
I'm asking around
For change
Spare me a dime?
Because I know where a payphone is
And she can use it

I was bowling and
I couldn't pick up the spare
And on the drive home
From the alleyways
My tire went flat
Spare me a tire?
It can be a spare

Its just I have to go see this girl I know
Well I kind of know
I don't really know her
But I want her to make the call
If she needs to
Spare me a dime?

I'm asking around
For change

My disease makes me feel happy
When I'm alone I feel alive
I'm drinking bitter poison
And loving the taste

My sickness makes me healthy
When I hurt I feel the hope
Of a better day that's coming
Something to look forward to

And as I'm floating through the void
That even light can't reach
I'm thankful
I have my space

I was seven
Sitting in a sandbox
Playing with words

And a kid would scream
"Tag, you're it"
And I would bleed
Because I was

I was drunk
Delivering my daily diatribe
About symbolism, and feeling, and energy, and

Love

And the cop would pull me over
Because I was driving in two lanes
Talking to a ghost
Who couldn't understand

I told him
"I've been waiting for you,
And I didn't even know it"

Mr authority who I deplore
Was inspired by the poet
He let me go
Just like I did before


And later I thought
How senseless it really was
To be sensible