I don’t like the ant
Or that is to say
There is something about them I don’t like
They are unthinking
They lay chemicals at dawn
And don’t stop searching until night is strong
They are unthinking
Moving unmercifully
The hive mind their meaning that I despise
Something about them
This ant will never know freedom
In nature
This worker ant both night and day
In nature
Being for the benefit of the queen
There is no laughter
Not in the cities
Not in the sprawling farms and endless roads
There is no laughter
Just hands hardened by toil
On cast iron tools and heavy machines
I don’t like the ant
They are unthinking
They searching blindy restless legs forever seek
With no imigination
The ant is just a slave
A slave who doesn’t want freedom

They are unthinking

The ant will never know laughter
In nature
The ant is just a reminder
In nature

What are we holding onto,
Something ungolden,
And I take it I pray the day away,
We’ll never be saved,
We can never be saved,
Even if it’s broken,
Something to hold onto,
My fingers may bend or they may break,
We needed it now,
We need it somehow
                                     I can’t explain,

One for the rain,
Stumble on the rocks,
We’ll never reach the coast,
Not when these guiding lights were ghost,
And we needed it most,
stumble through the rain,
But things won’t ever be the same,

And what we are holding onto,
It’s too much pain,
And we’re praying you take the pain away,
And with love we may say,
Love save the day,
But there was too much hate,
Something to hold onto,
our lives forgiveness is gone to ghost that haunt you,
It was our strength,
That was our weakness
                                         and that's the way,

Two for the rain,
We stumble through the years,
We know which way to go,
And every step just leads us closer,
Our road lead us home,
Once we’re past the pain,
We find our truth again,
And things wont ever be the same,

Things wont ever be the same

I am

Heavy noises crash into me
the rocks below
Heavy heavy sound
We can’t see you
I am
And there is no corner nor quarter
the rocks below

Openly the fields
the meadows
the heavy ending
And I pray
Jubilation
Through this white noise
Evil the empire
That freed us

Heavy the hand that feeds us
Denies us just to need us
heavy, deaf, and blind
She’s yours to take home
And sorrow in blood
is my own

My own the seas
the oceans and shores
Water crashing in
wasn’t fair at all
Take away the sand
as all I know
Closing my eyes
Avoid the slaughter

Heaven descend
as I forgive
  One could never understand
the rocks below
  I am
  It’s heavy in my blood
  Magnetic molecules
and memory
The rocks below

Break apart the waves
and terminate the fall
The pain that’s left to feel
wasn’t fair at all
Hallelujah
heavy as it was
it isn’t ours to judge
The rocks below


I am

And i could never be
Even clouds have faces
As faces have names
And they chant and proclaim
Hallelujah
It wasn’t fair at all
But not a victim
to the fall
The rocks below
Exclaimed hallelujah
Hallelujah

I am

It took a thousand years to feel like me
Blood as I’m laying on the floor
Lives are forever changed
And I saw a dancing woman
As I saw you
I flew over the hills
As I saw you

It was loss

It was losing everything to know this love
There was no flower to hold
It was the flood waters rising
And I feel this way
It was cruel intentioned lighting
And I feel this way

The waters of the flood
God willing the creek won’t  rise
But as is does
I accept it as it is
As punishment for sins
As a way to wash me clean
And the water rises over the rooftops

It was repentance  

It was religious vision led me to you
Death and resurrection
I give my life away
And I saw a the wings of angels
As I saw you
And I found a way to Heaven
As I saw you

It was salvation

God willing
The creek won’t rise,
Everything within lies,
Father of mammon
The ***** of of Babylon,
I turn my eyes up to the skies,

And I know I can’t be whole,
I only know I set my foot on the road,
But its a never ending path,
Once the first step
You cant go back,
You cant turn back,
         Everything within lies,

Now I know
The strength of my hand,
Took a lifetime to understand,
Despite the darkness
Light still shines as it can,
Shines on the life of a man,

And I know I cant be whole,
I only go and feel the weight of the the load
But to this burden I am strapped,
This is my sin
this is my chance,
For salvation,
            When everything within lies

And lo
There is a truth set to behold
And find your soul,
Find your weight
Define your hope
Or you’ll never know,
Never hold what’s really golden
Give it up,
There is a most high,
There is a truth,
When everything within lies

When everything within lies

West was a flower
Life growing from the feet and the hands
Reaching up into space in favor of god
In bloom
That the king may answer us when we call
A flower
Vines and roots
And sweetest nectar
With petals of radiancy and perspective
Of many thousand years
Colors and perspectives
But I don’t die when I’m supposed to
Only when I’m meant to
And the years of blood are not an issue
Surgery and scar tissue
Still blissful
Because the flower was plucked and left for dead
But at the stalk near the root
There is new life
And it will grow in the light in the favor of the lord
And it will grow

Heaven hold me open as I throw my soul in this
Because it's much too far to fall
I need that light to lead me on
And even as I walk again still even as I breath
the path of the enlightened
As enraptured by all bliss

From when the horns begin to call
I needed strength
I heard the song
And even as I walk again

Still even as I breathe

Not lead me far from home the only truth I've ever known
Shelter from the storm
Keep me comfortable and warm
Still even as I walk again with each and every breath
The path of the most wicked
The misguided and the sinful

Yet the horn began to call
I needed strength
I heard the song
And even as I walk again

Still even as i breathe