I'll tell you this...
No eternal reward will forgive us now
For wasting the dawn.

Back in those days everything was simpler and more confused
One summer night, going to the pier
I ran into two young girls
The blonde one was called Freedom
The dark one, Enterprise
We talked and they told me this story
Now listen to this...
I'll tell you about Texas radio and the big beat
Soft driven, slow and mad
Like some new language
Reaching your head with the cold, sudden fury of a divine messenger
Let me tell you about heartache and the loss of god
Wandering, wandering in hopless night
Out here in the perimeter there are no stars

Out here we are ******
Immaculate.

The stars not in my sight
                Concrete
Doors are swung wide open but we may never swim
Hotel rooms
Never finding home
A tired job
And useless profession

The tides and misery currents
                 Concrete
The river of awareness that we may never seek
An ocean
That we may never swim
A diving board
And chlorenated water

Painting all the walls
In my
Room of every color
Hoping something sticks
But I
Stuck on what I hope for

Maybe another day
Maybe but I can't see
Maybe another way
Maybe that cannot be
When there's something in the way
And the spirits and the speakers
Something all in vein
And the spirit starts to leave me

I can't change the station
When the
Music becomes somber
Waiting on a song
But I
Cannot wait much longer

So destroy my yesterday
Affect all my tomorrow
A river only flows downhill
They say
And the sky is only filled with stars that don't have any answers

Vanilla icing
On the cake
I know you ate
On your birthday
When I found vacuums that obliterate
Me whole

My soul

I want you to be happy
And you don't care

Haven't these streets been flooded with blood for far too long?
That they can't predict my future
Haven't these parking lots been empty?
My dreams die in the worst way

I am not worried
What is there to worry?
My greatest fears are recent memory
And im still alive
Only barely
Still alive

My heart is beating

And as my heart is beating
It reminds me how you beat me
Its reminding me of you
Today's your birthday

Happy birthday

I still love you

I know you hurt me

I know you killed me

I didn't know of blood
Until you cut me
Crimson staining everything around me
And all my faith is gone
My hope is gone
And dreams that say tomorrow brings a dawn

Hell is a place
I know

I only learned of fire
Once you burnt me
My skin the embodiment of agony
As all my truths are gone
My love so wasted
And clouds are made to cover up the sun

Hell is a place
I've been there

I only feel the emptiness
Completely
Darkness finding every space around me
And all my light is drawn
To the abysmal void
I don't know how I'm meant to make it through the night

Hell is a place
That lasts forever

Entertain the masses
The *****
The coliseum of the gladiators
I only want to make you laugh
I only want to cry
This face to the world
This face too

Nothing
I'll have nothing and I'll smile
And dance and joke
And act a fool
A jester in the court of kings

Out on stage I make the day
In my dressing room
I cry

I would know
When her voice comes wailing through these bitter broken streets
The street lights are bleeding
Pleading forgiveness
May I never have another fear of the banshee
I may never
I only
When my lonely heart finds salvation in some bitter broken blue
Beating all the broken dreams to bed
I only go as far as my heart allows
And I dream it
When all questions go answered
Still I do
Even so much long and longer than my hopes gave up on you
Give no reservations
Give everything
And watch my fingers break
In some perilous forsaken dawn
The sun may always rise