I tie my eyes to the skies
When the wind screams so close
So far away
everyday a cast of millions
Only lonely drops of rain
Reaching for an ocean

Let me sink
Don't let me swim
Let me find an empty end
When the wind that brings the storm
Makes me smile
When the storm on the horizon
Screams my fate
And I'll be put into the ground
For once
For good

I'll feel much better
When I feel not at all
When the rain becomes my flood
And nothings left to fall
This storm that was my enemy
becomes me

I do not love you except because I love you;
I go from loving to not loving you,
From waiting to not waiting for you
My heart moves from cold to fire.

I love you only because it's you the one I love;
I hate you deeply, and hating you
Bend to you, and the measure of my changing love for you
Is that I do not see you but love you blindly.

Maybe January light will consume
My heart with its cruel
Ray, stealing my key to true calm.

In this part of the story I am the one who
Dies, the only one, and I will die of love because I love you,
Because I love you, Love, in fire and blood.

I want to think that love is more than skin
As has always been my problem
I know you now
Like I knew you then
I loved you
The unloved
I've heard the song the doves cry
I've watch the clouds float swiftly by
And not a face I saw
No heaven above us all
I love you now
Like I loved you then
It's my hands
No longer touch you
It's my dreams
No longer reach you
Its my heart
No longer beating
To the rhythm of a drum
I hope that time cannot stop me
And that I make believe the truth
I feel it now

I feel it now
Like I felt it when
Your lips were artist's hands
And each color was a song
And you would say you loved me
The way that I love you
I feel it now
How it is to be on the outside
Cold and alone


It's my home
I must move on from
Its my bed
I cannot sleep
Its my heart
Now slowly beating
Now steady pounding my unease
An empty song into my brain
I hope that time is repeating
Because I see my future's pain
But I grow to doubt that I will ever know
Of joy in life again

I loved you

I hate when the world is ending
This way
Water drowns me out, my smile
I would sing my heart
If I spoke at all
But I'll never reach the edge
Like i want to
No, I dont want to feel pain
This way
Fire has it made, my smile
I would bleed my soul
If i knew at all
But I'll never see the sun
Like I want to
No, I don't want to feel pain

I dream we can do much more
This way
The man in the mirror, my smile
Stupid man in the mirror
If I looked at all
But I'll never know truth
Like I want to
No I don't want to feel pain
This way
Empty streets, empty world, my smile
Scarred skin of pleasure
If I felt at all
But I'll never feel peace
Like I want to
No, I don't want to feel pain

Only by light
Moon and star
We found our greatest dreams
To forget what they are
Is the road good?
Is the car good?
And the north star we follow
Is this our beacon?
Hollywood
The sunset boulevard
Broadway
Full of neon signs
Is the road good?
Is the car good?
Does it take me where I want to go
Or lead me to an end?

I see the swimmers in a fishbowl
Leave it underwater
Leave it there if that is what
It wants to be
Who I am
Every choice I've made
And dream I held close to my heart
And my eyes
And my skin
My god
I saw with interrupted  vision
A rainbow growing poison
A rain drop as my sleeve
My hands all wet
Who i was
Every man I'll be
These different lives at any time
And my thoughts
And my truth
My god