I’d hoped you’d come back home again
I’d hoped you’d somehow see
This love we have does have mistakes but the love is all we need
I knew I’m my head what your answer would be
But that doesn’t ease the pain it’s causing me
I’d hoped our love was strong enough to withstand the raging sea
But instead it washed your heart away and far away is where you’d rather be

He gave up again.. he threw his hands in the air and walked away .. nothing left to say

How can I get up again ..my body feels so weak ..I have so many words to say to you but none of them I speak .. i wish that I could hold you close and let you see the truth ..that there is no better place than lying next to you.. you held me close ..you made me feel at ease..please darling tell me none of this is real.. it’s just a dream ..you’re waiting for me to wake up next to you.. i smell you on my sheets... please don’t walk away my love.. my heart is here and you’re the only one for which it beats

One minute I’m up and happy on the go ..I tell myself I’ve got this I can do this on my own
Then next my head is spinning there’s no winning without you here
I’m drowning in sorrow I’m soaked with tears
I’m fighting with myself inside .. a war I’ve battled many years
Do I give up..Do I fight .. someone tell me which is right
I have no choice without you here
My mind runs through all my many fears
Don’t come close to me..No wait I need you here
One minute I’m sad and my insides all a mess.. please come back I promise to do my best
To keep you happy..To keep you near
Wait **** that ..your anger I can no longer bare
I’m meant to be alone sitting right here
Not waiting for you to show up and dry my restless tears
I’m on this roller coaster I can’t see anything clear.. I wish this ride was over.. I wish I had you here

I run in place ..I’m standing still ..trying to find out if I have the will..
Can I go on ..should I give up .. the feelings I had inside were real.. but now they’re gone and numb is how I feel.. what’s real.. can anyone tell me what I’m supposed to feel

The ice creeps up and throughout the heart you had once thawed out
Fed up and spinning about
Lashing out without a doubt
It never should have came to this .. the fighting and the shouts
The pain inside seeping out
I ******* love you I say from inside but those aren’t the words that came out
The tongue knows not what the hearts about
We tried so hard to keep the toxic out but it crept back in through the dark
You’ll always have a place in my heart as broken as it is I love you still.. the feelings i feel so deep inside are real
I’ll lock them away and visit in my dreams.. the fairy tale of what we could be.. a dream my mind wouldn’t let my heart see.. far away is what you’ll always be.. searching for a person I could never let myself see

Today it’s different
I don’t see that smile
I can’t feel that bliss
Don’t hope for that sweet kiss

You’re not the same
You’re feelings have changed it’s clear
You’d rather be anywhere but here

So I take this sip .. drink one more beer
Hoping it’s not real, it’s just the fear
It is clear.. I don’t want you here
The screaming in my ears
The tears

This is what’s real
This isn’t what I wish to feel
My heart can never heal.. with you here