hope you like this one,penned it just for you
tryed to capture your backward sentences
and their double meanings
your world spins in reverse
from end to beginning
your been there,done that, attitude
is trying on my soul,you want more
more of what,your silence,is deafning
I can only listen to your thoughts
and swim against their tides
I am not in reverse,nor looking forward
I am in the middle, in the now
and hoping this balancing act,my arms
stretched out, will catch your fall

I saw you, you were standing, on that corner, alone with your thoughts
and I wondered, what your thinking, who your missing, or which way to go
your sad eyes, they dont smile as you turn and walk away
from this distance, I want to hold you, and carees you, just one more time
to let you feel me,as i feel you,and bring that smile back to your face
if you would just turn around and see that glow from under the street lamp
you will see i'm still here

Its not the still of the night
that calms my heart
Its the memories of our
last night
the gentile touch
the glowing light
the nervous feeling
you admit
as I kiss your lips
then the surrender of
your body to me
as we fall to sleep
in perfect harmony
mercy me, I found
in you the real me

such a fragrance surrounds this room
it can only be emitted by you
that it draws me in, captures my senses
tingling anticipation, is so relentless

your smile brightens every corner of the walls
makes the occupants stand tall
glancing from afar, cursed by trepidation
do they dare to look, to see this revelation

yet your smooth steps, glide towards me
with the ease of the swaying willow tree
the softness of your angelic skin
makes me useless once again

so elegant and strong she seems
as she takes her seat
an aura of calmness surrounds me
the sweet hello from her lips
renders me weak
her intellegent thoughts
humble an ignorant man
yet her vulnerbilities she cannot hide
her words are a guiding lite for all to hear
take them, absorb them, apply them
for she wishes you all the best
I'm honored to call her my friend

there's a friend of mine
full of love and kind
when you see her
you'll know what I mean
the light baths her in a aura
of warmth and calmness
whatever troubles you
she will soothe you with her smile
her eyes watch, intense
retaining your thoughts
for another conversation.
with all that is put upon her
she stands steadfast,always listening
I know she too is hurting,her life
not perfect
as we layer our thoughts upon
one another,compare notes
our relationship will never waiver
for friendship is love without rules

may the purest of waters, cascade upon you
wash away the impurities you percive to be
take that cloth, dab them away
look in the mirror, admire the soft glow of you

some singular moment, or collection of such
should not impede, or dim that light
let the losers and cowards speak their words
they are fraught with grief, guilt, wrong turns

their pathetic lives needs a scapegoat
your just fresh meat to feast on
like a good servant, you tend to their needs
doing your best to please
then suddenly you found the control switch
and nervously turn it off

a new awakening begins in your *****
you have risen from the depths of despair
turn away, close that door
and breathe the vibrant air

such words, I must admit, have lingered in my mind
these peering eyes, watch closely, not ready to say
but the metamorphosis is yours, a beautiful soul
the worlds a richer place, when you smile upon us

In the five decades that I have walk this earth
met many a people, some happy, some sad
the liars, the fakes, the ones who manipulate
and I discard them to the cold winter wind
but in you I can feel the warmth of someone
who's has been hurt as I have, looking for
looking for , looking for, looking for, what?
our conversations lead us to reason why
without any conclusions to heal the heart
but we enjoy who we are and have become
the others who banter us, are pathetic
weak and afraid of how they've evolved
let us turn their volume way down, to mute
so we can hear the sweet melody that we emit
and know that friend to friend, I'm always here

oh, the cool mist, that hides the hills
as the morning sun, seems to create a
rainbow of colors, for half awaken eyes

in the distant, I hear the voices of those
who tend their gardens, the valley below
in hopes of a fruitfull crop

I am but an observer, to this land
a momentary guest, trying not to intrude
but in such amazment, I am of them

they seem to enjoy what seems like toil to me
yet, their chatter and songs, are full of joy
perhaps they are aware how blessed they are
to be in a place of gods making

i heard you say goodbye to me last night
cause there were no whispers of i love you
i felt you walk away from me last night
cause your touch was from a distant
i could see through the darkness your eyes
looking down at me as if you have lost everthing
and you have.

Shall I tempt you this night
with the grinning moonlight
silhouetting leaveless trees
flailing in the breeze

sprinkled across the sky
a billion star eyes
tally the winks they emit

silently ponder nature's picture
lets peel it back, take a peek
at what's beyond

run wild with anticipation
find answers to the question
then question why
and wait for a reply

naked trees stand bent
old men lay down silent death
nature's way of life


springtime serenade
bluebirds chirp morning songs
nature awakens


the clouds roll slowly
crack open their arms
the rain falle gently

like an out of tune guitar
I will tighten your heart strings
up or down, till each note is perfect

then strum me that melody inside your head
sing the words of the first line sad and blue
sing the last line lovely and true

and in between tell the story of hopes and dreams
of journeys for you and me
and let the final note forever ring

you laughed with me at these silly jokes
but I work hard telling them
my reward, how easy they make you smile
I love how the corners of your mouth
tickle your cheeks, your eyes an ecstasy squint
and if you will let me continue this silliness
I hope I can make you smile for awhile

The last strands of sunlight captures the lines
Peering at that perfect body in sheer silkness
Perfection in motion
That Sutle glance and inviting smile
Weakens the knees, subdued by medusas eyes
Try to resist to late, turned to stone
Helpless she chisels me to her desires
Smooth the rough edges my voice silent
Her fingers smooth her moisture over me
Trying to scratch my way out, she teases with delight
Those sensual eyes, are my demise
Oh you wicked one, when will you mercifully end
Then the sly smile appears, but not without one last lick
As she slithers up to me blanket in hand
Our bodies entertained ,I feel her smile all over me
And with a tandem sigh and a last sensual gasp there's a silent goodnight

as if this land is held by the palm of God
looking down high above His bluff
gently, His fingers hold the hills
grasp the shoreline, massage the golden sands

watching His creatures, scurry for their food
their dances are sometimes mesmerizing
yet how different they are from us, or are they
like them we all search for survival
whether spiritual or physical

but such a pristine sight, a perfection unmatched
has blessed me as I walk among His abundance
I feel the blistering sun of life itself
and dream of serenity under the cool nights

His gentile fingers awake me, massage my soul
grasp my mind, like a parents guidance
if I follow His light, blind to all evil
my journey will end with Him, high upon His bluff

I am just like you
pretty when  I was born
beautiful when I grew

I was just a person
walking on God's creation
living life with His certain

my color should not matter
we are the colors in His crayon box
mixed and matched, to create a splatter

as it takes form
our blood bleeds the same red
His painting of perfection has lead

to the now
the intelligence He bestowed upon us
perhaps He errored in trusting us

I can envision His hand
wiping the palate clean
a tear rolls down His mighty cheek
Heart broken from what He,s seen

I can see that twinkle in your eyes when
I sweep your hair around your ear
yet your gaze is deep and uncertant
wondering what your thinking

your arms wrap around my waist
as mine are wrapped around yours
the space between our faces oh so
dangerously close, oh so tempting

the heat giving off by our bodies
building to unrelenting passion
trying not to submit yet not wanting
to be the first to let go

holding on holding on until the fire
is too much we burn with intensity
just let our bodies melt into one
create a solar flare that travels

at the speed of light and touches
all of our universe and beyond
till i see that twinkle in your eyes
as I sweep the hair around your ear

every moment of time so precious
all the memories the mind caresses
with deep textures and colors sheen
holds hope for love to believe

even the hallow echos of darken streets
or fading silents of forgotten screams
as sorrow drips from gutter seams
holds hope for love to believe

awaken now find what you seek
this journey never peeks
the brightest path that you see
holds hope for love to believe

awaken now find what to seek
for this journey never peeks
and brightest path you see
holds hope for love to believe

through the misty haze appears a form
none of which I have seen before
so elegant the lines flow, top to bottom
my thoughts are standing-room-only
as they crowd my mind with questions
anticipating the who or what before me
silently the shape takes form, reveals itself
my lovely bride,in all your soaring elegance
are no match for the sirens of the seas
for they are but a myth, and you are here with me
take my hand, lay with me, let us begin this journey

I think I'll fall upon
My sword
Plunge it deep without
A word
Perhaps conjure up a
Whirlpool
Let it **** in everything
I knew
Or I might breathe again
Release it to the wind
Let it carry it beyond
Come gently back
Without sin
If then it leaves an inprint
On my splattered
Thoughts
I'll dab them up
Rearrange them
With my hopeful cloth
Then I'll be whole once
more
From body to spirit my
mind I can again adore
I'll paint me with colors
Each sentence I spoke
Think of days past and
forward
Be blessed that I awoke

Coming down the road
like those thousand times before
pull into the sacred grounds
I am home
The squeaky door alerts
intruders, not here not ever
your demise is imminent
I am home
the walls of the old place
echo with futures past
breaths of life whispers in my ears
I am home
The colors have changed
every crack in the floor
tells of little feet that scurry around
I am home
touch the walls, feel the laughs
from tales of living
it's warm and cozy, the ultimate blanket
I am home
a living history ripe with pain and joy
the air inside filled with memories
a lovely melody, of notes that played here
I am home
and in the quiet of the night
when the eyes wary from the day
close them for a comfort sleep
For I am home

such is that half moon
brightness above
shadow below
as if it was struggling
to be released from
its pod
gazing up at it,I sit
upon my emotional hill
wanting to reach up
wanting to erase that
shadow, to see its
full illumination
such is the feeling
I have for our love
if you let me I will
erase that shadow
that doubt, and
illuminate you
to your full brightness
such is the love I have
for you

My three words have frighten this time
So retreat to that wilderness in your mind
Were its vast and secluded devoid of time
When you peek at me from under your
Guarded rock
Your fragile emotions add more building blocks
Remember the ground won't crumble when I'm near
I'm here to coax you relieve all fear
You know I'm not a Jekyll or. Hyde
I'm the constant your guiding light
And these three words I want to say
Every night

that if I were to say, in colors gray
confusion take hold, spinning minds
can't comprehend, not black and white
what now your blurred peering eyes

energy spent, exhaustion sets in, to new
simple and plain is what you exclaim
thinking is so much work, bordom sets in
fives minutes, enough, attention wonders

straight line is the norm, the outside box
is scary, touching your comfort zone
oh, colors of gray are the base
paint over with pastels and happy hues
such rainbows are wonderous
and filled with new beginiings

with sweet intent, I shall coax a smile
with titilating words and a face awry
for such beauty should not be deprived
of ridding the angst left inside

these foolish gestures of a fool, seem insane
they're only to unlock all your constraints
for those glowing eyes and purt lips be not contained
and allow us to admire the canvass of colors you paint
remain

when a whisper turns into a rumer, no one is safe
as I remember those soft fingers and tender touch
that numb the lies

the essance of a battle, can be found in the vortex
of the combatants who's sores are scarred memories

If you feel alone on this earth you won't be
you still have your ego

If the mistakes you make multiply
you can subtract each one by love and commitment

I struggle now to remember what I was doing
I can't even open this jar, the hands, old and frail
flashbacks of my youth, a wonderfull time
holds the clock back so I can feel another day
the vastness of the universe, has me thinking
Is there another me out there, a clone if you will
wondering the same thing, as I sit in my chair
what would I tell him, that our lives are the same
every minute and hour since birth, we are in sync
or are there many in differant stages of their life
but perhaps they are thinking the same thing
and trying to reach me

We seem to be living in a perpetual state of fear
the talking heads on the **** tube provide that
to us on a daily bases
what ever happen to the trust in humanity
to love and respect one and other
I guess the new millennium faded with y2k
or is our Lord saying tag your it, lets see what you got

as I levitate my heart
to reach your mind
and the warmth you
encounter, you'll find
******

the words I whisper
into your ear
seem chrisper
when I hold you near

as your arms hold me tight
till the morning sunlight
there is peace in my mind
through out the night

I hope this letter finds you well, from the dark dispair I've heard you dwell
the words I've penned are meant to say, to calm the demons that have swelled
oh that my logic and heart felt rhymes, may crease the corners of your smiles
to let your mind divert to another time, if only for a while
for I am not a savior to take away your fears, just a friend to remind you are cared
and as you fold the letter and keep it near your *****, may your demons disappear

first your created
then born
then you see
then you talk
then you experience
then you experience
then you experience
then you break down
slowly
I don't know, I forgot
who are you, there waiting
for me
take your place in the
night sky
I'll always say goodnight
sweet dreams

some times I feel like van gogh but I like my ears
such maddening sadness and despair, over the years
have brought a drought to my tears
to the delight of the crowds that jeer

they are in my head.giggle with laughter
of course they wont appear, to take my spear
sometimes I feel like van gogh, but I like my ears

when the dawn breaks, as I gaze out the window
wondering what life to follow
lost in the sounds of natures music
too many versus to pick from, seems hectic
reality at times , slurred in colors so hollow
sometimes I feel like van gogh, but I like my ears

the left side of my mind, seems tortured
the right hears poetic melodies
flowing to the center, those constant spin my thoughts
to where I conclude
there will never be another like me
for all eternity
to finally extinguish the delighted crows laughter
and jeers
let it be known, I was once here

my flux capacitor does not have
the jigawatts to take you
to the future
so I guess your stuck with me here

The white canvass, scribbled
with sqiggly shapes
are words from my mind
my fingers seem so nimble
my thoughts perform a dance
with them
the ebb and flow of each sentence
conjures up many meanings
such is the manic, of a lonley man

a dimly lit light, a glass of shiny red
and all the voices talking at once
tell my story first, no tell mine first
whats the difference
they all end the same

her lonely silhouette, beneath that dim lite
pacing back and forth, counting cracks
I wonder what she's thinking, or waiting for

I can feel her glances, yet her pace unbroken
shall I step from my perch, offer what I can
no, I shall keep my distance, as her pace quickens

will my whisper thoughts reach her through thicken fog
as her shadows recede, passing in front of indented doors
why, I ask, my obsession of her, perhaps I see a rerun of me

the loneliness of despair, can be relentless
one's failure of being, tormenting
mistakes and accomplishment, neutralize the heart
the strength of one's soul, defines us
even in the dense fog of one's mind

may I tell you when I look into your eyes, I see a light
with such a glow of a future , of love and delight
when I reach for your heart, you cup your hand over it
as your finger softly touches my lips and you whisper
this is not the time for this, my emotions have disappeared

then I will bide my time, like the roots of a dormant rose
and wait for the spring thaw, to entice you once more
and as the warming of the sun, wills my petals open
I will grace you with my fragrance of forever love

lost
a vile word
tells were you,ve
been
confusion
right or wrong
does it matter
lonliness
the only star
in the sky
helpless
when all emotions
seek to exist
love
the only feeling
thats pure

I shall remember yesterday, when today
goes away
cause my heart still yearns, for what I crave
the words you spoke, whispers to my ears
have me broken down into tears

I guess tomarrow starts a new chapter
for my life
but the pages are numberless, no end in sight
believe in yourself, one passage says
another proclaims, it was ment to be, I guess

was I swayed to think, when two people fall
in love
that there was nothing that we can't rise above
but the winds of time and space, have no feelings
when they calm, and you realize, you've been
unseated

so I shall remember yesterday, when today goes away
cause my heart still yearns, for what I thought I craved
the words you spoke, are now just whispers in my ears
yet they still  have broken me into tears

you reached you hand into the bucket
and lucky number seven, was your pick
my lucky day, good as gold, was your
thought
but to keep that gold from tarnish
a good polish is required
when your midas touch
could not produce more shine
you drop your pick
into your mind machine
to wash it clean
perhaps you need a wash
to clean your ego or
your shiny lucky seven
may see how dull you are

i know your heart will tell you when your in love
and your eyes will see whom your in love with
your feelings will verify what your eyes have seen
and that touch you felt will last forever in your soul

an awakening has happened, an aura surrounds you
the sadness you felt is repeled, and in its place
only the warmth of love consumes you, for you are free

remember not that has happened before, clean that slate
let the canvas of a new life stare blank at you
then you draw the lines and fill in the colors and trace
every emotion you may have for you new love

and with time it will become a masterpiece

to begin each day with a yawn and a smile
is a blessing
to rise from your bed and feel your toes
is a double blessing
to love and be loved
is a gift from above
spread it around

your last laugh, on this silent night
will shackle you with the coming light
that figure walks away, to your delight
but in the dawn you wonder, just what might

such is the day, with the brightess sunshine
as your heart drips, feelings of pine
"what have I done, oh treacherous mind"
for another like him, I shall never find

let them be children
let them be friends
for they don't see colors
of one's skin

let them chatter and laugh
talk of what matters to them
oblivious, one hopes
from the adult's sins

let them be innocent, for
many sunsets
let their curious eyes
be always open
let us foolish and bitter adults
recognize our time has past
fill them with our knowlege
we send

The charm of the piano scales
Awaken the morning from night
As the flute and its butterfly sound
Flutters in the Suns warm sunlight
The clarinets jazzy phrases awaken
Our senses as the bass notes rumble
Shaking our bones apart
The cellos sad and lonley laments
say retreat
Yet high above violins tug at the heart
The glory of a new days anticipation
And the uncertainties it may bring
Let the music in our step and mind
Create the perfect song and hold off
Insanity till it's the moons time

oh my america, I'm trying to understand
how far we,ve come, since we step onto
these sands
we stole from the originals,at the barrel
of the gun
as they offered up their bounty, taught us
about this land
the whiteness of our ancestors, so mighty
they felt
with the good book to guide them, their
pain was delt
dressed in your perfect attire, your regimented
theme
you scorch the land, as the children screamed
round them up again, different colors,
different chains
suppress them once more, as they tend to your
flowers
their dream was to come here, not live in constant
cower
yet prejudice of the past, still remains
the good book and all its glory
interpreted by humans, to fit their stories
yet the shiny star is not so bright
perhaps its starting to fade into history
like every parent whose children misbehave
He will give us time to correct our mistakes
His patience seems forever, such glory of Him
but one wave of His hand, even he might concede
lets try this again

so beautiful is your touch as it glides along my cheek
so soothing are your eyes gazing down upon me
a feeling of tranquility has overtaken my body, easing the pain
your whispers are like songs of the sirens, tickling my ears with love
and as my eyes close to sleep,your bodywill be my blanket of warmth

Oh don't fret my lady
Those half truths of me you hear
Are their sutle rage of jealousy
Those old suitors that have failed you
The ones that neglected your full lips
Their words try to sway your demeanor is cold
They were blind to your Raven hair
That sculpts your face and loving smile
Their quest was one thing the rest they didn't care
Through your misty eyes I see a constant light
One of hope and happiness not a curse of midnight
So I shall throw you a line tie it off
I will guide you
our boats will adrift and dock at loves
Harbor of delight
There we can mingle our mind
Share laughter and smiles
Slowly erase the past from our chalkboard minds
and exhaustion sets in from the days conversation and all the half truth
From others have been extinguished
may I say oh don't fret my lady
For I am your anchor and you our rope
Just give me the signal  release your rope my anchor will rise set us afloat

Now is not the time, my love
to besiege me with your lies
for i still mourn, my love
your ruthless goodbyes

you have awaken the beast in your heart
and you must tame him as you once did me
tread lightly, though, beware of his dark
with this new life you seek

now is not the time, my love
to besiege me with your lies
for i still mourn, my love
your ruthless goodbyes

Dont stretch me out too much my Lord
you are always on my mind
guide me to that promise land
to enjoy the fruits of your labor
and i will reciprocate in kind

you gave me the devil and
i hope you took him away

for i am not perfect, my sins i
cant hide from you
your forgivness for your chidren
is a constant
please hear me as you always do
my love for you is forever as yours is for me
amen