You crossed your fingers
and bet on me
to win place or show
guess I was obvious
something to see

through the many races
around the track
you upped the anty
strength came from you
and I never look back

there were some victories
and sorrow defeats
but my endurance never wavered
cause at each finish
win, place, or show
We get to meet again

don't worry bout me, as I pass away
your passion of sorrow, as I lay dead
is noted, not believable, but noted
as your heartfill tears, seem genuine
your left hand, wipes them away

looking up at you, I wish I could smile
seeing the guilt you must feel
wondering, if all you put me through
would it change if I was resurrected

but souls like you, are common
shallow beings, ******* off the love
the ones that trusted you, are discarded
like dust in the wind, you'll plant your
seed, cultivate the newbees, who have
no clue

lost
a vile word
tells were you,ve
been
confusion
right or wrong
does it matter
lonliness
the only star
in the sky
helpless
when all emotions
seek to exist
love
the only feeling
thats pure

spread out, oh, blacken canopy
let the twinkles of design shapes
and mysteries
capture my thoughts on this night
wintry night
the helpless branches, reach for the earth
as if to find the radiant glow of warmth
but the ground is in a sleepy slumber
in winters months
the slightest wind leaves me in a shivering
exhaustion
the numbing of fingers, non blinking eyes
a caution
enter your abode to warm
winters whiteness paints the earth pure
once more
let the sprinkle of green, encourage our hearts
the newness of spring,the rebirth it brings
finds your happy melody,you can once
again sing

In the five decades that I have walk this earth
met many a people, some happy, some sad
the liars, the fakes, the ones who manipulate
and I discard them to the cold winter wind
but in you I can feel the warmth of someone
who's has been hurt as I have, looking for
looking for , looking for, looking for, what?
our conversations lead us to reason why
without any conclusions to heal the heart
but we enjoy who we are and have become
the others who banter us, are pathetic
weak and afraid of how they've evolved
let us turn their volume way down, to mute
so we can hear the sweet melody that we emit
and know that friend to friend, I'm always here

Tonight under this full moon
Let its light guide me to my room
We're there I can escape to my mind
Let my feelings be secure at what I find
For I am not a god nor an Adonis
I'm not weak or strong but honest
If I love you I would never leave you
If you hurt me take my wounds with you for they are your scars to remember me by
And when all the doors you knock on have open and shut in an instant
Perhaps those who've answered have your picture posted no entrance
by now you don't understand what you've done
because in your world your always number one
perhaps you'll finally realize that number one is a lonley number
the rest of us is the sum of everything to come adios

it seems like an eternity
for me to have this chance
to let my feelings be revealed
not knowing how you'll feel
not caring, cause this is it
been treading emotional
waters since we met, wondering
there you are, here I am
do you notice, cause I sure do
are you my savior, nah, I don't know
but a sneak in the bushes
or behind the old barn
may cure all that ails me,and that
would be fine
when you see this prose,I hope
your not alarmed,cause this is it
it's all I got, I'm sure you'll understand

droplets dangle from green tongues
fall silent  absorbed by earth
moisten its softness  happy feet

the early spring night ,the sunsets back glow
enhances the puff of clouds slow fade
and I think of you
the torrents of thoughts that flood my mind
makes it hard to navigate my feelings so true
may I ask you to come on this journey with me
let us go to places out of the norm
take that left turn and somehow it will be right
oh,if you can see into my mind,what I have planned
you will understand,
I'm not a messiah nor a pagan god, just a man
who sees a life without you as a dry, empty desert

an old man once told me, a straight line bends at the horizon
what illusion you pick to follow is your destiny

may I tell you when I look into your eyes, I see a light
with such a glow of a future , of love and delight
when I reach for your heart, you cup your hand over it
as your finger softly touches my lips and you whisper
this is not the time for this, my emotions have disappeared

then I will bide my time, like the roots of a dormant rose
and wait for the spring thaw, to entice you once more
and as the warming of the sun, wills my petals open
I will grace you with my fragrance of forever love

and as you stand before me
so naked against the night sky
every curve, so perfect
as if sculpted from the gods
of ancient times
so awe I was, at your beauty
I bowed to you as you past by

I dream of you every night
remembering the loving glance
your look was saying, I was next

so take me, my lady, for I am yours
do as you will, lap everything I spill
and when you awake, in my arms
its foreever

The peril of writing poetry
Is not only to release your thoughts
But not let your thoughts put in peril
The words you write

we'll build a moment
create an explosion
melt the ice between us
our toes will wade
in waters hence
shock us to our senses
fall to our knees, embrace
and breathe
nothing else matters, no needs
except our selfish pleas

can I be the tree, filled with fruit
pluck one, taste the sweetness and
if you so desire, taste them all

can I be the warmth that soothes
your cold heart, of lost lovers
fading into the rust of your memories

can I be the promise of something new
a new melody from some lost song
the tingling of the suns rays upon you
in the hopes to lift your head up
to see we are not them, we are
you and I

and then I heard, it through the whispers of the wind
and imagined myself there
all the places I dreamed of appeared
a new life begins
I can now pull the hurting arrows from my heart
feed them to the fire
hear them reduced to ash,deposit them heretofore
no more doubt, step with pride, I am me, reborn

The illumination of desperation
Leads to desecration
What I seek to hell with the weak
This is mine to keep
There's things I lack try to interact
Don't fight it no ones got your back
I live for survival eliminate all rivals
Born an outcast each day diabolical
The torment and shame the beatings and pain
Never knowing what I've done drove me insane
I ponder looking through the bars
Doing twenty to life
If only I was wanted and loved
I could have been a shining light

time is constant, yet can stand still, I'm told
so the seconds tick away, oh so slow
I am not who I was an hour ago
even if you think you know

so put away your judgement mind
listen to the facts, and you may find
that He will define all of mankind

YOUR SANITY
When saddness  clutches your heart
and your mind knows not were to start
when every sound and touch evades
look into my eyes,I'll be your sanity
remade

If dispair brings fear and many tears
your search for truth only disapears
when every sound and touch evades
look into my eyes, I'll be your sanity
remade

Your eyes watch what your words say
to others, yet keep them at bay
you wonder if your in this life to stay
look into my eyes, I'll be your sanity
remade

The newness of the morns chattering birds
start a new beginning, melts away the hurts
hope is always in you, it never goes away
look into my eyes, I'll be your sanity
remade