lost
a vile word
tells were you,ve
been
confusion
right or wrong
does it matter
lonliness
the only star
in the sky
helpless
when all emotions
seek to exist
love
the only feeling
thats pure

you tame me with those azure eyes
your voice cuddles my hurting heart
yet that distant stare is not for me
am I absent from your mind
does my old age erode the memories
of you and I in our youth
for time is constant, relentless ticks
I have been soften, my sturdy roots
weaken, the insects of life slowly feast
just toss me in the compost pile
let the monarch pick up my ashes
deposit me onto a ****** flower
its petals open to the warm sun
and the circle will be complete

should I open the door
or answer my phone
will they take me away
are they listening
small flying machines, silent
so high up
all I did was say hello
I'm the target now, don't speak
are hand gestures ok
or perhaps lip sync, no they know
mental torment, fear, armageddon
all I did was say hello

fingerprints leave white marks
skin revives it's color
scratch away the scars
dead cells flake to a pile
do I bleed new life
into old wounds
let it flow to the same
road map in my heart
always making the left turn
afraid of the right
cauterize my senses
numbness, your eyes
hypnotize, plop me up
I am your puppet
be gentile with my arms
when you spew your evil rants
my stitches will unravel
leave a pile neath your feet
sweep them up, toss them
in the bin, and then look
within and see ????????

the beauty of the sunset, will be the last warm
thought I have of you
the last measures of mozart, his beautiful sonata
will end my song for you
the dew that sets upon the evening petals
evaporates with the memories of you
the time and energy that I have exhausted
reaching out for you
will hide behind the dark side of the moon

there's a friend of mine
full of love and kind
when you see her
you'll know what I mean
the light baths her in a aura
of warmth and calmness
whatever troubles you
she will soothe you with her smile
her eyes watch, intense
retaining your thoughts
for another conversation.
with all that is put upon her
she stands steadfast,always listening
I know she too is hurting,her life
not perfect
as we layer our thoughts upon
one another,compare notes
our relationship will never waiver
for friendship is love without rules

like scattered clouds that fall
into horizon's abyss
so are my thoughts of you

my feelings for you race
over the waterfalls
to be tossed and turned
and end up in deep cold
darkness

night tears trace the contours
of my cheek, dripping
only to evaporate with the
morning sun

dawn inspires hope again
that today will be ours
dusk is the lamp shade
to another lonely night