Words expressed to the one I love
Selectively picked just for you
To show I am here
Now
Tomorrow
For all time

Placed together and presented to you
With an understanding of your past pain
To give comfort
Belief
Healing
For love

Letting you know,  no matter what
To the extent you determine
At the parameters you define
I am yours
At your command
No limits

These were not just words to me
I thought you knew that
I thought you could see
My heart
In your hands
No protection

But to my shock and dismay
No sooner did I give the words to you
Did you turn and give them away
Wow
****
How can this be

You say there was a different context
And I just don't understand
When you said the words to her
They didn't mean the same
Really
Huh
For real

"In Any Capacity"....hmmmm
The meaning seems quite plain
If there is another definition
I wish you would explain
In
Any
Capacity

Regardless what the reason
This is what I assume
You had to give the words away
Because you hurt too much to consume
Them
What they meant
That they were for you

If you knew that you were worthy
If you knew what their meaning could bestow
You wouldn't have thrown away these words
For someone you barely know
Devalued
Defiled
That which you feared

© Tina Thompson

My love is transforming
No longer fixated
Moving beyond
Preconceived notions

The catalyst has occurred
Metamorphosis begun
An altered state
Of heightened awareness

Bursting from it's cocoon
It has evolved
No longer stifled
By your acceptance

It has mutated
Regenerated
Fortified it's being
In Self.

© Tina Thompson

Voluntary abandonment of self
The offering
Surrendered,  Often suffered
Daily suppression
Repressed depressions
The stimulating surge for another's light
The refuge and the motivator
Demonstratively strong, innate or acquired
Inner beauty enhanced through struggle
Outer beauty revealed
in the journey of each line and curve
Made better with time

Reemerging

Stepping into confidence
Unapologetic
Wisdom gained, lessons learned
Archived in her cerebrum repository
Self discovery, discernibly aware
With nothing to lose
Bashfulness dismissed
Enlivening pleasures
Guiding and coaxing another to please
Self satisfying if need
An awakened spirit rebounds
An eager voice is found

A woman

Over 40

Blazing anew.


© Tina Thompson

The sounding alarm starts the frenzy
I hurry myself to shower and dress
Slowing just for a moment
To strategically place fragrant surprises
For later explorations.

Accelerating with all urgency
I weave through the blockade of traffic
Risking it all to preserve
Each second, each minute, every moment of time
For my waiting infatuation

Flushes of excitement consume me
As I near my destination
I am overwhelmed with pulsating urges
As I search for a way to impress you
Show advanced appreciation

Welcomed with a sensual eagerness
Each of us knowing and wanting
I ask "Can I play you a tune?"
A Love song plays to a faintness
As you bring me to satisfaction

Then,

Ascending to kiss me softly
You wish me a good day at work.
Wiping excess from your chin
You smile and say "See you tomorrow."

© Tina Thompson

I got so use to not
     breathing you know...

Suspended in parallel dimensions.
Living in the Past, ignoring Present existence.
Conflicting realities and skewed perception.
Indefinitely waiting your return and attention.

...........................Gasp......................­...........


© Tina Thompson

The Truth
in the company
of lies.

A Tangible force
among
vague lives.

A Renegade
observing the
herd follow.

Burgeoning
away from
the swallow.

A Square in
a round World

Am I.


© Tina Thompson

The questions....

Was I a fool?
     To believe I would marry for life
     And watch gray hairs grow in as your wife.

Am I stubborn?
     To rebuke insincere words that are said
     From men whose only plan is to get you in bed.

Am I missing out?
     Being selfless and placing my needs all on hold
     Providing shelter and love 'til my daughter grows old.


The Answer.....

What I am is a woman
As God designed me to be.
To desire one man
And nurture family.

I am courageous and bold
Dismissing lies that are sold.
I am strong;  I am wise
And will not compromise.


The result.....

I am proud with my head held high in the sky
My truth now shines in my sweet daughter's eyes.

© Tina Thompson

Do not stop to question or even ask why.
Aerate your mind with these words blowing by.

I Love You!

Inhale the innocent aroma; Taste the sweetness that was felt.
Take a sip and let it linger; Swallow letting your heart melt.

*Be Mine.