STOP THESE FEELINGS

Feeling trapped with no where to go
I wish I had feelings of happiness to show
Depressed, anxious and raging, too
Some may ask, “what else is new?”

They say time heals all wounds
A cliché like “the man in the moon”
I may try to let it all go
But it still feels as badly as stubbing my big toe

Work through your problems they say
I have been trying that every **** day
Stay positive and keep going straight
As if that can stop it at a faster rate

Journaling, poetry and prayer help on the days
In which I feel the likes of rot and decay
Escaping this world seems the only way out
For some people it always seems the quickest route

I dream of finally finding everlasting peace
But the suicidal thoughts need to cease
I have to remember God has a plan
I’ve got to stay here just as long as I can

SLEEPLESSNESS

I try my best to fall asleep at a decent hour
Yet, sometimes it seems I don’t have the power
No matter how hard I give it a try
Something always stops me and makes me want to cry

I have tried all the tricks in the book
If you only knew how many hours it took
Counting sheep, counting backward, or saying prayers
Nothing seems to work-I’m pulling out my hair

When I finally do fall asleep at night
My dreams always wake me with a horrid fright
Running, running, running but staying in one place
It’s as though I am stuck and will never win the race

Oh, how I wish I could dream of happier things to come
Instead of trying to get away from these things in which I run
I am mentally exhausted and need a good sleep
I feel like a bag of bones lying down in one large heap

There is always tomorrow I constantly say
I need some help-so I begin to pray
Dear Lord, help me make this pain go away
If you do, once I fall asleep, I know I will be okay

MARCH ARRIVES

Winter’s gone
Spring dawns

Leaves sprout
Blooms mount

Scents permeate
Children recreate

Adults mowing
Swings going

Dogs play
Cats foray

Warmer days
Longer rays

Summer soon
Beginning June

Laughter echoes
Bird crows

Picnics start
Popsicle carts

Pink lemonade
Ending days

Doors close
Ending prose

MY LITTLE FRIEND

Have you ever just stopped to watch a hummingbird?
You have to do it quietly as not to be heard
Approach with caution and make not a move
Until Mother Nature calls you; then it’s time-make your move

On a limb high above the ground
A hummingbird is perched making no sound
Suddenly the hummingbird leaves its resting place
It flies in front of you as it shows you both its beauty and its grace

Wings are flapping as fast as they can
Reminding you of the spinning blades of a summertime fan
Chirping is heard as it begins to move away
You can only imagine what it is trying to say

You see it hover over a bright red flower
Its wings flapping away with so much power
Its beak begins to pierce the flower’s center
Spreading the pollen as it begins to enter

It’s such an amazing show to stand by and see
As it competes for this same flower with a nearby bumble bee
Take time out of your day to watch the hummingbirds
And, you just might be at a loss for any sort of words

MISTY AND FAITH

Misty, it was just the other day you were well
Jumping and playing; no one could tell
You got sick so quickly my little girl
You can’t leave me now my blessed pearl

You are the gem of my heart
On a strict regiment we will embark
No more fatty foods or even treats
We need to get this condition quickly beat

I will start slowly so you understand
Giving you pills to take by my loving hand
I know they are big, but swallow them if you can
And, if you get too warm sit by the blowing fan

Someday soon you will forget you were sick
I will be watching the clock as it chimes and ticks
You see, we have time on our side
To get through the roughest of tides

I have prayed to both St Francis and to God
I patiently wait for both their heads to nod
To acknowledge our prayers have in fact been heard
Get well my little angel as we wait for God’s healing words

HOOTY HOO’S

Every night Misty and I take our walk
Walking ever so quickly as we have our talk
From tree to bush to rock we go
Sniffing to see who’s been by-she has to know

Overhead I hear the familiar sounds
Of two owls making their daily rounds
They have come to know Misty and I
Always waiting for us with a close, close eye

Hoo Hoo, you can hear them say
Just to let Misty and I know they are okay
I ask to see them in their silent flight
As if to honor me, they fly by just like a lost kite

Smooth, quiet and graceful as they soar
From tree to tree me always wanting to see more
They trust Misty and I as we wander by
I always make it a habit to just say “hi”

On our way home, they hoot some more
A language all their own I’ve learned to adore
I call them my special Hooty Hoo’s
The perfect nickname for these owls I knew

MY SISTER SUE

We were so close in our ages
Some would’ve called us twins
Like two paragraphs on a page
One ends while the other one begins

Your life ended tragically and much too soon
I’m left without you-looking for a new way to begin
The sun still rises as does the moon
Sometimes I feel it’s just a race to see who’s gonna win

The pain is still alive within me
I know you’d want me to let it go
I try, dear sister, as I get down on one knee
Praying to the loving God I’ve now come to know

I wish I could hear your voice once more
Even if it’s to yell at me to get back on my feet
Your death shook me to my inner most core
I’m so sorry you felt such bitter defeat

I’ll keep looking up to the sky for you
Just send me a sign
I will never ever forget you Sue
Just knowing that; I should be fine