I just want my skin to feel like mine again

thankyou for making me feel something
i just wish it was less painful

You make me feel like me,
You make me laugh,
You make me comfortable,
You make me safe,
You make me love,
and that is why you terrify me,
I thought this part of me was lost years ago.

Breathe,
Look at the sky,
Feel the dust settle,
Feel the wind between your fingerprints.
Life hurts,
But I'd never give up this earth,
When right now,
It is turning for me.

Dances in the kitchen at 3:43 AM,
Water fights in the garden,
Kisses in the sheets,
Holding hands in the streets,
Listening to each others heartbeat,
Till we fall sleep,
Baking competitions,
And awful song renditions,
Late night stargazing,
Singing in the raining.
Love has never felt so sweet.

you tell me to speak my,
whilst stitching my lips together,
and then ask why my screams are so muffled.

I never thought I'd live to see the day,
where I would smile a real smile,
and say I'm okay,
and mean it.
Yet here I am.