you honestly make me feel amazing
I tell you what I do when I break down,
and you don't judge.
You told me that you would always be here and that you'll help me get through this step by step
thank you so much for that.
It is making me more confident that I will get better.
You are the one who told me to actually get help
and I did!
thank you so much for that.
I know for a fact that you will help me get through everything and you will
catch me when I fall.
We will be there for each other
thank you so much for that
-te

Thoughts take over
Tears fall down my face
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"I'm doing it again, I don't know what to do..help me!"
"Just try to forget about what's bothering you!
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"Its not that easy"
"Well stop what you're doing! It doesn't make things better"
"To me it does.."
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"I find what you're doing nasty and pointless,just do something to get you're mind off of it. Talk to someone!"
(I'm trying to talk to you but you find what I'm doing nasty..thanks for the help)
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"I stopped"
"Good,don't do it again"
I can't promise that..
-te

someone who can take care of me,
through all these emotions,
like the rough and calm waves of the ocean.
through thick and thin,
before my head starts to spin.
see me at my worst
and be able to take care.
care of me and my fragile skin
not be annoyed from my mood swings
and give my heart wings.
-te

I don't want to fall for you just yet

I don't know if I'm ready to put all my trust into someone
someone new.

I don't know if I'm ready to open up my heart and soul to someone
someone new.

I don't know if I'm ready to deal with another heartbreak because of someone

Someone new that likes me
-te

I love music that numbs my brain
makes me forget about things for a while
seems better that way

smile**
forcing that smile throughout the day
once I get home
the tears pour
pour like a waterfall
how am I able to cope
I want to go elope
off somewhere
where no one can find me
where no one is
let me leave
let me escape from all this
misery
im dying here
dying inside this world
I want help
I need help..
I don't want to be here anymore..
-te

im crying
im hurting
im sad
im tired

im crying
so much
im hurting
everywhere
im sad
non-stop
im tired
of everything

-te