If you keep completely still
you may never connect
experience something real
or have some effect.

I try and keep my distance
from each and every one
but they still show persistence
still need me to have their fun.

I would rather sit alone
without companion by my side
still trying to atone
and still trying to hide.

Lost in my own world
my shattered dream
lying in a ball curled
only caring for my needs.

No grasp of reality
no universe of my own
still looking for some clarity
so I can say I've grown.

I lost myself again
I became part of them
all those lost souls
connected by a web
each playing some role
hanging by a thread
looking for recognition
claiming we are unique
but with every proposition
someone else's words we speak
so why are you reading this?
you already know the punchline
I could seal it with a kiss
my body and soul are online
sold to the highest bidder
minus the commission
yet none of us are winners
as nobody listens
we are all just echo's
travelling through space
I've already let go
of my dignity and grace
a hybrid that's part machine
drip fed by strangers
on celebrity culture we feed
we are all now vampires
taken by the night
we have become digital liars
afraid of the light.

*Yet I see this web we're caught in
just don't know how to escape
so like you I'm still courting
trapped by my own fate.

I was told when you meet her you will know
it's true now I've felt your glow
I never want to let you go
and yet the more I draw you close
the more you pull away
that's what hurts the most
why won't you stay?

Like hourglass sand
trickling through the fingers of my hand
wasted time that's past
for nothing in this life lasts
so lets hold onto what's special
as tomorrow could be celestial
let me be your lasting breath
or forever live in regret
as I watch your sunset.

Life is wasted on the youth
as only experience reveals the truth
that time only marches forward
so forget the moments that were awkward
forget all the stupid arguments
the silly little accidents
the thoughtless carelessness
because love is permanent.

Some call them the one
because they are comparable to no one
and yet one is singular
but love is all encompassing
from the moment it's begun
till there's no more sun
Love transcends time and space
it forgets blame and disgrace
disregards gender or race.

Love is long suffering
for it endures all things
not just the good days
but also the bad
not only the praise
but also the sad
and so I still pray
no longer for me
but so you can see
that you can experience
loves warm glow
then you will be fearless
then you will know.

Life is just one big mistake
but its how we deal with the ones we make
what chances we take
and those we forsake.

All I can offer is my advice
from my experience
because I've paid the price.
So be wiser than me
for I didn't listen
this you can see
that life has no guarantees.

Try to always do your best
for life isn't practice
this is the test
there are no second chances
no reboot or delete
so make sure you pass this
instead of suffering defeat.

Don't waste time accumulating your stack
for what you waste now you will never get back.
Love somebody with your whole heart
and don't let anyone tear it apart
or trample upon your dreams
don't settle for the milk
when you can have the cream.
Remember you can't change the past
so live your life now
and make those memories last.

Treat everyone as your equal
because we are imperfect people
all Adam's sinners
we all started as just beginners
allowed to run lifes race
by the beauty of God's grace
we all make our own choices
no one else can force us
so don't be easily led astray
as life eternal awaits
and that's forever and a day.

Search for me in the morning
search for me at night
search for me without warning
for I am out of sight.

Hidden in plain view
hidden from your eyes
look for me all anew
so I no longer have to hide.

I am a ghost writer
for my troubled past
I still try to hide her
though you still ask.

To pen a full confessional
to reveal every flaw
let me pretend to be the fool
stop asking me for more.

For I am the secret keeper
the holder of the key
even though you still seek her
she remains within me.

I told you once that I loved you
but now you're with someone else
even though my words are still true
I've put my heart back on the shelf.

I still think you're beautiful
but can't tell you that anymore
even though my world you still rule
I replay your response from before.

Never had the chance to hold you tight
yet I still said all will be ok
and now that you're out of sight
those words I still want to say.

For out of sight isn't out of mind
and out of love isn't out of heart
in the deepest place your name is signed
till the day that I depart.

Because I can no longer say it
I will write the truth
and one day you may read it
that I still love you.