Theia: Poems

May 2020 · 103

where

Theia May 2020

where

where
did you find
the strength
and
can you share it
with me?

May 2020 · 92

j

Theia May 2020

j

my heart is
a full moon

can you feel me
shining
on you?

May 2020 · 144

lingering

Theia May 2020

lingering

stayed in bed
longer
this morning
to savor
my daydreams
of you

Apr 2020 · 80

vanishing man

Theia Apr 2020

vanishing man

reaching
for you

in focus
and out

your closeness
fleeting

hearts
bleeding

my
vanishing man

Apr 2020 · 73

i will have you

Theia Apr 2020

i will have you

without your voice
i hear you

without your presence
i feel you

in dreams
i see you

and
one day
i will
have
you

Apr 2020 · 83

mine

Theia Apr 2020

mine

poisoned
by my own mind

i never even tried
to make you mine

Apr 2020 · 73

did i

Theia Apr 2020

did i

did i
come to my senses
too late?

Mar 2020 · 79

realizing the fear

Theia Mar 2020

realizing the fear

i've now
realized the fear
of every newlywed

because

now i know
i married
the wrong person

Mar 2020 · 76

my heart

Theia Mar 2020

my heart

how can
one person
break one heart
this many times

Mar 2020 · 73

separation

Theia Mar 2020

separation

your insult
today
stoked my core

evoking
anger
guilt
indignation

sadness

separation

Mar 2020 · 70

my anger

Theia Mar 2020

my anger

the ringing
of my anger

can't be dampened
other than
with time

like
sound waves
spreading
dissolving

one day
i'll be
ok

Mar 2020 · 72

you don’t see me

Theia Mar 2020

you don’t see me

i hate you
for how you make me feel
and for
how you
don’t see me
at all

Mar 2020 · 64

lonely

Theia Mar 2020

lonely

everyone
i thought i had
are now gone

hopes
drooping
lonely
veil

Mar 2020 · 66

freedom

Theia Mar 2020

freedom

freedom
feels empty
when i hold it
in my hands

Mar 2020 · 64

receding

Theia Mar 2020

receding

and i know
tomorrow
my anger
will recede
leaving only regret

and
it's really
the worst

Mar 2020 · 66

swallowed

Theia Mar 2020

swallowed

feels like
my head
keeps slipping down
beneath the water

swallowed
by the void

Mar 2020 · 105

your flower

Theia Mar 2020

your flower

with every whispered word
every glance

you transform me

i am watching myself
bloom

i am
your flower

Mar 2020 · 55

wavering

Theia Mar 2020

wavering

we are wavering
daily
between love and hate

how can these things
transform
into one another
with such ease?

not sure
how much more
my heart can take

Mar 2020 · 96

waves

Theia Mar 2020

waves

the anger
turned heavy

this morning
waves
of sadness

are drowning me

Mar 2020 · 45

fuck you, etc.

Theia Mar 2020

*******, etc.

i know i lied

but
so
did
you

(now i know)

and you tried
to make me
the villain

so
****
you

Mar 2020 · 86

agreed?

Theia Mar 2020

agreed?

i'm cheating
on you
you're cheating
on me

what
a
coincidence

did we just
agree?

Mar 2020 · 100

actions

Theia Mar 2020

actions

i want
your actions
to fulfill
my dreams

Mar 2020 · 60

us

Theia Mar 2020

us

a love too big
to understand

a life too short
to embrace

my patience too thin
to wait

Mar 2020 · 86

my despair

Theia Mar 2020

my despair

over time
your touch
became
my enemy

over time
my love
became
despair

Mar 2020 · 48

our table

Theia Mar 2020

our table

i like flipping tables
and
i know you do, too

but
do me a favor
and don't flip ours

Mar 2020 · 62

doubt

Theia Mar 2020

doubt

oh, how quickly
hope wanes
replaced immediately
by
bitter
doubt

Mar 2020 · 116

memories & daydreams

Theia Mar 2020

memories & daydreams

memories
and
daydreams

both like smoke
elusive
and fading

my heart
always grasping
for more

will our story
be told
in a dream
or a future memory?

is one
more real
than the other?

Mar 2020 · 60

searching

Theia Mar 2020

searching

i'm searching
aimlessly
even though
i know where
to find
you

Feb 2020 · 73

me

Theia Feb 2020

me

i did everything
for you
so now
i don’t know me

Feb 2020 · 49

pints

Theia Feb 2020

pints

my feelings
of despair
muted
pint after pint

Feb 2020 · 53

dream

Theia Feb 2020

dream

you're my dream

i'm not sure
if this is the kind of dream

that can be real
or that can never be real

Feb 2020 · 112

3 years

Theia Feb 2020

3 years

3 years ago
i cried on a bathroom floor

(that was the first time i cheated on you)

my freedom
scared me
but

now
it sustains me

Feb 2020 · 80

still

Theia Feb 2020

still

still want you
still waiting

maybe i should have
left you
alone

Feb 2020 · 104

authentic

Theia Feb 2020

authentic

you think
your irreverence
makes you authentic

actually
it makes you
stupid

Feb 2020 · 213

savored moments

Theia Feb 2020

savored moments

getting to know you in pieces
little glimpses
through your windows

these savored moments
the seeds
of the future

Feb 2020 · 67

space

Theia Feb 2020

space

i finally gave myself
enough space
to miss you

Jan 2020 · 74

new moon

Theia Jan 2020

new moon

intentions of
freedom
passion
purpose
warmth
balance
peace

Jan 2020 · 82

your look

Theia Jan 2020

your look

recently
you have been giving me
a look
that so deeply
resonates
and tells me
truly
that
i don't know you
anymore

Jan 2020 · 49

you are

Theia Jan 2020

you are

you are
my entitlement
ownership
spread from my heart
connections
i cannot control
future
inevitable

Jan 2020 · 49

in between

Theia Jan 2020

in between

the reality
we allow

the reality
we need

i'm stuck
in between

Jan 2020 · 69

away

Theia Jan 2020

away

my
imperfection
& impatience

i expect
will drive you away

just trying
to speed it up

Jan 2020 · 45

yearn

Theia Jan 2020

yearn

your words
like music

your voice
is mute

my ears
yearn

Jan 2020 · 46

you stopped

Theia Jan 2020

you stopped

you stopped
short of the line

that i desperately wanted
you to cross

i'll still
wait
a little longer

Jan 2020 · 96

but free

Theia Jan 2020

but free

fragmented
but free

a fresh step
up a lonely hill

yea, it's scary
but
i'm free

Jan 2020 · 47

Jan 2020 · 45

i am me

Theia Jan 2020

i am me

working through
grief
of us

starting to see
a blue sky
where my freedom
purifies me

where the air
i breathe
is nourishing

where i
am
me

Jan 2020 · 98

shattered

Theia Jan 2020

shattered

devastation
doesn’t quite say how deep
this shattering
of my life
is

Jan 2020 · 49

ok

Theia Jan 2020

ok

i know
we will be ok
but
right now
i’m not ok

Jan 2020 · 63

lonely

Theia Jan 2020

lonely

i’m lonely with you
but
i’ll be lonely without you

Jan 2020 · 60

more sad

Theia Jan 2020

more sad

now that
we both know

it suddenly
seems
more sad
more lonely

too real