thehighermind

thehighermind Oct 2017

paying homage,
to the days on replay,
paying homage,
by turning up in the morning.

being up in here,
looking like a funeral,

party of one,
coffin for one.

Wrap this up for me,
before i visit another one.

thehighermind Sep 2017

Scribbles of misery

Take me to a place
To a fantasy
Where there is only you and me
Sparking up a King Kong finger
Under the palm tree
Bozing to our hearts content
Listen to the wave
Because I wanna get as high with you
Till everything
Came crashing
Like the waves
That eventually destroys the beach

And now underneath that palm tree
Stay under there
Because like the waves
You destroyed me

thehighermind Sep 2017

Moving on

We came
We saw
We conquer
I left
They stayed
I suffered

Cleaning the inside,
Funnelling it outside
Nobody cared
Except those that stayed

Never bite the hand
That served you food

And now I'm grateful
For those that smiled
And gracefully told me
To stand up

thehighermind Aug 2017

goodbye.

saying goodbye to the people that were close to me,
building up walls but i'm saying i'm lonely,
is this my way of drowning myself in self pity?
but i'm changing friends like it doesn't matter,
closing out on those that really matter,
pulling friendship down like tap water,
how do i better myself,
in this weather?

is it better that i stay isolated,
from the world that i used to love.
for now getting high is my only option,
to feel this high thinking i will only get better.

so i lie inside the four walls i have build,
to tell myself how great it is without anyone,
anyone except you.

goodbye to everyone who actually cared,
i say my peace and now it's fair.
what am i gonna do,
when i'm gonna lose everybody,
and myself too.

thehighermind Aug 2017

Crushed on the inside.

what can i say?
what can i do?
to be right there with you.
behind the screen,
screams mean to my brain.
why can't i just be me,
why u did'nt liked it,
do you?

thehighermind Jul 2017

Idea of you

Did I fell deep,
Into just the idea of you?
Or is it,
The idea of being alone,
Terrifies me.

The shape of you,
The smell of you,
Being all around you,
Reminds me of being alive again.

Not knowing everything about you,
Made me wanna know more about you,
But just as I was about to know the things about you,
You left me all alone, without you.

Now I'm here,
Shocked at the things about you,
Because when you were around me,

Nothing else matters,
Except being with you,
and

only

you.

thehighermind Jul 2017

Progress?

was blinded by the light,
but now i see,
they say,
lights will guide you home,
but now i feel,
that i reside in darkness,
where my fondest memories are,
but also some of the scariest.

after being said and done,
being apologetic and im done.
saying sorry wont be enough,
till i get it done,

get it,

done.