they’ll never really know who I am
cause they never bother to ask
people always acting like they give a ****
but they’ll never see behind my mask
I just want to be heard
for you to hear my voice; for you to hear my words
cuz you don’t know that being ignored means being hurt
I’m tired of people knowing my name
but not knowing who I am
I’m not trying to give anyone the blame
I just want them to understand
that I’m don’t wanna be JUST a part of the background
I WANT TO BE HEARD
I WANT TO BE SEEN
I WANT TO FEEL LOVED
FOR BEING ME…

curtains up!

let’s start this show

got my mask on

I’m ready to go



lights on!

put on a smile

they can’t tell it’s fake

but I’ve known for a while



everyone’s watching

can’t let them see

how much my feelings

are destroying me



so its lights, camera, action

everyday… everyday

so no one has to see me

fade away… fade away…

damaged.

my heart, my mind, my soul.

tired.

sleep seems like too farfetched a goal.

lonely.

pieces missing from me that keep me from being whole.

breaking.

the obstacles they throw at me have finally taken their toll.



I’m only human

YOU should know

I’ll never be perfect

so let it go

I make mistakes

I let you down

I make you mad

I make you frown

I’m only human

just a girl

crashing and burning

my way through this world

I fall down

make a bad mistake

but that shouldn’t be

all it takes

for you to stop believing

in me…



I’m only human

can’t you see?

I’m only human

that’s all I’ll ever be

I’m only human

I’m only human

and all I need

is for you to love me…

for me…

All I need is to be loved
By someone who won't leave
When it gets a little hard
To deal with all of me

Someone who will sweep me off my feet
And stare into my eyes
Who will grasp me close to him
through all my tears and sighs

Someone who can be the shining knight
Who'll hold me in his arms
While he battles all my demons
And keeps me safe from harm

Someone who can take my broken pieces
And put them back together
A fierce yet gentle guardian
Who will stand by me forever

Someone who will wipe away my tears
When I shake and cry
Someone who will love me
Through everything
And never say goodbye...

What do you do
When your mind's a living hell
Filled with demons and monsters
And you're trapped beneath their spell?
What do you say
When someone asks if you're okay
But the truth is, it's a struggle
To even make it through the day?
Yet, it all comes down to one thing:
Who you think you can trust
When you've been hurt too many times before
And it's usually because...
You're too soft and you know it
Just accept the truth
You don't know how to stop them
From taking advantage of you...
Still, it wouldn't be so bad
If it weren't for one small thing...
It's sad but quite true, you know
soft hearts break so easily...

Losing my mind right now
Grasping for control
But this time I won't win
I can feel it in my soul
The fog is taking over
The poison's taking hold
I could fight a little longer
But I already feel so cold...

Still, I listen for your voice
But this world is much too loud
How could I ever find
A single voice within a crowd?
You say I should be happy
And that makes me want to scream
You THINK my life is perfect
But things aren't always what they seem...

You don't know what really happens
What goes on behind closed doors
You don't see me fall apart
When I can't take it anymore
You don't know what's on my mind
You don't see behind my mask
Yet... I would tell you everything
If only... you would ask...

Standing on the edge of the crowd
racing mind, sweaty hands
trying to calm down but
you're scared & you can't
your heart beats faster
the voices get louder
the lights start spinning
you're getting dizzy
and you just...
can't seem to...
breathe

Sitting in the crowded lunchroom
self-conscious & afraid
Are they judging me?
Can they somehow see?
My panicked face?
My heartbeat race?
or the anxiety,
taking hold of me,
until I...
just cannot...
breathe?

Why can't I breathe when I need to most?

Standing at the front of class
icy smiles, staring eyes
watching every move I make
trying to see beneath my disguise
Why do they watch me?
What do they hope to see?
As my chest tightens
my visions darkens
And I...
just cannot...
breathe...

But I want to breathe...

Lately, I've just been so tired
Worn out by the troubles of every day
Damaged by the hurtful things
They don't know I've heard them say
The trials that I go through
the struggles that I fight
The thoughts that haunt me in the day
And keep me up at night
It just seems so pointless
to keep moving even though
It would be so much easier
for me to just let go
Sometimes I even wonder
Why I haven't surrendered
Maybe it's because that's not
How I want to be remembered
Although I will admit
I've considered it before
How much easier It'd be
To not wake up anymore
To hear the darkness beckoning
and listen to its call
to open up my arms
and just let myself fall
But then I remember
What I always seem to forget
The reason why I just
Cannot give up yet
I haven't finished my mission
What I was put here to do
I haven't changed the world
Like I've always wanted to...

What’s wrong with me?
Every time I see your face
My heart starts beating
All over the place

I can’t stop these feelings
These emotions you ignite
Even though you hurt me
I still hate it when we fight

The pain that’s in my heart
The things I’ll never say
I guess it’s true you know
There’s always a price to pay

Well this is my price
A pain that cuts so deep
Making me afraid
That I’ll never be complete

Tears hidden in my eyes
A broken heart that barely works
Sadly that doesn’t even
Dent the list of all of my hurts

I know you want to fix this
And you would if you knew how
But you can’t ask me for answers
That are yours to figure out

Knife in the chest
Twist it in deep
Now sit back boy
& Watch me bleed
See what you’ve done
The damage you’ve made
      I just hope it was worth
The cost that I've paid
Oh why did you do this
How could you hurt me so bad
You knew that I liked you
Still, you went and did THAT
Now you’ve broken my heart
When it still wasn’t whole
But you didn’t stop at that
You just had to crush my hope
So now I’m sitting in the ashes
Of the fire that you built
Hoping you get crushed
By the weight of your guilt
Cuz what you did to me
I just didn’t deserve
You couldn’t even tell me
Cuz  you didn’t have the nerve
So I ended up learning it
From somebody else
Cuz you didn’t have the guts
To tell me yourself
So right now I’m just hoping
That one day this won’t hurt
And that you’re hurting just as badly
As this heart that you’ve burned