I've killed myself
t r y i n g
to figure out
a    w a y
to stop my heart from
l y i n g
convincing me that I'm
o k a y

Your love is  hollow
And my love for you is blue
I guess you hurt too

The fact that I'm enchanted by thought of you
makes me wonder whether it's caused by
some kind of escapism or simply fascination
in its most enchanting way.

(l.p)

The most adorable thing
about happiness is when it
takes the pain away
even if it's just for a while*

(l.p)

I want so much to say goodbye to you
let my soul forget what it felt like having you near
let the feeling fade like the sense of my dreams when I wake up
and let the scent of you vanish into air like the smell after rain
when the sun starts shining again
I wish that I could let the sound of your voice die down
and there'll be only pure silence like when I'm awake at night
I'll try to forget the way our hands parted when we parted,
that day when you said your last goodbye
but I can't seem to erase the feeling of your presence,
every single time I recall it feels like the opposite
of the wounding feeling of being alone
and the neverending fear of never falling in love again
the way I fell in love with you
and it makes me crawl back to the comforting
feeling of having you near

(l.p)

Everything comes in waves.

And if the world isn't that beautiful
as it once used to be,
then think back and recall,
how wonderful it once was*

(l.p)

Maybe they fear
that they break their parents' hearts
before their parents fear that their child's heart is broken
now they won't fear it breaking
because of someone else (than before)

(l.p)

Loving
you
was
losing
me.

(l.p)

And then it came rushing over her
The fascination and fear of the unknown; of it
when she thought about it

she wanted so much much to explore every inch of it, study its mind and get lost in the staggering thought of being with *it