For it's only when we can't see
the beauty in ourselves
We truly see the beauty
in the people surrounding us

At first I was terrified
of letting you go
I was terrified
that a certain emptiness
would fill up my heart
and leave it to wither

For a long time
I didn't miss you
and I thought
that I had finally let you go

*but now I realize
with an empty feeling in my heart
that you're gone
forever, sadly enough

Her soul was like a mirror
with no reflection
the purpose of existing
was lost in the shadows
of her soul

Her eyes were like a rainstorm
drops would continue to fall
sometimes she would be like rain
a deluge of liquid pain
(overwhelming every part of her)

I wish I could give her a mirror
and eyes that make her see,
that even though she's hurting now
there's so much more she can be

(l.p*)

I caught myself
feeling that kind of emptiness
as if I was the only person
in the whole wide world
not having anyobdy loving me..

*All because you seemed to be
more absent  than ever before
It made me realize, that love is fragile,
even when you think it's the strongest
force on earth

You planted your kisses in my dreams
that one time I let you in*

*But when I woke up
I felt the bittersweet pain
of missing  your soft lips
on my skin

Finally came winter,
yet another year has gone
I now realize, that we were meant to meet,
forget and then move on

I guess my heart is busy
wasting energy on missing you, so
after all this time I can't stop wondering
if I'll ever let you go.."

(l.p*)

Words untold
truth is detained
here in this heart
broken and pained

parts of the secret
are covered in despise
surrounded by denial
but easily disguised

Truth will be told
and lies will be past
hearts will suffer
or reunite at last

The sun rise, shine and set
The leaves are green, orange or red
The sea is calm, stormy or frozen
Water is lakes, rivers or oceans

The soul is living, regretting or dying
Hearts are breaking, healing or lying
Your eyes are lively, luminous or bleak
Our minds are mad, tangled or weak

I find that everything is constantly changing
but it seems that only I am perpetually unchanging

(l.p)

Believing in love
is a hard thing to do
'cause once I wished
on a shooting star
and it never brought
me to back to you

Sometimes I want to
d i s a p p e a r  
into the evening
s k y
illuminate the
d a r k n e s s
and leave without saying
g o o d b y e

Your eyes were teary
but your veins were dry

You looked so lost
and we wondered why

When the colors disappear
there's is nothing more to see
and when the dying sun goes down
you know where I will be*
--
When the hissing leaves break the silence
and the darkness illuminates the light
I'll find a shelter someplace else
someplace out of sight

I can't write poems; I'm lost for words
I can't write poems*; words rush like birds

The nothingness of everything
is the nothingness of me
the nothingness in everything
is the nothingness in dreams when they flee

Eyes are watching
but the don't see
igorant is everything
we'll ever be

Blood is floating
through our veins
freedom rings
but we're still in chains

Hearts are beating
our hearts are as one
but we're living in our own caves
underneath the sun

The air we breathe
only leaves us to die
our lives starts with hellos
and continues with goodbyes

Nothing's quite the same anymore
everything has changed
and will never be like before

The future is gone and so is the past
time won't let us be
nothing will last

Everything's nothing, nothing is all
we're everything and we're nothing
we're bigger than small

So why can we hurt and still be all right?
Why can our dreams only survive at night?

If only..
There was a love out there
a love so strong that it could
save people from dying
and take all the pain away

If only..
There was a happiness out there
a happiness so strong that it could
save your soul from turning dark
and take all the sadness away

If only..
There was a hope out there
a hope so strong that it could
make you realize that you are loved
and take all the hate away

If only..
There was a world out there
full of love, happiness and hope
a love that would keep you from leaving tonight
and convince you to stay and keep up the fight

(l.p*)

She said
"Why do you let it
get you down?"
as long as you're happy
with your life as it is now,
and you're happy with
who you've become...

you shouldn't
care so much about
the answer. your time
will come

I said*

"Well I am.
in this moment,
just right now"


... but the truth is,
that I don't feel the same
anymore...

My love, I need you to shine your light
'cause my house doesn't feel like a home tonight

the atmosphere is lonely
the hearts are cold
and all I need right now
is a hand to hold

So I've come to you to escape the lies
I ran away to feel at home in your loving eyes

(l.p*)

"Everything's not lost, my dear"
She said that day he was no longer near
the day he got burried six feet under ground
but even with her by my side,
the world kept spinning around

She held me tight that day he passed by
telling me her love would never die
'everything's not lost', I guess it was true
'cause her love was going to get me through

So I guess love is able to heal every wound
and pick you up when you hit the ground
love is going to make death less hard
and avoid your heart from falling apart

Thank you because you were there all along
without you - there is no place where I belong
you're my guardian angel, my shining star
I hope you feel my love wherever you are

(l.p*)

Your loving eyes
comfort me and sing me to sleep
in my dreams of mist and darkness
they're all I've got to keep

On starry nights your eyes reflects
a universe of stars and moons
and before you sing me to sleep
my mind whispers hundreds of see you soon"s

Shelter me,
shelter me with your love
let it pound in my heart
and make me feel alive

shelter me,
shelter me with your presence,
let it be my friend,  let it company me
whenever I feel lonely

shelter me,
shelter me with the look in your eyes
let it reach the bottom of my heart
and make me feel seen and found

shelter me,
shelter me with your words
let them float in my veins,let them float like liquid love
through each and every part of my body

So shelter me, my love,
shelter me with the idea of being loved by you
because that's really all that matters now,
now that everything else is lost.

We saw the same sunrise today
sadly you did not know
the sun shone bright through heavy fog
with no sign of letting go

Through misty eyes I saw you
remembering that day we said goodbye
the day I breathed the morning air
and there was sadness in the sky

But today, my darling - I'm on my way
on my path, on the right track
and yeah, I'm happy most of the time
but at times I also want you back

(l.p*)

The city lights are breaking the darkness
leaving the pieces of my heart
shining like broken glass on the cold ground
be careful, don't touch them
you might get hurt by the fragments
the only parts left of my broken heart.

(l.p)

I crave for your
w o r d s
to comfort the caves of my
h e a r t

I crave for your
s o u l
to stop the world from spinning around
'cause your soul - and only yours
can bring me back to
g r o u n d

(l.p*)

As time went by she became
t r a n s p a r e n t
invisible for the human eye
regrettably  no heart could feel her
when she left without saying
g o o d b y e

My love is sinking like a ship
swallowing at the bottom of the sea
and so I'm sinking too, my dear
with your love, my heart and me

I guess I'll admit I loved you
more than you ever knew
and now as I'm fading away
there's nothing you can undo.

(l.p*)

It has been extremely hard to
m o ve   o n
I've never understood just why, but now I see
when I look deep inside of me,
that you were the only one I could come to
whenever I was sad or blue
whenever I turned into someone
I did not knew

(l.p)

Today I waited for healing in the
r a i n
but not even the raindrops could
wash away the
p a i n

I met a blind man
and he found a love in me
he found an eternal love
that only he could see

I met a deaf man
he heard the unspoken  words in me
words that only could be heard
and understood by he

I met a mute man
he spoke the truth to me
he told why I felt so alone
and know I realize
he's the most beautiful man
I've ever known

Thanks for making me see
thanks for making me hear
thanks for making speak
thanks for making my life so clear

*(l.p)

People tell me I live in a ghost town
but there are no ghosts to see
as good as luck would have it
they're unaware of the ghosts in me

they hang around at midnight
forcing me to stay
but all I really crave for
is to escape and get away

Sometimes they're really nice to me
and cheer me up when I'm down
but mostly they're evil as the devil
leaving me in the sea to drown

It's impossible to even run from them
since they're living in my soul
and not even your sweet love
could save me from this dark hole

But most of all they're my friends
'cause they are always hanging around
keeping me company in these lonely days
so it's okay, that I'm the one they found.

If I was to die tonight
would you try to save my heart
would you try to put the pieces together
and make it complete as it was from the start

If I was to die tonight
would you hold my hand till dawn
would you hold my hand, hold it tight
till the moment I'll be gone.

(l.p*)

Dear Charlotte,

Whenever there was a storm
you had power over sea
you comforted the water
just like you comforted me

I saw you as my guardian angel
always being around
and so you were the shining light
always picking me up from the ground

Now there's something I need you to know,
I've always loved you a lot
and also I want you to know
that you're the one I never forgot

I always knew you liked me,
in a special kind of way
by the sweet concering love
I saw in your eyes every day

And now you have a home
in a special part of my heart
and I guess that's why I miss you
now that I know, that we'll be forever apart.

(l.p*)

I don't find peace in the stars anymore
maybe it's because I'm not lonely
maybe it's because I'm free
or maybe it's just because
I'm no longer in love
with thee.

(l.p)

It felt like the sun
had left the ocean dry
the way you left me
without saying goodbye

it felt like the sky
had fallen down to ground
and suddenly you were everywhere
and all around

it felt like the thunder
had broken the sky
when I heard you jumped off
the building believing you could fly

it felt like the rain
wouldn't stop to fall
just as my tears
wouldn't stop at all

it felt like the sun
couldn't shine the light
when I stood at your funreal
and turned to the dark side.

(l.p)

Dear Sarah,
Why are you so sad?
You shouldn't let people tell you
whether you're good or bad

Why do you feel like you're about to drown?
You shouldn't let your friends,
or even your parents drag you down

Why do you feel drained of energy all the time?
You should be full of life
remember, happiness is not a crime

Why can't I see happiness in your eyes?
You shouldn't let people convince you that
the whole world consists of lies

Dear Sarah,
Why aren't you a happy girl?
You're sweet, thoughtful and one of a kind
don't be fooled by your mind

(l.p)

I have killed every second, every minute, every hour
Waiting for your love to rain like a meteor shower

I have killed every morning, every evening, every night
waiting for you to fill me with inner light

I have killed every day, every month, every year
waiting for our future to reappear

I have killed every intro, every verse, every song
waiting for you to take me to the place where I belong

I have killed every word, every chapter, every book
waiting for you to give back my heart that you took

I have killed every root, every petal, every flower
waiting for you to save me from my zero hour

I have killed every birth, every life, even death
longing for you with my last breath

(l.p)

I met a woman with thoughts so loud
that they killed the silence
and became a crowd

I met a woman with a complicated mind
that left her alone wondering
if she had left herself behind

I met a woman with a soul so frail
that she didn't share it with anyone
so she turned out to be a mysterious tale

I met a woman with words so strong
that whatever she said to you
you knew it wasn't wrong

I met a woman with a heart so good
she didn't share it with many people
but when she shared it with me I understood
that she liked me all along.

(l.p)

She told me about her happy childhood memories
About how she used to wrap up in her favorite blanket
And sit beside her father on the bench at night

It fills me with a certain kind of hapiness to see her eyes light up
when she  tells all about those nights at the bench with her beloved father
But all at once it makes me miserable too to realize it's all memories
It feels like she has realized it too the way she sounds when she tells me about it

It hurts to picture her sitting all alone on the bench at night
Wrapped up in the same old comfortable blanket
Thinking about the old times and how they can never return
How I wish death couldn't touch the people we love the most.

(l.p)

I'll wait for you 'till the ashes hits the ground
'till I won't be able to make a sound

I'll wait for you with the gun against my head
'till I'm standing alone to face my death

I'll wait for you with the knife against my skin
'till the knife cuts so deep that it makes my head spin

I'll wait for you with the noose around my neck
'till it gets tighter and turns me into a wreck

I'll wait for you in the death of night
'till I've given up and lost the fight
I'll wait for you until the day
I take my own life

(l.p)

My longing for you
is wider than the ocean
deeper than the sea
My longing for you
is everything I'll ever be

My longing for you*
is greater than the universe
lighter than the sun
My longing for you will grow stronger
until the day I'm gone

(l.p*)

I met this brown-eyed girl that day
and wonder what she had to say
but as she had studied each and every one
it looked like her thoughts had started to run
I studied that unique look in her eyes
I thought she might be very wise
it seemed like she saw beneath the cover
soon she might be able to uncover
the secret beneath my heavy mask

(l.p)

Being near your gravestone
makes me feel at home
Placing flowers on your burial place
makes me wish I could kiss your face
Lying next to your gravestone
awakes the pain in every single bone
Crying in front of your burial place
makes me feel like I'm trapped in a null space.

(l.p)

I guess I haven't quite revealed
what people mean when they say
that some people feel the rain

Is it the rain that comes along with the thunder?
Making you feel like your world's going under

Is it the rain that is similar to you?
Falling hard as you do too

It it the rain that pours down for a whole day?
That makes you realize that you're not okay

Or is it the rain that is silent and still?
That makes you feel calm as you're standing on the hill

(l.p*)

As we were standing there
and you held me tight
I could send my love in the direction of your heart
by simply holding you close to me..
--
And I guess it was one of these moments
where my love for you was used
the way I wanted it to
To comfort you;
as your eyes were filled with pain
your heart was filled with emptiness
your soul was filled with sorrow
and your words were filled with tenderness
--

(l.p*)