good morning to those who don't realize how stressed they are until they unclench their jaw to speak.
to those who wake up late and still get there on time, to those who wake up early and still get there late.
good morning to those who forgot to go to bed, to those who went to bed as soon as they got home, and those who work the night shift.
good morning to those who wake up before the sun rises, to those who work longer hours than the body is meant to,
and those who believe sleep is a luxury they can't afford.
good morning to everyone who secretly loved pink but couldn't say because it was cliché.
good morning to everyone who was always described as eclectic and/or weird, to those who look back at old photos and videos and cringe, and to those who love their old photos.
to the ones who still haven't found their style or aesthetic.
and good morning to you, because you deserve to have a good day.

many big changes are occurring:
changing jobs,
moving out,
starting college,
etc.
i come and go frequently,
although never quite staying in
one place for too long.
sometimes getting too
comfortable
can be scary

here i am,
nearly a year and a half later,
and I still experience the feeling of
heartbreak
almost every day because of you.
so, thanks for that, i guess.

i’ve tried to date two guys since you.
one was manipulative.
the other was abusive.
i’ve been so badly hurt by so many
relationships that i don’t know
who to trust or what to do

meanwhile,
my entire life has been
flipped upside down.
graduation,
multiple job changes,
friendship changes,
moving,
everything is changing.
it feels like i’m drowning,
but in the surface i’m perfectly fine.
kind of like a duck:
calm on the surface,
chaos below the water simply
trying to stay afloat

i gave you chaos without destruction
love without war
peace without ignorance.

you had only unrealistic
expectations. and yet
i met them.
time after time after time,
i always met them.
because i knew you needed
someone. something. anyone.
and i hoped it would be me
but it never was.

‘i love you’ could be heard
echoing in our lives,
but it never rang true for you,
you only loved what i provided.
you never loved me for who i was.